Chapter 4

John could hardly concentrate on his paperwork; he was too busy thinking about Kevin touching Evangeline and being with her when he couldn't, it was too much for him. He was getting a headache. John decided to call it a night and go by Capricorn for a drink, he went by Bo's office, but he'd already left for the night.

"Lieutenant, the Commissioner has already left with Nora." Officer Norris said, he sat outside Bo's office.

"Thanks Norris, I'm heading out, so no calls unless it's an emergency got it?" John didn't want to be interrupted in case he caught Evangeline at home.

"Yes, night sir." Norris didn't want to get on John's bad side and knew that wasn't pretty.

John walked out of the police station with one thing on his mind and he was determined to get his way.

The Buchanan's.

Jessica couldn't wrap her mind around what was happening to her. She wanted it all to go away and to have never happened, but she knew that wasn't the case.

Tess whoever she was wasn't leaving without putting up a fight, but Jessica was getting stronger just by having Antonio by her side. The only downside to this was that Antonio didn't know a thing about Tess and Jessica didn't intend on telling him anytime soon.

She heard the front door open and sat up from the couch to see who was here. Jessica walked into the foyer and found Natalie sitting on the steps and she could hear crying.

"Natalie, honey what's wrong?" Jessica went over to her sister, sat by her and wrapped her arms around her.

"Nothing for you to worry about, I don't want to put my problems on you." Natalie sniffled.

"No, you can tell me what's bothering you and we can try to fix it." Jessica really wanted to be there for Natalie, but she had a feeling that she knew what the problem was about.

"Okay, it's John and you probably already knew that, but he's pulling away from me and I can't help but feel that he's keeping something from me too."

"Well have you talked to him about what's keeping him distant? It might help." Jessica didn't know what else do to say, she didn't know all the details about Nat and John's relationship, but she did know that John wasn't over Evangeline yet. Maybe he would never be over her.

Evangeline's Apartment

Coming out of the bathroom fresh from her shower, Evangeline began to lotion her legs, arms, and torso. Next she sprayed her favorite Victoria Secret's scent, Amber Romance, all over her body and slipped into a two-piece leopard camisole and capri pajama set. Evangeline stood in front of the mirror and brushed her hair up into a high ponytail so that it touched the back of her neck. She felt so relaxed that she didn't mind indulging her sweet tooth tonight; she walked into the kitchen, grabbed a spoon, and took a pint of Haggen Daz, Double Chocolate Chip Ice Cream out of the freezer, and walked into the living room to settle in front of the t.v. with her ice cream.

Before she could get too comfortable the doorbell rang, she really didn't want to get up, and ruin her alone time, but she raised better than that. So before going to open the door, she put her ice cream back in the freezer so it wouldn't melt, and walked to the door.

Standing on her doorstep was none other than John Mcbain looking relaxed and sexy. He was leaning against the doorjamb nonchalantly.

"John, hi what are you doing here?" Evangeline self consciously lifted her hand to run it through her hair, but soon stopped after she realized that it was in a ponytail.

"Hey, I just thought that you could use some company and I wanted to check on you."

John walked into her apartment, not waiting for her to verbally invite him.

Evangeline stepped back to let him in and closed the door. She felt like she had to put something on to cover up her exposed skin.

"Um, John if you would excuse me for one minute." Evangeline went back into her room and grabbed a white bathrobe that was lying on her chaise lounge and slipped into it.

John was looking at some family photos when she returned to the living room with a white bath robe wrapped around her beautiful body; he wished he could be that bath robe right now.

"Humph humph." Evangeline cleared her throat and pulled the robe tighter around her waist, when she saw John staring at her.

John turned toward her, "I was just admiring your pictures here, and you're just as beautiful in your teen years as you are now." He took a few steps toward her.

John was so close to her now that she could smell his cologne, the cool scent of his aftershave, and his natural essence. Evangeline sat down on the couch for fear of falling down, she crossed her legs.

"So John, what is this really about?" Evangeline asked.

"I was just in the neighborhood and wanted to see you." John was stalling for time; he didn't have any reasons for being here, except for wanting to see her.

"Come on John, were not together anymore and you don't have to come up with lame excuses like you were checking on me or you were just in the neighborhood. I told you that we could be friends and I meant that, so why don't you cut the crap and tell me what's wrong." Evangeline couldn't understand how John still needed to be around her at all times and know where she was at all times.

John sat across her and folded his hands in a temple, resting his chin on them. All he knew was that he needed to be near her and that was all there was to it.

"Look, I know that we had a fall out a few months back, and I know that this thing with Natalie must be killing you inside, but I don't mean to hurt you. I just want things to go back to the way they were before it became a disaster."

"John, we can't go back to the way things were, I don't think we ever can go back. I mean look at where we're at now, you're with Natalie and you're both happy with each other, and I'm moving on. Slowly." She silently added.

John gave her his signature grin that she always loved. Couldn't she see that he wasn't happy with Natalie, and the only woman that could make him happy was her? He looked at her with pleading eyes and reached out to touch her, but Evangeline stood up before he had the chance.

"We can't do this John; every time we're in a room together we end up having sex and not that I'm not complaining, because we were good together, that was a different chapter in our lives and I thought that at least I had closed that chapter in my life, obviously you haven't yet.

John shook his head he couldn't believe what he was hearing. How could she just stand there and say that she closed him out of her life and that she was moving on? Here he was still in love with her and she didn't even see it.

"I'm not happy with her, I never was and I was stupid to get involved with her in first place. We can start over if that's what it will take to have you back with me." John was grasping at straws now, and was desperate to get her to listen to him about how he felt about her.

Evangeline paced back and forth in front of John wondering what he wanted from her. She couldn't take the pain and constant fighting between them anymore, she was going hear him out and finally be rid of John Mcbain once and for all.

"Alright Mcbain, let's hear what you've got to say." She sat down on the arm of the loveseat and crossed her arms waiting for John's explanation.

John smiled, happy that she was going to listen to his side of the story.

"I was never in love with Natalie and I will never be in love with her. The only woman besides Caitlin that holds my heart is you Evangeline and I'll be damned if I let you walk away from me with my heart in your hands again." John took a deep breath realizing that he had been holding it the whole time he made his speech.