Chapter 7

Natalie couldn't believe how John was acting; she'd never seen him this riled up. He kept going on and on about how he screwed things up, and how he couldn't change the past, and how his heart was broken. She could only assume that he was talking about Caitlin, because she knew he was definitely not talking about that stuck up, high and mighty princess Evangeline.

As she got John through the door and on to the bed, she began to wonder what was really going through John's mind. Deciding that now was as good a time as any to pick his brain about his feelings for her, Natalie started to ask him questions has he shrugged his black leather jacket off and kicked off his black boots.

"Hey John, why haven't we been together since we went undercover in Las Vegas?" Natalie was trying to look busy with straightening the living room, but was failing miserably.

John chuckled and lay against the head board. 'The truth is Natalie I wasn't into having a relationship with you and truth be told I'm still not sure what the hell I'm doing with you now. I should have kept my distance from you and listened when Evangeline told me that you were trying to break us up, but I told her it wasn't true. Then I didn't think that you had feelings for me and I definitely knew I didn't have any feelings for you I ignored the signs. Now I'm just tired of pretending and playing games Natalie.

What the hell is this son of a bitch talking about? Natalie thought to herself.

She was appalled and shocked, Natalie couldn't believe her ears. When she asked John how he felt she didn't expect this heartfelt confession to come out of his mouth.

"Wait, so what are you saying John that you really don't want to be with me?" Natalie sniffed; her eyes were starting to water.

"Yeah, that's exactly what I'm saying. Look Natalie you're really sweet and all, but you're just not my type and quite frankly I don't have any feelings for you except maybe as a friend." John was starting to drift off and his head was lolling to the side.

"I'll just forget you said that; only because you're drunk and need to sleep it off." Natalie shook her head not wanting to believe the mean and hateful things John was saying to her.

John closed his eyes and tried to get a clear thought through his already muggy brain. He didn't understand why Natalie was still here and clinging on to him when he would never love her, like he loved Evangeline. This phony relationship had gone far enough and he had to end it now.

Natalie was coming out of the kitchen carrying a water bottle and two aspirin for John.

"I thought you could use these for that headache you got there. Next time you decide to drink, maybe you should stop after three. Here take these and try to get some rest I'll stay here tonight." Natalie placed the aspirin in his hand, opened the bottle, and placed the cap on his nightstand.

"You can just leave the water on the nightstand before you leave, and while you're at it, could you take anything that's yours with you as well." John popped the aspirin in his mouth and chased them down with some water.

Again Natalie was flabbergasted. What the hell; was he trying to tell her something or was the alcohol just talking?

"Wait a damn minute, what are you telling me John? And take my stuff with me like I'm never coming back here or something; what has gotten into you?" She tried to make light of the situation by laughing softly, but it had no affect on John, because he kept a straight face.

"No, I mean get your shit, and get the hell out of my place. Now would be a good time, because I have to get up early for work in the morning. You do know what that is don't you; it's the place where you actually do work." John sat up and placed his feet on the floor, trying to get his bearings.

"No, you can't break up with me, you love me and I love you. Were can be so happy together John, it's not like I'm pressuring you into a more committed relationship, or pressed you into saying I love you, so don't push me away John we are destined to be together.

John now stood up and walked in front of Natalie, so she could understand him loud and clear.

"I really don't want to hurt your feelings, but I don't love you. My heart belongs to Evangeline and there is nothing that you or anyone else can do about that. Now I'm pretty sure you know that I do have trouble with expressing myself and my feelings, and Evangeline helps me by asking me how I feel and getting me to open up to her. You and I have this different relationship where it's just friendly and comfortable for me. Unlike me you want more from me than I'm willing to give you." John took a step back when she reached for him.

"I don't believe you, that conniving bitch put you up to this didn't she, she must be really desperate to break us apart?" Natalie couldn't believe that miss high and mighty princess was trying to steal her man.

"Don't you dare call Evangeline that she; has done nothing to deserve your disrespect. My breaking things off with you has nothing to do with her, so leave her out of it, and if I ever hear you talking about Evangeline like that again you will be sorry that you ever met me." John looked at Natalie with disgust and pity in his eyes; he didn't understand how he ever let himself be pulled into this thing with Natalie.

"Whatever you son of a bitch; you will not get off this easy with breaking up with me and throwing me out. Do you know who my family is, the Buchanans and I will make you pay for leaving me?" Natalie gathered her things and walked out the door slamming it behind her.

"Good riddance to you and don't come back." John said to himself as he fell face forward on the bed instantly falling asleep.