It isn't very difficult to see why
You are the way you are
Doesn't take a genius to realise
That sometimes life is hard
I looked over at my best friend, who was sitting crying on my bed. "We have to do something," I told Owen who was standing next to me.
He nodded. "She's really bummed."
"Of course she is! Her best friend in the whole world just got up and left yesterday," I cried.
Owen shrugged. "Via, you know you love me, no matter how many times you shout at me."
I rolled my eyes. "Yeah, whatever. So, what do we do?"
"I dunno. You're the girl!" Owen said, dumbly.
I sighed. "Fine. I'm going to talk to her."
"Great idea!" Owen said enthusiastically. I think he was just glad he didn't have to get involved. Making people feel better isn't exactly Owen's strong point.
"Yeah. Just stay here. And don't touch anything," I said.
Owen looked over at Keely, and nodded. "Mkay."
Even Owen could feel the bad vibes coming from Keely. Oh boy, I thought as I walked over to her. She's really upset.
It's gonna take time
But you'll just have to wait
You're gonna be fine
But in the meantime
"Are you okay Keely?" I asked, standing next to her.
She nodded. "What gave you the impression that I wasn't?"
"You're mascara is running, you're clothes totally don't match and Phil isn't by your side," I listed. "Would you like me to continue?"
She shook her head. "Via, Phil's gone."
"I know. So, do you want to talk about it?" I said, and sat down next to her.
Keely threw her arms around me. "Oh Via! I don't want him to have gone! I love him!"
Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
'Cause you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday
"And there was me thinking that getting you to admit that would be the hard part," I smiled.
Keely looked at me and sniffed. "You knew?"
I nodded. "Yeah. I'm a good guesser. As is the rest of the school."
Keely wiped her eyes. "They all knew?"
"Well you didn't exactly hide it, did you?" I said. "Come on Keely. Talk to me."
And I don't want to hear you tell yourself
That these feelings are in the past
You know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf
Because pain is built to last
"I'm alright," Keely said, standing up.
I pulled her back down again. "Oh no you're not. Keely, if you keep these things bottled up, it could be unhealthy."
She raised her eyebrows.
"My mum's a psychiatrist," I explained. "Spill!"
Keely sighed. "I'm never going to see him again Via. I envisioned myself, married to him, kissing him, being with him, forever and always."
Everybody sails alone
But we can travel side by side
Even if you fail
You know that no one really minds
I looked at her. "So, you want to move on?"
She shook her head. "No! I want him back."
"Well, maybe the best way to love is to let go," I said, looking her in the eye.
Keely's eyes welled p with tears. "I don't want to let go."
"Nobody wants to. I didn't want to move. But in letting go to things we love, we get to find new things we love. Have new experiences," I told her.
Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
'Cause you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday
Keely shook her head. "I don't want new things. Phil was the best. My first, last and everything. I can't let go."
"Then hold on, and let go," I said, and hugged her.
Don't hold on, but don't let go
I know it's so hard
You've got to trust yourself
I know it's hard, so hard
Her reply was almost inaudible. "But how?"
"Cherish him in your heart forever," I smiled. "But do try to be happy. And even if you die an old spinster who never married, at least you'll have tried."
I could see the pain in her eyes as she nodded. She didn't want to. But she knew that it was for the best. "Okay. I'll try."
"Great," I said, and hugged her again.
There would never be another. Not as good as Phil. That I knew. He and Keely were soul mates. But at least Keely was trying to heal over.
There was only a deep scar left now. But it was one that would never fade.
Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
'Cause you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday
I've been sick, so I haven't been writing as much. Plus, Anything But Ordinary is really becoming hard. So, yes, I will try to write more, but while I'm still sick, don't expect anything great.
Heal Over - KT Tunstall.
And is it just me, or has everything become slower? I mean, I used to log on, and there used to be like, ten updates to various stories, but I logged on today and nothing had been updated! Oh well, I'll update more now.