A/N: Kira's POV. The song that Kira will listen to on her ipod is David Gray's This Years Love. It's a really good song. I recommend downloading it.

Kira had walked home; she had been too upset at the time to ask Larkin or Russell for a ride, though she should have because now she had blisters from her stupid flip flops. Sitting on the toilet lid Kira placed two small Band-Aids in-between her big toe and second toe; wincing from the skin being so raw. She sat their not knowing what to do. She didn't know if she wanted to cry, scream, or just throw something at the wall. So she sat there, just thinking.

I don't understand. Why would he say that? I'm not shamed of him, a little scared of what our parents are gonna say, sure, but not ashamed. Stupid bastard! I'm not a whore, course I can see how he would think that. It's not like before the hurricane I spent much time with him, I was always out partying on the weekends. But he still shouldn't have even said it the prick... Fuck! What I said to him; he's never gonna forgive me. He not bad at that, hell he's better at getting me off than me. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck. We fucked it up so bad.

Kira could feel her eyes start to water. She didn't even try to fend off the tears just let them fall. Her shoulders started to shake; she drew her legs up to hug her knees. Tears were falling freely now. Her mascara was starting to run; Kira didn't care all she wanted was for her heart to stop hurting. It felt as if her chest was going to cave in at any moment. A door slammed downstairs. Merial is home.

Knowing she could not let her step mother see her hysterically crying with getting asked some questions, she stood up grabbed some toilet paper to wipe her face. Kira looked in the mirror. Her eyes were red and puffy. Her cheeks were still wet and now smudged with black mascara. Taking the tissue Kira tried to wipe away the make up; it didn't work. Okay just breathe. In, out, in, out. It will be okay. Kira tired to reassure herself, but she knew deep down the only thing that could make her feel better was the person who had caused the tears. Turing on the water taps she splashed cold water on her face, it felt cool and soothing on her hot skin. She washed away the mascara, and her eyes looked a little less puffy. Hopefully she would be able to get pass Merial without her noticing. Carefully opening the bathroom door she stood silently listening for Merial. There was no noise, so as fast as her legs would carry her Kira ran to her room.

In the safety of her room, Kira took a deep breath. Just don't think about him. He doesn't matter any more. He's no one as far as I am concerned. She knew she was lying to herself; Jesse could never be no one. Kira laid on her bed; reaching over to turn on her ipod. She clicked shuffle songs, and just let the music wash over her.

This years love had better last/Heaven knows it's high time/And I've been waiting on my own too long/But when you hold me like you do

Kira loved this song, even though it was kind of old. She laid there and let the song wipe away her thoughts. Praying that maybe for a few minutes she could stop thinking about Jesse.

It feels so right/I start to forget/How my heart gets torn/When that hurt gets thrown/Feeling like you can't go on

Her nose got that tickling feeling; she knew she was gonna cry again. Her eyes watered so fast she didn't have a chance to try and stop them.

Turning circles when time again/It cuts like a knife oh yeah/If you love me got to know for sure/Cos it takes something more this time/Than sweet sweet lies/Before I open up my arms and fall/Losing all control/Every dream inside my soul/And when you kiss me/On that midnight street/Sweep me off my feet/Singing ain't this life so sweet

Her pillow was becoming wet from the tears running off her face. Kira tried to keep from any noises from escaping, this way there was no way for Merial to hear her.

This years love had better last/This years love had better last/So whose to worry/If our hearts get torn/When that hurt gets thrown/Don't you know this life goes on/And won't you kiss me/On that midnight street/Sweep me off my feet/Singing ain't this life so sweet
Kira clutched her pillow to her face drowning out the sounds she knew she had to be making by now.
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last

Kira sniffled as the song died down, her tears still falling. Why did I fuck this up? Was her last thought as she cried herself to sleep.

Kira woke up to a bright sun shinning through her window. As soon as she sat up her head started to pound. For a moment she was confused as to why her head would hurt so early in the morning, but then she remembered how hard she cried for most of the night. The last thing she wanted to do right now is venture out of her room. Kira wanted nothing more than to spend the day wallowing in self pity underneath her blankets, damning the day she had ever noticed Jesse. But unfortunately her need to pee was much greater. Standing on shaky legs, and noticing she never changed out of her clothes Kira walked out her room to the bathroom. Walking down the hallway she heard Merial talking to someone. Dad?...no that's not dad. Realization hit Kira. Jesse was home.

Fuck. Just get into the bathroom fast. Walking faster Kira was about to open the door when she heard Jesse climb the stairs. She was frozen; she couldn't react all she could do was stand there and wait. Jesse reached the top of the stairs quite fast. He stopped dead when he saw Kira standing there like a deer caught in headlights. He took in her appearance; her eyes were swollen and red, her cheeks still held tear streaks. He reached out to touch her before he realized, but halfway there he seemed to come to senses and whipped his hand back as if it had been burned. Kira couldn't have stopped the hurt expression even if she had wanted to.

"Kira" Jesse finally began after a few moments of awkward silence. "I just"

"I don't care Jesse" Kira said not letting him finish his statement, just walking into the bathroom and shutting the door. As she went to lock the door, Jesse barged in.

"No you do care or you wouldn't look like you cried the whole night." Jesse looked deep into her eyes as he said this. Wow I must look like crap.

"Well that's the politest way any one has ever said I looked like shit." She knew she sounded bitchy, but hey this boy had just completely destroyed her heart not a mere twelve hours ago.

"Kira you could never look like shit, even with bed head and swollen eyes you're still beautiful." Jesse had look so sincere when he said it Kira could feel her heart mending. No. I'm stronger than this.

"Jesse get out. I am not afraid to pee with you in here." To get her point she unbuttoned her shorts and started pulling down the zipper.

"Yea cuz pulling down your shorts is really gonna make me want to leave." He smirked. Kira couldn't hold back her anger now; he was making jokes when their relationship lay in ruins.

"Why would you want to see a whore pull down her pants? It's not like its anything special since according to you, everyone has see me with my pants down." She didn't want to but she threw it in his face making him see how much he had hurt her. Jesse's face fell at those words. Kira could see the spark of laughter leave his eye.

"Kira." He sighed. "I… I didn't mean any of that. You have to know that I was just pissed that you could feel so ashamed of what we have…or had whatever. I never meant anything I said; well besides the whole I can't believe your ashamed thing. Its just I don't see anything wrong with us. Yea I get it we're relate, but not through blood if we were to have kids right now they wouldn't be genetically deformed or anything. Not that I'm thinking of having kids with you right now. And I… I don't know what I'm saying but I never meant to hurt you. I would never want to hurt you. And besides you hurt me." He had said this all in one breath, by the end it had come out so quiet that Kira had troubling hearing it. But when she did she could feel her heart beating again. I know he fucked up, but look at him.

"I never meant to hurt you either, and I was trying to tell you I was not ashamed of us or you. I was just freaked out that Larkin had said that, and I know were not blood related but still our parents would freak out if they found out you do realize this right?" Jesse nodded his head. "good. Never think for another minute that I'm ashamed of you Jesse. This relationship will never work if you think that I think that I'm better than you. Because I'm not if anything your better than me, and don't say your not. I know that you just got freaked out by me. But next time I freak you out let me speak don't jump down my throat for shit I don't do."

Kira walked closer to where Jesse stood. She stopped in front of him looking up at him she placed her hands on his waist. Jesse shivered slightly at the contact. Good I sill affect him. Jesse threw his arms around her back and pulled her flush against him. They stood for what seemed eternity just holding each other. Jesse's hands were rubbing random patterns on Kira's back. Her tank top started to bunch up and rise causing his hands to touch skin. Kira could feel her stomach tighten with that familiar feeling of desire, of course it could have been the fact that she still had yet to go the bathroom. Damn it I still have to pee.

"Jesse I have to pee" she said pushing away from him. He was trying to pull her close again, but she eluded him.

"Jesse please I have to pee really bad, just go to your room I will be there in a minute."

"Promise?"

"Promise." Kira replied as she pushed him out the door. A couple of minutes later she was walking across the hall to his room. Opening the door, she found him lying on his bed reading some book. Jesse sat up straighter when he noticed her walk in. so cute. Kira walked towards the bed, she stopped when she reached the edge. Looking at Jesse she silently asked if she could lie down. His tiny head nod was all she needed. Kira crawled up the bed pushing Jesse back also. As he lay there stiff as a board, not sure what Kira was doing, she couldn't help the quiet giggle to escape her. He smiled at her knowing the uncomfortable feelings were about to pass. Kira head still pounded from the lack of good sleep and all the tears she cried. I just want to lay here with him, and forget about everything before this.

"Jesse can I just lay here awhile" she said as she laid her head on his chest and throwing her left arm around his waist.

"Yea." Jesse whispered as he settled himself and picked up the book again. Kira she laid and listened to him breathe as her world slowly went dark.