Okay short chapterrr I am so sorry.
I am dedicating this chapter to all my readers cuz u all rockk :P
I hope I get to update soon, but ehh school sucks. I will try tho I will tryy
I do not own the outsiders, they belong to S.E HINTON and she rocks!
But I do ownn Joey hehe hes mine mine!
and im sorry for any spelling errors, to tell you the truth I suck at writing. In english we had to write a story and she said she loved my story but I got a 65 because of all my errors haha what a fruit. So please don't hold my errors against me I already know I suck )
Joeys POV
I was shocked when I found out that Ponyboy cut himself.. But then again I wasn't really that shocked. I guess because I know how upset Pony was after his friends Dally and Johnny died. I remember him seeming really tormented, even though I wasn't expecting him to start cutting himself. Maybe im getting ahead of myself.. I don't even know the real reason, but I don't know what else it would be.
Back to Ponyboys' POV
"Joey, I would have never guessed"Joey seemed like the kid that would never cut, but I guess I shouldn't judge people so much
Besides I don't know if I look like a kid that would never cut or not.
"yeah well"he shrugged sitting down on the car seats
I joined him
"why do you?"
"I don't know, but when my parents fight its just unbearable, especially when they want me to take sides and stuff. They don't know it but whenever they start I go into the bathroom and do this"then he lifted up both his sleeves revealing many small cuts
"golly how long have you been doing it"
"for a while now"
there was silence between us for a moment until Joey spoke again
"I never thought I would show anyone this, but I guess I just felt comfortable with you Pony, like I can tell you anything"
I smiled "thanks Joey, im here for you"
"you wanna share with me why you cut"the word cut seemed to strike me, im not sure why
"well, I guess it's because of Dally and Johnnys..."it was hard talking about them especially Johnny, he had been my best friend.
"You don't have to talk about it man"Joey said reassuringly
"It might be better if I do"I took a breath then continued
"after they d-died, it was weird because everyone else was upset but they seem like they have gotten over it, well not gotten over it but I don't know.."
Joey smiled
"I guess it's because Soda still has his best friend, and well Darry I don't know about, but Johnny he was my best friend"
Joey squirmed a bit
"Joey.."
"Yeah?"
"Thanks"
Joey was about to say something but I cut him off
"I was never able to talk about Johnny and Dallas' deaths until now, I like talking with you Joey"
"likewise"he smiled and I smiled back
Then we talked for a long long time, about a whole bunch of things, and then all of a sudden we got on the topic of suicide. We both got caught up in it and it was weird, we got a little excited and we talked faster we let out all of our feelings. I hardly realized what I was saying and when I did I stopped in mid sentence. The smile on Joeys face quickly faded and we were silent for a second. It was a funny silence, I didnt think I would ever talk about killing myself, I mean im not that upset. Am I? It was a scary thought for me, killing myself I mean, like cutting was different it helped me with the pain. But death, I don't know that just scared me, I didnt wanna die.. Did I?
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