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I started doing bad in school again, Darry is gonna kill me. I cant help it though, I try and I think im doing okay then I get my test back and im always failing. Im usually smart, I don't know what's happening to me. Darry said if I failed one more test he was gonna give me hell, and right now im bringing home two failed tests. I could just not show him, but tell you the truth id rather let him know im doing bad instead of him seeing my report card and maybe having a heart attack. I trudged home feeling sorry for myself, I hate that it makes me feel pathetic. When I got to my house I shivered, not wanting to go inside knowing that Darry would be home soon. When I opened the door I froze cause there was Darry sitting in his chair. I didnt think he'd be home he's usually at work until I little later, then I remembered to move. I walked inside said hello to Darry and walked into the bathroom, I washed my face and stared at myself in the mirror. Then I walked out and walked over to where Darry was, I sat on the couch next to the chair and stared at the muted television. Why he always read with the television on but muted I really don't know.

"Darry.."my voice sounded funny to me

"what's up Pony?"he peered at me over his book

"um"my voice quivered

Then instead of telling him I walked over to my backpack and got my two tests out, my hands where shaking and I could feel Darrys' stare on my back. I turned around slowly an expectant look on Darrys' face made my heart sink into my stomach.

"Here"I said in a whisper

He was silent and I saw his face change expression quickly I never saw his eyes filled with so much anger. Here we go. Then he started yelling at me it got me so mad, so I yelled back, and said I few things maybe I shouldn't. Then Darry gave me this deadly stare which shut me right up, then he slapped me. He slapped me so hard that I spun around and fell onto the floor, my chest breaking my fall and knocking the wind right out of me. I sat on the floor for a two minutes just trying to catch my breath, those were the two most longest minutes of my life. When I finally got the air back in my lungs I turned around but Darry wasn't there. I stumbled to the window and noticed that his car was gone, I didnt even hear him leave. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a kitchen knife then stormed into the bathroom. I looked into the mirror, the left side of my face was the color of a rose. I could see the hand print he left on me, and all around it and in the center was a purple bruise. I didnt take my eyes off my reflection as I steadily cut more into my wrists, I watched my face. It didnt change expression but I saw tears fill my eyes, and then finally overflow over my cheeks. I looked into the sink seeing the blood drips I turned on the water and dried off my arm. Then I went into my bedroom and laid down on my right cheek so I wouldn't lean on my damaged side. I heard the front door open and someone roaming around our fridge, I heard the clinking of bottles and heard the jugging of a drink.

"Darry? Ponyboy, any of you'se home?"it was Soda

I didnt say anything, I didnt feel much like talking.

"Hey Pony, what's eating you?"he said as he entered our room

I didnt move or speak

"jeez what happened to your face! Did you get jumped!"he pushed the hair our of my face and looked closer at my bruised cheek

"Darry did it"

Soda looked taken aback.

"What?"

"I said Darry did it, I failed two tests and got in a fight with him then he just slapped me"I didnt blink once

"Pony that's not a normal slap"soda said stroking my cheek gingerly

"I didnt say it was a normal slap, I told you, it was a Darry slap"

Soda had a pathetic look in his eyes and I hated it, I didnt like it when people looked at me that way. I heard the front door open again and this time it was Darry, I could tell from the sound of his big black boots on the living room floor. Soda looked at me one more time giving me another pathetic look before walking out of the room. I heard some talking from the living room, I knew they were talking about me and I didnt like it. I didnt hear what Darry had to say to me, and I didnt like the fact that it took Soda persuasion to make him talk to me. So I opened the window in my room, our house was only one story so it wasn't much of a jump to the ground. I walked to the lot and I saw somebody already there sitting on the car seats. That made me wanna turn away I didnt much feel like talking, that was until I realized that that someone was Joey.

"Hey man what's up?"

"I just got into a fight with Darry"

I saw him looking at my wrist and he could see my fresh cuts because I wasn't wearing a sweatshirt, which was a pretty dumb idea.

"What happened?"

"I failed two more tests and yelled back at him"then I turned my face to look at Joey

"Jesus!"I knew he was talking about the bruise it was the size of my whole cheek

"is that from?"

"Yeah Darry"

"golly Pony I didnt think he'd get that made over a grade"

"well I guess he did"I looked at my dirty converse

I didnt like worrying Darry and shoving him to do this, I know it was my own fault that I got this bruise, but I couldnt help it! Me and Joey sat there in silence for a long time, my mind was cluttered with all my thoughts. Then we heard footsteps rounding the corner of the lot we both looked up and saw Soda.

"Hey Pony, hey Joey"he said taking a seat next to us

"I thought I'd find you here"

I nodded my head but didnt say anything

"that's a pretty good bruise Ponyboys got there huh Joey?"Soda said knocking Joeys knee with his hand

Joey just nodded but not because he was mad, just because he didnt much like talking with the other guys.

Soda let out an uncomfortable sigh, and scratched his head, I was jealous of Soda, some girls would come up to me in school only to ask about Soda. I hated that, they made me feel used, and unwanted. Soda looked real tired and he was still in his work clothes that were dirty with oil. Even then girls would still think he was a doll, I think they like his face a lot he does have a pretty face. Not like Darrys, his face looked like it was carved from stone unlike Sodas face which was soft. The best thing I have going for me is my hair, its pretty tuff and I like it a lot. I remember being mad as hell when Johnny made me dye and cut my hair but I got over it. Some girls say they like my smile and my eyes, so I guess that's good, but I don't know what makes guys have a "cute" smile. I guess it matters if the guy has crooked teeth or something, I have no clue and I didnt really care much. I was so deep in my thoughts I didnt even realize Soda talking to me, it was kinda weird that I zoned out that much.

"...eal sorry"Soda was finishing what he was saying

"huh, what'd ya say Sodapop?"

"Jeez you don't have to ignore me, I didnt do nothing to you"he was playing with the buttons on his shirt

"I wasn't ignoring you, I was just thinking was all"I fiddled with my shoe laces

"yeah you do space out a lot, I guess I should be used to it by now"

"well anyway I was saying that Darry is real sorry he hit you like that, he didnt mean it none Ponyboy"

"then why cant he say it to me? Why do you always have to be the one to tell me?"I said stubbornly

"he was gonna say it, but when we got to your room someone wasnt there and the window was open"Soda glared at me but then smiled

"come on Pony lets go get a coke or something, you too Joey come on"he got up and gave me a pleading look

"alright"I stood up slapping Joeys' knee and he followed

We walked down the street taking the back roads to avoid trouble with any socs, that might be looking for some. Our walk was pretty quiet and Soda seemed pretty uncomfortable, then we finally reached the stop at the corner where we usually went to buy a coke. Soda held open the door for us and we walked in, it was pretty empty in the store except for a girl that was browsing the potato chips. I saw her eye Soda and it made me sour, I never did like being the jealous type but I cant help it. She smiled at him but he seemed to not notice, the girl noticed to and looked upset that he wasnt looking her way. We walked over to get a few drinks out of the fridges, Soda and Johnny got cokes and I got a Pepsi, I loved Pepsi. The girl seemed to be edging near us, did she think she was a spy or something, sneaking up like that. It made me laugh tho she really wanted to talk to Soda I guess.

"I think that girl wants to talk to ya"I whispered

he glanced at her and smiled

"I saw that girl by the gas station today she drove by twice but didnt stop for gas"that made me laugh, this girl must have really liked Soda

"she's pretty"I said

"yeah, but ever since Sandy, no girl has really been catching my eye"he walked away to go browse the chips

"hi"I looked over and the girl was standing there, she was really pretty. She had long dark blonde hair that fell to the middle of her back and real pretty eyes they were the color of summer grass, she smelled pretty too.

"Hello"I said shoving my hands in my pockets so she wouldn't see my cuts

"is he your brother?"here we go

"yeah that's Sodapop"

"Sodapop? Cute name, I think he's real cute too"she smiled over at him but he had his back turned

"does he have a girl?"she asked expectantly

"no"her face lit up for a second I felt bad to tell her the next part

"but his girlfriend just dumped him and he's pretty shook up about it, he hasn't been interested in any girl for a while"I shrugged but then flashed her a smile

"that's too bad"she looked a little down

"but what's worse is that bruise on your face, what happened?"

"Oh I got in a little fight was all, but im alright"

"that's good, that your alright I mean"

I nodded and then there was a small silence until she said

"well I guess I better go"

"bye"I smiled again

"you know you have a real cute smile"

I felt my face turn red.

"Thanks, I like yours too"

"im sorry I didnt even introduce myself, im Sasha"she stuck out her hand

"im Ponyboy"I shook her hand

she smiled, her lips were a pretty rosy pink color

"goodbye Ponyboy"then she left

Joey came over nudged me and raised his eyebrows up and down, I shoved him away and brought my Pepsi to the counter to pay for it. So did Soda and Joey then we headed back to my house eating and drinking on the way. The chips Sodapop bought sure were good and then mixed with the best drink in the world made em even better. I was cheering up until we stood in front of my house I wasnt ready to walk in and face Darry again. But I walked up the steps with Soda and Joey anyway and stepped inside, It was pretty quiet so at first I thought nobody was home.

"Hey Soda, Joey... Pony"Darry came into the living room from his room

he took my face in his hands and turned my face to see my bruise better

"jeez, I really gotta keep my strength under control"he laughed a bit but then his smiled wiped off his face when I didnt laugh none

"im real sorry Pony, I really didnt mean to hit you like that at all, that was real horrible thing I did to your face"

I didnt like being mad at Darry at all, so I decided to just end this thing maybe then he would forget about the grades.

"Ah don't worry about it, big guy"I pushed his arm and he smiled

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