Disclaimer: I only own the PWP part. The actual show I got this from was Inu-Yasha...how, idk/
A/N: I was told to put this on so please give me contructive reviews
The thought of it has crossed my mind more than once. No matter what I do, I still think of it. Sometimes it just feels like the only thing that I can do to make the pain stop. There are times when I can feel my heart break because of the look or because of the word. I love him, but yet, he pushes me away, because he is still in love with her.
We've been close, as close as two lovers can ever be, but he still won't open up to me. He has a wall up around his heart and soul and I can't even read his face or thoughts. He protects me when I need it the most and comforts me when I can't handle anymore of the pain.
I thought I knew him, maybe I still do. Why can't I get him to let her go and to hang on to me? Why must she be the one he runs to when he has a problem or why is she around when she is not needed? They are past lovers, and from what she did to him, he should have never gone back to her.
Maybe they need each other. Maybe they are meant to be together and to have the perfect life? So what does that make me? A side dish for him? Someone he can go to if he needs the closeness when she cannot give it to him? Can't he see that I need him more than she does? She's dead, and yet, he still loves her.
Maybe you can never break the bond between soul mates, if that's what they are. She tells me I'm not welcomed here, but how does she know? I'm here for a reason, for him. To care for him, to love him. I would do anything for him, and she can't even care for him like he does for her. I love him to no end, but she pulls him away from me. Why?
Maybe he will understand later, when he loses me and she turns him away. Then maybe he will understand that I was the one that really love him. He can't have two loves, only one. He needs to be with me, the alive one, not the dead and distant one.
He wants to be someone who would be distructive and heartless, but I won't let him. I stopped it once, and I will do it again. He will be the person he is now, caring and loving. I won't let her ruin him, us. I won't.