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Ponyboys POV
Staying in the asylum started making me feel depressed, it's such a lousy feeling. I've felt depressed before like when mom and dad died but for some reason that didnt last more than a week. I also felt depressed when Johnny and Dally died, which is how I got here but after a while I didnt really feel depressed anymore. But right now is a different story, I feel depressed, but in a way I cant handle, it hurts. I don't know what to do with myself it's like im going crazy, I feel like a horse when it's trapped in a small place for too long and just needs to break out. Most of the time I find myself pacing around the room, my speed only getting faster and faster my mind racing. Now im doing it again. I looked up at the door and saw a Doctor watching me through the little window at the top. When I looked up he quickly walked away, that made me laugh, was I scaring that guy? Haha. Then the door unlocked and I looked over again, there was a nurse standing in the doorway.
"Um.. Ponyboy?"she asked
I nodded.
"You need to come with me"she stated
I walked over to her and she led me down a hallway, some big doctor was following close behind us, and I got nervous.
"Here you are"she said pushing me into a big door
I walked into the room and the first thing I noticed was the two security guards standing in the corner of the room. Then I saw Dr. Chambers sitting down at one end of a table and another chair opposite of him. He motioned for me to sit down and I heard the door close and lock behind me. I slowly made my way over to the table and sat down, it was cold in that room and a shiver went up my spine. Dr. Chambers set a small tape recorder on the table and pressed the play button.
"First session with patient Ponyboy Curtis"he said to the recorder
I sat there staring at the recorder spinning around and around.
"Hello Ponyboy, how are you today?"he asked me
I just looked up at him.
"Ponyboy?"he asked
I still didnt answer.
"Ponyboy, do you remember our deal? If you cooperate, you will be able to see your brothers on Saturday, but only if you are willing to talk with me"he said fiddling with a pencil
I nodded.
"Let's start out with a simple question"he looked around the room
"how do you like it here?"he asked
"lousy"I decided that I wouldn't talk so much, Maybe one or two words at a time.
"Okay, well you'll get used to it, and maybe grow to like it here"he said smiling
I shrugged.
"How have you been feeling lately?"he asked
"depressed"I said quietly
"why is that?"he asked
I didnt answer.
"Ponyboy? Come on now you were doing fine"
I didnt answer.
"Some of our doctors have found you violently pacing around your room"I looked up at him
"is there something on your mind Pony?"he asked
I didnt answer.
"If your not going to cooperate Pony, im gonna have to send you back to your room"
I didnt answer.
He lifted the recorder up to his mouth.
"Patient Ponyboy Curtis will be sent to his room for not cooperating, end of first session"then he clicked the stop button and placed the recorder down
Dr. Chambers stood up and brought me back to my room, where I was locked in and left alone, again. Today was Tuesday. Only my second day here and I already cant stand it, I really feel like im going crazy. I walked over to my window with bars on it and stared down at the green courtyard below. I watched patients being walked with a doctor or a nurse holding on to them for life. I watched until the sun set and it got dark out, but I still watched like I was waiting for something. But nothing was happening. Then I thought that maybe this is all a dream and I need to wake myself up and quickly. I could be in bed with Soda right now and not even know it, and im not there to enjoy Sodas company, I need to wake up. I looked around the room, how can I wake myself up? Maybe me cutting was all a dream, maybe Dally and Johnny dying was all a dream, maybe my whole life was all just one big dream. My mind was racing but I didnt know what to think, I started pacing around my room more quickly than before. I also started mumbling things out loud and I didnt even realize it, until I heard Dr. Chambers voice. I looked up and saw him and two other doctors in the doorway staring at me like I was a wild crazed horse. They walked up to me and I back away from them, I backed myself all the way into a corner of my room. I was sweating and my gown was sticking to my neck and back, "this is a dream"I mumbled it over and over.
"Ponyboy relax"I stared at Dr. Chambers like I didnt know him
and maybe I didnt.
"It's just me Pony"he said coming closer
I started to kick and scream.
"You're a dream! I wanna go home!" I screamed, one doctor came very close to me and I kicked him in the face he flew backward.
"SODA! DARRY!"I screamed on the top of my lungs
"Pony, settle down this instant!"Dr. Chambers was screaming at me
"DARRY! SODA!"I screamed again
Dr. Chambers was calling backup and two more doctors came into the room, now there were five of them surrounding me, The one I kicked nose was bleeding, but not badly.
"Ready, grab him!"all of them sprang for me
I fought them as best I could, all of a sudden their faces morphed into socs and I screamed and kicked harder, then they were the gang, then doctors again. Then they finally got me down hard and I couldn't move, my heart was pounding wildly and I was having trouble breathing.
"Ponyboy, relax, everythings going to be fine"Dr. Chambers said still firmly holding my arm
Then Dr. Chambers took out a needle and injected it into my arm, and I felt my body start to numb. The doctors lifted me up and placed me on my bed, I felt my eyelids becoming heavier and heavier, then they closed.