Chapter 3

"I'm really sorry about this, but do I know you?" Jason asked Courtney.

"Jason, it's me, Courtney," she said with a confused look on her face. She knew that he couldn't

remember everything already, but for some reason, the thought had never occurred to her that he could

actually forget her. She found herself having trouble breathing.

"It's..it's me," she repeated again weakly. Of course he wouldn't remember her. How could she be so

self-centered to think that even though Jason had severe memory loss, he would somehow remember their

love for each other. The love that she still felt for him. Stop it, she told herself. It is not okay for you to be

having thoughts like this. Jason is off limits. Plus, just because you love him, doesn't mean he returns the

same feelings for you. He told you to your face that he loves Sam, remember. How many more times do

you need to keep on getting hurt before you realize it? She remembered that day like it was yesterday.

Somehow she had gotten the idea that maybe she and Jason could be a couple again. Maybe, this time, she

could get over her inhibitions with his profession, and they could be happy again, like they had been when

they had first met. She had run into him at Kelly's, and she was just about to tell him, when he said the

words. "Courtney, before you say anything, I'm in love with Sam." At that moment, she felt like he had

grabbed her heart, ripped it out of her chest and stomped on it over and over. A million thoughts were

running through her mind simultaneously. What? How could he do that to her? He said that he would always

love her and only her. How did this happen? These questions kept on repeating over and over in her head.

She felt like she was going to explode if she stayed there any longer, and so she ran, leaving him behind at

Kelly's. She had stupidly gone to Jax's after that, and somehow managed to convince herself that she was

in love with him, and look where that had gotten her. Almost the moment after she married him, she realized

that she had done exactly what she didn't want, get trapped in a loveless marriage. It wasn't fair to Jax, to lie

to him when she could only really love one person, Jason.

"Hello, Courtney?" Jason asked, waving a hand in her face. The blonde seemed to have completely zoned

out for a minute, and the look of complete and utter sadness on her face was so heartbreaking, he just

wanted to grab her in an embrace and comfort her, make sure she would never feel that again. It was more

that that, though. The moment he saw her, it was like his heart recognized hers. And this was a scary feeling

for someone he presumably didn't even know.

"Are you okay?"

She snapped out of her little daze. God, I must totally be scaring Jason right now. Not only do I jump on

him without even introducing myself, but I just space out randomly. She gave him a small smile, the edges

of her lips curling up slightly as she shrugged. "Sorry," she said, not offering an explanation. How could

she? Their relationship was so complicated, it would take months to explain everything.

"You know, you still haven't really told me who you are, other than that your name is Courtney." Jason's

curiosity was peaked. He really wanted to know who this woman from his dreams was.

"Sorry," she stated again. "Sam didn't tell you?"

"Tell me about what?" he asked. It was true that Sam had filled him in on his life before the memory loss.

But she had left out this little part. "Is there something I should know? How do you I know you?"

"We used to…we used to be married," Courtney said, finding her breath coming short again. "We might

still be too, except for the miscarriage." She laughed a bit. "Kinda dropped that bombshell on you, didn't I?"

"No, I want to know," Jason said.

"Well, I had gotten pregnant, and I didn't tell you. There was a lot of other things going on at the time,

Carly had gotten kidnapped, and you and Sonny were going to get her that night. I didn't want to tell you

because I knew you would want to stay, instead of doing what you had to do. And long story short, I ended

up getting kidnapped by Alcazar, miscarrying, and now I can't get pregnant anymore. But I guess that's just

the way life goes sometimes, right?" Courtney could feel her eyes filling with tears.

"I'm sorry, I have to go."

And with that, she ran out of Kelly's.

Jason just stood there for a few minutes, processing all that Courtney had just told him. Then, he too left,

and headed for the penthouse.