Disclaimer: Haruka and Michiru are not mine, just the story.

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Happy Valentine's day to you all! I hope you're surrounded by friends and beautiful girlfriends or boyfriends!

So I dedicate this chapter to Ashja : man are not woth it girl, I've told you so...

Sirena

by auraluna7

Chapter 14: Doubts

Michiru look down, she could say this but not face her. "Cause you'll be gone and I'll be here alone..." Her voice break, Michiru hated to be weak, why was Haruka so close to her heart?

Haruka smiled and lift Michiru's face to kiss her. "That's all?"

"Do you think it's a little thing?"

"No but I'm not worried"

"Mh?"

"Cause when I get back to Tokyo you'll come with me..."

Michiru looked at Haruka with surprise. "I...I don't understand..."

"I mean, well I should have asked you in a more proper way... would you like to come with me to Tokyo Michi?"

Michiru smiled. "I'll be glad to, but then again I'll have to come back and we'll get separate again..."

"No Michi I meant you coming to live with me at Tokyo"

Haruka's words bounced in Michiru's head, she shook her head trying to figure out if she perhaps was sleeping, was Haruka asking her to marry her? No, she didn't but she asked her to live with her... "I..."

Haruka saw the doubts inside Michiru, she knew the girl had to think it through. "Don't say nothing, just think about it ok?" Michiru nodded, she was to shocked to talk. "So are you feeling like going out?"

"Not really"

"Then I'll let you to rest Michi"

"No, stay with me Ruka"

"Anything for you, anything..."

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Haruka left after lunch cause she had promised Zen to spent the afternoon with her. Michiru felt like her heart had been ripped out of her chest, she was filled with doubts, what was she supposed to do? Leave everything she had and know for Haruka? Or stay here secure but empty? No love no passion, dying like a summer flower in the fall... Michiru sighed and look outside her window, the waves singing...she knew what she had to do; she climed down the wall and run to the beach, without thinking it much she jumped into the blue waters...

Michiru ran into the water, letting the water wash away her tears. She submerge deep inside her own world, that world that once had been so secure and fulfilling, but now that calm didn't come, she felt neither relax nor happy and she didn't felt free anymore.

"Why it's so hard? Why do I have to chose between you and my love?" After a short while, Michiru came back to shore and sat down in the beach to watch the sunset. "What do you think I should do? Follow my heart? But my heart is confussed... what I'm suposse to do then? You're not helping me, That's a lie...I do want your help...I do. Talk to me...oh come on!" Michiru stand up pissed, she turned around and headed to her house defeated, if the sea couldn't help her who woulb be able to?

"Michiru? Where were you? I thought you felt sick and were upstairs resting."

"Hi dad, I... I just felt like going out..."

"Well I'm glad to see you're feeling better then."

"What are you doing home so early?"

"I'm a little tired, perhaps I got the flu as well. " Michiru looked at her father with worried eyes, Sechiru never got sick. "Don't worry my little fish, it's just that your father is getting old, here come join me." Michiru then sat down in the couch next to her father, she rest her head on his arm. "Now tell me princess what's really bothering you my child, and no more lies"

"I don't feel like talking about it daddy"

"But you do, that's why you're here"

Michiru sat straight and look into her father's eyes as blue as herselves. "It's Haruka"

"Aha, I had the feeling this was about him, what is it about Haruka?"

"I feel guilty..."

"Why? Did you do something bad to him?"

Michiru shook her head. "I think I love Haruka too much..." "Enough to leave you" Michiru lowered her eyes after this revelation, she felt ashemed and sad.

Sechiru raised up her face with his hand soflty. "Love is not a crime Michiru, is the most beautiful and wonderful thing you'll veer hve, doesn't he loves you back?"

"Is not that, I'm love in return"

"Then, there's no reason to be sad"

"Haruka is from another world dad, a plaqce where I don't belong and ..." Michiru's voice broke, she felt tears running down her face.

"What is it that you're not telling me Michiru?"

"Where do I began if I have kept so many secrets? Haruka is a girl? I slept with her? She stole my heart? She wants me to go with her to this place where I meet noone and there's nothing for me except her? " "You'll love me no matter what dad?"

"Of course I will Michiru"

"Even if I'm gone?" Sechiru smiled sadly, he knew what that meant, he had seen the love in her eyes and knew this was no longer a summer fling, Haruka wanted Michiru to go with him back to Tokyo and Michiru wanted to go.

"Is that what you want?"

"I don't know"

"Thenh think it through"

"But..."

"Michiru, I love you but you deserve a life of your own. You'll make the right decision, I'm sure about it, don't make rush things and think your options carefully. Is he who you want? Are his intentions true? What live expects you there? If the answers fulfilll your dreams Michiru then go..."

Michiru burst into tears and hugged her father gratefully. "I love you dad"

"I love you too Michiru" Michiru after a while was finally able to stop crying and broke apart fromk her father and look at him, he looked tired and sad.

"Are you ok daddy?"

"I told you little fish, I'm tired"

"Why don't you take a nap before dinner? I'll wake you up later." Sechiru nodded and left the room after kissing Michiru's forehead. "My father is right I need to think this through"

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That night Michiru laid on her bed with her eyes open thinking pro's and con's of leaving Tahi, past midnight Haruka clime back in, Michiru pretended she was asleep cause she felt uncapable of facing her, haruka then crawled into the bed and hugged her. "I love you Michiru good night"

Michiru didn't answer, she loved Haruka too but she hadn't founnd out if she was strong enough to live up for that love, if she was capable of being tough enough to leave it all a began a new life, she felt that half of her heart she would leave behind and she wondered if the half she'll keep would be enough to be happy and make Haruka happy too...

(Oh is she going or not? I have not decide yet...perhaps a few reviews would clear my ideas...review people it's valentine's day!)