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Chapter 4
Yugi was sitting on the bathroom floor with a razor blade in his hand. He felt worthless even though Jou told him he wasn't and in spite of his brief relationship with Otogi who had told him he was a great guy, he still felt as though he wasn't worth anything to anyone. He looked at his arms which were a criss cross pattern of marks some healed and others more recent. Unbeknown to Jou, he was doing this regularly.
He would sit and watch the blood flow down his arm and feel all his frustrations flow out of him like a river. The pain made him feel good and made him feel as though he had control over something in his life. He made a fresh cut and watched the blood begin to seep from the wound. It wasn't flowing fast enough so he made the cut a little deeper. That was better now the blood ran down his arm faster. He watched it and it was as if all his problems ran down his arm with the blood.
He never cut deep enough to risk his own life after all he didn't really want to stop living, he just needed a release for his frustrations and the control made him feel good. He controlled the blade and he controlled how deep the cut was and it gave him a huge sense of power. He knew it was wrong, knew he shouldn't do it but he just couldn't help it.
He tore a strip of toilet paper off the roll and held it over the cut until it stopped bleeding. Then he bound it up and rolled his sleeves down. He didn't want Jou to know about this. He would be angry with him he knew and he didn't want to stop, needed to hold on to the feeling of control he had.
He cleaned up the mess making sure there was no evidence of what he had done and left the bathroom to make a hot drink.
"You okay man?" Jou asked.
"Yeah I'm fine." Yugi said smiling feeling much better having got rid of his frustrations for a while at least. They had been flushed down the toilet with the paper towels.
"I think I'll go out on the bike for a while." Yugi said needing to feel the rush of air round him as he sped along.
"Sure man whatever." Jou said pleased that Yugi wanted to get out of the house for a while. "Want me to come?"
"No it's okay Jou I think I'd like to ride out on my own for a while." Yugi said not really wanting anything but the open road and the wind for company.
"Okay man you enjoy it."
"Yeah I will, see you later." Yugi said already putting his leathers on. When he was ready, he left and unchained his bike. He ran his gloved hand along its body. He loved his bike more than anything in the world. It was freedom for him. He knew that nothing and no one could even come close to making him feel the way he did about his bike. When he was depressed, the bike cheered him up, when he was happy the bike made him feel even happier. He knew nothing could come even close.
He mounted and the engine roared into life. He put it into gear and after checking the road he roared off.
The wind whipped round him as he rode and he relaxed as he cruised along. This was perfect, it was a perfect day and here he was all alone on the road just him and his bike. He felt wonderful.
He slowed as he approached a vehicle in front and prepared to overtake, as it seemed to be going very slowly. In fact as he approached, he saw that the car wasn't even going forwards. Too late he realised that the car was actually reversing at speed down the road on his side. It was too late for him to stop or swerve and he had just a brief second to prepare for the impact.
When it came it was as if everything was happening in slow motion. The bike hit the back of the car and he was flung off and through the air. He felt himself flying slowly before coming down and landing hard on the road. He felt a sickening crunch somewhere in his body and then nothing…
"Hello? Hello? Can you hear me?"
The voice was faint as if far away but as it went on it seemed to be getting closer. He opened his eyes.
He saw the uniforms of paramedics and tried to lift his head to see his bike but it hurt too much so he gave up."
"My bike, is it okay?"
"Don't worry about that now, we need to get you to hospital."
"No I won't go until I know my bike is okay."
"All right I'll find out." The paramedic said and spoke briefly to one of his colleges who was helping another one get a bed out of the ambulance. He returned to where Yugi was still lying on the ground.
"Your bike is okay, now we must take you to hospital. What's your name?"
Yugi thought hard, what was it? For some reason he couldn't remember it."
"I can't remember." He said feeling confused. His body felt strangely numb and he vaguely wondered why.
He felt himself lifted gently onto the stretcher after having a collar fitted to his neck. He was placed into the ambulance and an oxygen mask fitted over his face. The paramedics undid his leathers and cut away his t-shirt underneath to reveal his chest. Various little pads were attached so the paramedics could keep an eye on his heart rate.
As the ambulance drove along, Yugi lapsed into unconsciousness and new no more until he woke again this time in the hospital. He looked vaguely at the doctors and nurses surrounding him before drifting off again. He felt so tired…
When he woke again all was quiet apart from the bleeping of the machines surrounding him. He gazed at them for a while wondering how long he had been asleep for. Somewhere by the side of him he could see a call button and wondered if he should press it to find out what had happened to him. The room was in semi darkness and he guessed it was nighttime. He frowned trying to remember his name but no matter how hard he tried he couldn't remember it. He thought he must have hit his head very hard to not remember his own name and wondered how long it would last.
Feeling very tired again with the effort, he drifted off to sleep again.
He woke to find the room light and voices talking round him.
"Twenty year old male, brought in yesterday after a bike crash." The voice was saying and began to reel off a list of injuries. Yugi thought to himself that they must be talking about someone else. He didn't think he had been hurt that badly and started to try and move. He was lying very flat on the bed and as he tried to move pain shot through him. He cried out which attracted the attention of the doctors surrounding him.
"Please don't try to move." One of them said. "Your back is broken in two places and you must lie still."
Yugi was still reeling from the pain he had felt and tried his hardest to lie still but it was very difficult.
"What happened to me?" he whispered.
"Well you have an extensive list of injuries I'm afraid. You have severe concussion, a dislocated left shoulder, a broken right wrist, broken your back in two places, dislocated left knee and severe internal bleeding." The doctor said. "we have managed to stop the bleeding though fortunately."
"All that happened to me?" Yugi asked shocked at the list. "it's a wonder I am still here."
"You nearly weren't." The doctor said gravely.
"What do you mean?" Yugi asked.
"You had to be resuscitated twice in the ambulance when your heart stopped. Is there anyone you want us to contact?"
Yugi thought hard.
"Katsuya Jonouchi and his partner Seto Kaiba." Yugi said remembering the names but for some reason he still couldn't remember his own.
"Seto Kaiba? The CEO of Kaiba Corps?" The doctor asked surprised. Evidently this one's concussion was bad as everyone knew that man was married to his company and had no time for normal people let alone a relationship especially with a male.
"That's the one." Yugi said, "His number should be in my cell phone."
"Well unfortunately your phone was smashed in the crash." The doctor said. "But I will contact Katsuya for you.
"Thank you doctor." Yugi said glad that the pain was now subsiding and deciding not to move again.
Soon he could hear Jou's voice in the corridor as he rushed to Yugi's side.
"Yug! Oh man I was so worried. What happened?"
"Yug? Is that my name?" Yugi asked thinking hard.
"It's Yugi." Jou said looking really worried.
"Thanks I couldn't remember it."
"The doctors told me about your injuries." Jou said. "I'm so glad you're alive."
"Yeah but I broke my back, what if that means I can't walk again?" Yugi fretted.
"I don't know man but I'll be here for you."
"Thanks Jou." Yugi said grateful but at the same time thinking that if he couldn't ride his bike again, he would go insane.
"Just get well so you can come home." Jou said wishing that he had stopped Yugi going out that day. Maybe if he had, then Yugi wouldn't be lying pale and still on a hospital bed now.
"Listen I gotta go and tell Seto what's going on." Jou said and left the room. It was so hard seeing his best friend like that especially after all he had been through.
When the doctors came round the following morning, Yugi decided to ask about his future prospects.
"Good morning Yugi how are you feeling?"
"Doctor I have to know, will I walk again?"
"I'm afraid we don't know yet. I wish I could say yes but we simply don't know until your back heals more. You will go for a scan as soon as the swelling goes down and we will know more then but until then, try not to think about it."
Easy for you to say. Yugi thought to himself but merely nodded at the doctor who checked his charts and left with the others following him closely.
Yugi lay on his bed thinking. If he couldn't walk or ride his bike again his life wouldn't be worth living anymore. He made up his mind there and then, no matter what it took, he would walk again.
TBC…
Oooh will he? Won't he? Meh you'll have to wait and see! More updates to follow soon!