A/N: Ok here is chapter Nineteen. I know it has been a while since I updated, but it is MUCH longer than my normal chapters, like I promised!
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Chapter 19: Finding Us
Kagome began to get her books organized for the study session she would be having with Hojo later on that day at the pizza place. Her mind wandered to all of the things that had been going on recently with Inuyasha. Yesterday she had avoided him during lunch by hanging out in the library and when school let out she had quickly found Sango so they could leave the parking lot before Inuyasha and his "gang" had the time to there. Kagome shivered as a chill came to her just thinking about him. She looked around the room, her eyes falling on her guitar. 'We have a show tonight...' Kagome sighed. 'Sooner or later I am going to have to face him again...' Kagome shook her head. She did not want to think about that now.
She picked up her guitar and began to play a soft yet heavy tune.
"Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Untill I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy
I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all
Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need"
Kagome gave up on finishing the song, her emotions were overcoming her and lately playing guitar had not released any feeling for her. She grabbed her robe and a pair of underwear and walked to the bathroom to take a shower.
Kagome relaxed let the scalding hot water run over her body enjoying the the stinging sensation that came after each drop made contact with her skin. She tilted her head back letting the streams of water run from her face, down her neck, to her shoulders, chest and back. When she opened them, a hand hovered in front of her holding a towel.
"Shit!" Kagome jumped backward slipping. As she felt herself begin to fall, she grabbed the shower curtain but it was not enough to support her weight and sent her crashing to the shower floor with the curtain laying over her like a blanket. She closed her eyes and groaned as a dull pain made itself present in her lower back. Suddenly reality came crashing back to her and she remembered why she was lying on the floor of the shower.
'Someone is here...' Her eyes flew open and met a pair of concerned golden orbs.
"Are you alright?" Inuyasha asked her as he stifled a laugh.
"Are you crazy!" She yelled at the top of her lungs as she gripped the shower curtain closer to herself, gradually becoming more aware of the fact that she was naked and Inuyasha was standing in front of her.
Inuyasha grinned and held a hand out to her to help her up.
"Oh! You better wipe that grin off your face!" Kagome turned bright red as his eyes scanned over her and his grinned continued to grow. 'What does he find so amusing?'
Inuyasha could not hold it in any longer and a laugh escaped his lips.
'He is laughing at me!' Kagome was getting angry. "What are you laughing about? What is so funny?" 'Is he laughing at my body?' She frowned and a look of sadness overcame her. "Am I not attractive?" Kagome immediately regretted saying it. 'What was I thinking? It's not like I care if he thinks I'm attractive or not...'
Inuyasha's smile disappeared as what she said processed in his mind. "It's not that... it's just you looked so flustered that... I uhh..."
Kagome sighed. 'So he doesn't find me attractive then...'
Inuyasha got on his knees to where he was eye level with her and only a few inches away. "Come on, get up."
Kagome closed her eyes for the fear that he would see the tears in them. "If you think that I am getting up from this spot with you standing there you are dead wrong..."
"We have to talk Kagome..."
The seriousness in his voice caught her attention. She took a deep breath and got up. Accepting the towel he handed to her, he turned his back to her as she wrapped it around herself and stepped out of the shower.
Inuyasha turned to her. "Kagome..." His voice caught in his throat. There she stood in front of him, in only a towel, soaking wet, and she looked so beautiful. He took a step towards her. "Kagome... I meant for what happened the other night to happen... I didn't just kiss you to kiss you or to lead you on... I..." He looked deep into her eyes and took another step towards her.
Kagome took a deep breath. What he was saying was making her heart pound. 'He... he has this effect on me... as wrong as I feel it is...'
Inuyasha lowered his head to look at the floor. "I just want to know why you left me there alone yesterday morning... don't you feel about me the way I feel about you?"
Kagome frowned. "I woke yesterday and I felt like I had done something wrong. I felt like I had betrayed someone..."
"Bruce?" Inuyasha interrupted.
Kagome looked into his eyes and hesitated. "Yes, Bruce..." She took a deep breath. "I felt like I had betrayed him. But then here... right now with you." She took a step closer to him until they were inches away. "Where I stand now... it gives me this feeling..." She put her arms around his waist, pulled him towards her, and laid her head on his chest. "A feeling that I can not deny... no matter how hard I try Inuyasha, I can not push you away from me..." She craned her head back and looked deep into his eyes. "I don't know how you feel about me, but I know how I feel about you..."
'Do I tell her how I really feel... or would that be too much for her to handle... no I have told her the truth so far and I am not about to lie to her.' Inuyasha grinned. "Kagome, I know that even though we have known each other for such a short period of time, I love you..."
Kagome stared at him. 'Did I hear him right... did he say he loved me?' "Did you say you loved me?"
Inuyasha smiled. "Yes Kagome, I love you."
Kagome brought her lips close to his and looked longingly into his eyes. "I love you too." She whispered as she brought her lips to seal lightly over his. The kiss was short but was followed by a kiss that was like no other either of them had experienced. A kiss so deep ans so filled with passion they forgot everything around them. Kagome slowly brought her hands from around his waist up to his shoulders where she let her fingers play with his long hair. Inuyasha brought his left hand up and began to stroke her hair as his right hand went to the small of her back puller her into him. Kagome felt the towel around her begin to fall, and she moved one hand from his shoulder to try and keep it up.
Suddenly the door to the bathroom came swinging open and Sango stood in the doorway. Inuyasha and Kagome quickly separated and looked at her as Kagome clung desperately to the towel that had come undone and was threatening to fall.
"Oh... um sorry... I thought you were in your room Hojo, Kagome. I didn't mean to um... interrupt..." Sango giggled and began to shut the door.
"Wait," Kagome shouted after her as she cleared her head of the recent events. "What is Hojo doing here?"
Sango shrugged her shoulders. "I think he said something about not being able to make it to the Pizza Place at twelve so he decided to stop by here for a quick study session instead." Sango shut the door and left the two alone again.
Kagome groaned and grabbed her underwear and robe from the counter.
"Do you um... want me to leave and let you get changed?" Inuyasha asked as she turned her back to him and slipped her underwear on. She did not reply so Inuyasha stood in a trance as she dropped the towel exposing her back and a black and white laced thong, but that sight was shoved from his mind as she quickly slipped her robe on. She turned back to him and smiled.
"Inuyasha... you really mean what you said?" She asked with a smile.
Inuyasha grinned. "Yeah, I love you."
Kagome grabbed his hand and looked at him. "I have to go help this idiot in Trig. And Chemistry."
Inuyasha grimaced. "Oh, not my cup of tea. We have a show tonight, I think I'm going to go meet the boys at my house and practice some. When you are done, come by ok?"
Kagome gave him a quick kiss on the cheek. "Ok, I'll see you then."Kagome watched Inuyasha walked down the hall to the stairs then walked back to her room where Hojo was waiting for her.
She walked in the room and glanced at Hojo who had made himself all to comfortable on her bed. Although it angered her, she knew she had to keep her cool. As she walked over to her desk where she had kept her books, she began to feel dizzy. 'I think I'm going to pass out...' Kagome thought as black dots began to float in front of her eyes. Her head began to spin until finally everything disappeared.
"Kagome! You must be careful! He has sent someone to you." The outline of the man from her dreams appeared with a sword. "He has sent him to alter your path Kagome!" The princess's voice called out to her.
"Who? Who has he sent." Kagome called out to her confused.
"The boy within your presence now." A vision of Hojo appeared in front of her as she gasped.
Kagome struggled through the darkness and back to reality. As she opened her eyes they fell upon the face of Hojo kneeling beside her. Kagome immediately panicked and a cry of fear found its way out of her mouth.
"Hey, uh, Kagome you ok?" Hojo asked as he jumped back in surprise.
'He... he is working with him... what do I do? Ok, well just calm down before he figures out you know, stupid...' Kagome smiled. "Yeah I'm fine you just startled me, that's all." She stood and made it to her desk to grab her books. When she turned around Hojo was staring at her intently. A feeling of unease came over her, but she tried to ignore it. "So Hojo, what do you want to work on first?"
Hojo shook his head, as if he too was trying to clear his mind. "Actually, I can't study today... I just came by to tell you something."
Kagome was a little confused but she pulled out her desk chair and sat down. "Ok, well what did you want to tell me?"
Hojo looked into her eyes. "You and Inuyasha... you are close right?"
Kagome was shocked by his comment, but she decided to play along. "Yeah I guess you could say that."
"Well you see..." He took a deep breath. "Earlier while I was on my way to tell you that I wouldn't be able to make it to our tutoring session, I saw him... with Kikyo, at the Pizza Place. I wouldn't have thought anything of it, but I heard a rumor that you two were going out. I mean I hate to break it to you, but he was cheating on you..."
Kagome's stomach sank but then she remembered just who she was talking to. "When did you say this happened?"
Hojo got up and walked over to her. "Just a few minutes ago when I was driving here." He put an arm around her. "I'm so sorry."
Kagome wanted to smack him. Had Inuyasha not just been here, she would have believed him. 'Is that their plan? To separate us? I have to talk to Inuyasha, but first I have to convince Mr. Hojo that I believe what he has said. Ok I can do this. Cry... cry... cry... cry...' She repeated it over and over in her head until tears began to fall from her eyes. "I can't believe he would do this!" She looked up at him and into his eyes. "Thank you so much for tell me... I will never forget your kindness. You are truly a friend." She got up and gave him a hug before showing him to the door. "I hope you don't mind leaving, it's just that I need some time on my own..."
Hojo smiled and nodded before slipping her a piece of paper. "If you ever need to talk, give me a call."
Kagome smiled. "Thanks Hojo. Thanks a lot." As soon as she closed the door, she rushed upstairs to get ready. 'I have to find Inuyasha and tell him what is going on!'
A/N: and now for an RPG. YAY! Fun!
Kagome: The sun gives life but not for those who were once only a half...
Rin: Wow, that's deep... I'm not talking anymore today I am stupid! And I am always wrong!
Kagome: Yeah he is being gay... (we were talking about our teacher)
Naraku: I am great I am powerful!
Everyone: (Looks at him and all charge him, each wielding hidden daggers and plunging them into his body. He turns to each one of them until he finally gets to Kagura)
Naraku: Eh tu Kagura?
Kagura: You bet bitch! (Kagura stabs him)
Kanna: ... (silence) ...
Sango: That girl... she is so... creepy... she never talks...
Rin: (throws a stick at her) She moved!
Kagura: Sesshomaru! I want you!
Sesshomaru: Ok...
Rin: (stares upset) Sit boy! (Sess. falls to the ground)
Kagura: Bitch.
Rin: ( shoots Kagura in the face with a nail gun.)
Kagome: Hmmm... this is a very interesting piece of work...
Kikyo: I am human! I can talk and sing, laugh and weep, reason and remember, love and hate! I am human!
Kagome: Oh shut the hell up! You're a fucking clay pot!
Inuyasha: So? You're a bitch Kagome!
Kikyo: Haha!
Rin: Bitch went down!
Inuyasha: She is not a clay pot! She is fucking dirt!
Rin: Ohhh! Bitch went down!
Kikyo: Rin you are GAY!
Sango: (Comes in scared) There were... inbreeds in the lunchroom...
Rin: AHHHH! (hides under table)
Kagome: Yesterday... there were flood in the lunchroom... (ya know the guys from Halo!)
(Inbreeds walk into Mr. A's class)
Inbreeds: Ga...da...ba...kill...
Kagome: (grabs Inuyasha and throws him in front of her) Eat him! I don't taste very well... but he is a dog!
Inbreeds: yummm... (drools)
Inuyasha: Blades Of Blood! (Looks at his arm and there is no blood) whispers Kagome... cut me...
Kagome: Oh. Ok. (grabs a sheet of paper and gives him a paper cut. A drop of blood drips down)
Inuyasha: Damn! Kagome that's not enough! You're so stupid... why do I always save you!
Sango: (Jumps off the side of the building and lands in a tree) STUPID INBREEDS!
Rin: (Crying uncontrollably) We are all going to die!
Sesshomaru: (grabs Rin and pulls her out from under the desk.) Here (hands her a needler) (A/N: needlers are guns from halo!)
Kagome: (grabs two guns from her trench coat and begins shooting) Haha DIE! Everything must DIE! (runs out of bullets and throws the guns aside, grabs her precious sword and begins fighting)
Sango: (Slides down the tree and is then attacked by zombies) (grabs a paper clip from her pocket and stabs one in the eye... notices it is mr. C!)
Rin: BANG! BANG! BANG! (shoots needler and shoots Mr. A by accident) shit!
Mr. A: What the hell? (smacks book on his head) STUPID!
Inbreeds: Bu...ba...la (Hits head)
Rin: OH shut up! (shoots him)
Kagome: (continues to fight) Damn... I need a boyfriend...
Sango: That is what Inuyasha's for... (kicks a Zombie and then steals Mr. C's ear and throws it into the school office) I miss Miroku!
Rin: begins to run slowly like the matrix) You two are very... crazy!
Sesshomaru: (Puts on Jazz and begins to dance) Ya ya... (A/N: Ok the following sequence is inspired by the movie Swing Kids about WWII)
Rin: (Dances with him) Yes!
(Nazi comes in and turns music off)
Rin: BIG GAY!
Nazi: (Shoots Rin in the face for swing dancing)
Kagome: (shoots all of the Nazi's ) AHHHHHH DIE! I HATE YOU!
Sango: NOOOO! Never let go Rin! NEVER!
Rin: It's ok! Bullet proof vest! (Rin picks up her needler and shoots Nazi in the head watching his head explode) HAHAHA!
Kagome Wow... bullet proof vests protect your face...
A/N: Ok that is it! Talk to ya next chapter! PLEASE REVIEW! Byes!