February
The sunset was smeared with touches of pink and purple.
Earlier that day, they just kept coming and coming – I had no talent at these kinds of things. Draco told me I was good at "telling those Mudbloods off", but I never practiced enough to have this considered as a talent. I have to admit it; Millicent was livelier than I was when it came to snowball fighting.
Snow still remained on the school grounds, but just barely. After Transfiguration (really, I don't see how learning about turning things into inanimate objects will help us in our future) I met up with Millicent and we ran into Theodore Nott. I swear, he needs to just stay away from me – it's not like I hate him or anything, I feel like I'm always being watched by him.
Millicent got him to go away with some cursing and we continued to walk towards the courtyard. We ran into Draco. I felt a pink patch develop over my face. I was used to seeing him, but I still felt nervous around him. That's how we got into the snowball fight; we walked outside and found a fresh patch of snow.
I hope she doesn't mind me saying this, but…I think Millicent's jealous of me. Not because of my looks or anything like that, but because of my relationship. Because of Draco. She has been too melodramatic when I told her we couldn't hang out because of plans with him. Every time I told her such things, she just walked away without a word.
Hah, there are a lot of girls out there that wished they were in my place. I mean, why wouldn't they? Draco's absolutely gorgeous and he's such a loyal friend. I think it's hilarious when I stroke his hair in public and a few girls walk by, glaring at me with anger. Something that makes me feel like we were meant to be together. As they pass by, we give them a couple of our smirks/sneers…that's how we Slytherins do it.
I think my grades are not quite improving…it's not like I care or anything. During the summer when they're sent home, if I have anything possibly lower than 'ACCEPTABLE (A)', my mother would ban me from having any possible communication with my friends for a week. She wants me to grow up to be a well-educated and smart girl, someone 'perfect'. I told her once that no one could be perfect, but she reminded me that I was a Parkinson and that I should be gratifying for it.
After my fourth year, when I got my report card, I was not surprised when I ended up receiving a 'POOR (P)' grade in Divination. How boring can that class possibly get?
Valentine's Day was drawing closer and closer. As for me, I've never really made a big deal about this day. But this time was different. Sure, you may think I'm overreacting, but that's your opinion. I didn't know what I should give to Draco. A card would be simple enough, but what if he wanted more than that? Maybe some chocolates will do, but what if he wanted simplicity?
We were rewarded with a Hogsmeade weekend; just before Valentine's Day. This was my chance. I had to lie to Draco and told him I had plans with Millicent; he told me that he didn't mind and would just meet up with me later. I went into Honeydukes first thing; eyes scanning the area.
I've ended up giving him a pink card and a lollipop. I know I could've thought of something more impressive than this, but this was all I had. The card said:
Happy Valentine's Day, Draco!
Thanks for being a great friend.
I'll look back to this day!
Pansy 3
Maybe the heart was too much? I thought it was too casual. It made me feel even more wretched after the following events; I never knew what was coming.
Back at the Slytherin Common Room when everyone was exchanging Valentines; it was completely crowded with pink frills and delicate red ribbons. Shortly after searching, my eyes stopped straight on target.
But this time, I didn't want to look at Draco. Although, I realized I was staring, but somehow I couldn't stop.
Turned out to be Daphne Greengrass after all. The exclusive box of Chocolate Cauldrons in his hand, wrapped in crimson frills, complete with a card that looked even more luxurious. I couldn't move even if people were shoving me to get out of their path. Surely I've could've gotten a better valentine?
In our third year, Daphne told me she had feelings for Draco. Back then, I was in some sort of competition with her. After we've decided to stop, we weren't really friends anymore and exchanged glares every once in a while. I could see how she felt for him, right there, on the card: Daphne Greengrass, xoxo.
"Oh, there you are, Pansy," he said smiling like he didn't even see the expression I wore on my face. He popped a Chocolate Cauldron in his mouth, right in front of me. I stared at him for a moment. Draco started to look confused and waved a hand in front of my face to see if I was paying attention. I was, but it didn't please me. "What's that you have there?"
He was pointing to my Valentine card and lollipop.
"It's…nothing…" I looked down at my feet, allowing my bangs to drape over my face. If there was something I didn't want, it was for Draco to see me crying. Even worse, when I was about to cry. So I ran. I was never the person to think before making a move first. I could feel Draco and everyone else around me staring in wonder as I ran faster and faster. Ridiculous, I thought. It was just Valentine's Day.
I never thought I didn't want to see Draco when I could. But for now, I was wrong.