Okay…prepare for…ANOTHER SONG FIC! This one is Maroon 5's "Sweetest Goodbye" because Inuyasha thinks that this is his final goodbye to Kagome, given the events from chapter 10. Here ya go!
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(Inuyasha's POV)
I climbed out of the Bone Eater's Well with great difficulty. Normally, I could have scaled the thing in one leap, but I was finding it hard to produce and will to do anything at the moment. I wanted what I couldn't have…what I didn't deserve…I long to hold Kagome in my arms, to have her here with me, but it's just a dream teasing me with what isn't mine…with what is too pure to be mine…with what I didn't deserve…
Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms, open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I continue walking, going nowhere in particular, as long as I can run away from my pain…the pain that is bittersweet; I want her to be here but I know I couldn't manage to look her in the eye; the pain of not seeing that sparkle in her eye that she used to hold just for me but is now for that other creep of a mortal would be unbearable.
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
I could never hate her, never be angry with her for kissing Hojo or choosing him…not after the hell I dragged her through with her seeing Kikyo and I together. I look at Goshinboku as I pass, stopping to look at the great tree. Usually I found peace and solace within that tree, but all I see is a painful reminder of Kagome.
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
I can actually feel my heart breaking as I sink to my knees…I can't run from the pain anymore…it hits me full force…the pain…so overwhelming…the tears flow from my amber orbs as the memory of Kagome in someone's arms other than mine burned in my mind. The way they…it hurts to even say it…say what I've been fearing since I realized how much I really love her.
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you come back I have something to say
I try standing but there's just no will inside me to do anything, so I fall back on my knees as my sobs echo through the clearing. I can't stop loving her…I could never…and I could never move on to love another…ever.
How does it feel to know you'll never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
Then I could show you how I…
But…maybe there's something that I'm missing…I mean, maybe she only went with that guy because it was like Sango said; she thought I didn't like her…and I don't…I LOVE her…but I'm not getting my hopes up. I am, after all…a lowly hanyou undeserving of anyone's love or affection. That's just what destiny threw at me. What more could I do?
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart
Did she get my note? I can't help but wonder what her reaction was…did she really take it seriously? Did she laugh in disgust at it? Does she even care or notice the note lying on her pillow? Did she even read it at ALL? All these questions pose no answers as I lean against Goshinboku and let the rain blend with my tears to pull me into a light and empty rest.
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
And with a in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
I quietly wonder if this is truly our final goodbye. If it is…I don't know how I will cope with losing her so suddenly…don't know how I could live without her…but…what if it isn't the last goodbye?
"Please Kagome…don't…don't leave me…please find me…" I whisper into the storm as the rain relentlessly pours on me. I gingerly touch the enchanted beads, another reminder of Kagome, thinking that I'd put up with any amount of sits if Kagome would come back. I let go of the beads as I watch the rain fall around me. How could I have just let her go like that? I didn't even get to tell her how I felt, not myself. I left a note, sure, but I know it would mean more coming from me directly, then maybe she'd take me seriously if she had doubts.
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you come back
I have something to say
Doubt begins to cloud my mind. What if she really isn't coming this time? What if she sealed the well forever? But…she always comes back!
She always comes back…
…always…
"Kagome…please come…" I don't ever think I've ever said please so many times in my whole life…but at this point, I'll say anything if it means Kagome will come back to me.
How does it feel to know you'll never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel.
I silently cry out the last of my tears…the last of my hope…Kagome wasn't coming back…Kagome wasn't coming back…I stood with unsurpassed difficulty and slowly began heading back to the village, dry sobs racking my entire body. There just aren't enough tears inside me to cry out for her, so I let the rain do the crying for me. I stop and turn my head to look at the well one last time before walking back down the path to the village. I faintly whisper her name, wishing with all my heart for her to come back. I slow my pace to an eventual stop as I bow my head low, the rain dripping off of m hair. My ears press against my skull from drooping so low. I've never been this sad. I probably never will be again. Everything reminds me of her, no matter what way I look at it, it's her. I continue walking to the village. Everyone's waiting for Kagome…most likely want an explanation. I don't know what I'll tell them, or if I'll tell them anything at all. I really don't know, and I really don't want to have to explain how-
"Inuyasha!" Any thoughts I had were cut short. I hesitated to turn around, fearing that I would turn around only to have my heart broken again when she wasn't there, but I gathered my broken courage and turned around in time to see her running to me…mere feet away from me.
"Kagome…?" I whispered as I took a single step to her. Her run slowed to a walk as she was a foot away. The rain had drenched her, but it didn't wash a single bit of her beauty away, her dress glittering in the rain, her hair wet and matted down to her neck, free of the bun she had it tied in.
"Inuyasha…"
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BWAHAHAHAHAHA! I love making people wait…it's so fun! I already have the whole story in a notebook put up in a safe place. R & R!