"I want to know why." he replied, eyes narrowed ever so faintly as he looked to the lovely creature before him, arms still crossed. "You never said why..."

"Why? Why what?" Shishi stood then, not willing to allow Suzuki to look down on him any more than height enforced during such a conversation.

"Why in the hell you slept with that ice demon midget after me! Are you just trying to make me jealous, is that what this is about?"

Shishi crossed his arms over his own chest and glared. "Don't talk about Touya that way!" he snarled. "And it's not all about you. Contrary to what you might wish, my world does not have you at the center of it! I slept with him because I wanted to, because I found him attractive and he responded."

"Probably desperate for a lay, and you found someone willing to bend over backwards to sleep with you!" he snickered to cover the bitter feelings of jealousy welling up inside him. "He's not good enough for you, you're more beautiful than that!"

"He's very good for me," Shishi replied, his pupils narrowing in anger though he kept his tone more or less level. "And I'm not desperate. How could I possibly be, when I can have anyone I want? So get over yourself, and me. You're just pissing me off."

"Oooooh, I'm pissing the almighty Shishiwakamaru off!" he growled in response, his own eyes narrowing. "Just remember pretty boy, you picked me first! We still have something, if you wouldn't be so stubborn!

: "All we had was a good few nights of fucking," Shishi replied. "That was it. I never promised you more than that. You're the fool that deluded yourself, so you've no right to get angry with me now."

"That what you're leading Touya into now? Gonna fuck him and leave him like you did me? You're a heartless bitch, Shishi!" he responded, hurt, jealousy, anger...envy...all coloring his rich voice as he stared at the beautiful samurai before him

"I am what I am, and Touya should know me well enough to know I'm not offering forever!" Shishi looked away though, his face darkening with some thought that crossed his mind. "Of course, maybe I won't want to leave him..."

"You honestly think a kid like him is going to understand all you want is a quick fuck a couple times till someone else...pretty comes along." he laughed hollowly, shaking his head. He refused to say more beautiful for in his mind...he was still the best

"He's not a kid, Suzuki. He's older than me. And he's lived a hell of a lot more. Compared to him, I'm the kid, so you need to stop... talking. You don't know what you're rambling about. Go find someone else to try to fuck, and leave me alone."

He pushed forward, using his own body to push the other back, pinning him to a tree. One hand ghosted up Shishi's arm, the other moving to cup his cheek, as he had before, at first. "You still want me..."

"Do I? Or is it more that you still want me. I seem to recall that I was the one that stopped coming to your bed, not the other way around." He refused to acknowledge the hurt that had driven him from Suzuki's bed- when he had gone back to the room they shared and found Suzuki missing when all he had wanted to do was collapse into his arms.

He leaned closer, pinning him there with his hips, his lips finding their way to the Samurai's neck, tongue sliding over the pale flesh in that teasing way he knew the other liked so much. "Come on Shishi...you know you still...like this..."

Shishi sighed softly, his eye sliding closed and his arms raising almost of their own volition to pull Suzuki closer... but then he remembered that night, the fateful night when they lost the tournament and he saw all his dreams shattered. He had been hurt, physically and emotionally, and had wanted nothing more than to find Suzuki and seek comfort from his lover, but Suzuki's room and bed had been empty. Finally he had found the other sulking over his own face, not willing to even consider what the loss had done to Shishi... and Shishi had been so hurt he had thereafter refused to share a bed. That memory came back to his mind, even as his body remembered.

That tongue traveled up, and he was kissing at Shishi's ear, thrilling in the other's response as he pulled him closer, unknowing the other's memories. He had been so angry! That old woman had beaten Shishi so easily, and then dared to insult him, and nearly scar his own face! It had been a blow to the pride he hadn't ever expected

Shishi felt his body rebelling against him, felt his head turning, desperate to capture those lips with his own, as he had so many times before... oh, how he had missed Suzuki, how his body had ached for him. So much so that he had completely abstained from sex, afraid he would get lost in the memories and make a fool of himself... until Touya. Something about Touya had caught his eye, and perhaps something more...

He captured those lips hungrily, moving to embrace the other in that possessive embrace, eyes falling half closed. To Suzuki, it was a clean slate, and he would wipe that ice demon form his Samurai's mind

"Mmmm..." Shishi melted against Suzuki's body, missing it, needing it... but then a glimpse of two pale blue eyes flashed across his mind, a pale neck thrown back, hair wild with abandon and he pushed Suzuki roughly away. "Stop it."

"EH!" he was flabbergasted, and for a moment more tried to capture those lips with his, but that rough shove sent him back, surprise lighting his eyes. "What? You like it when I do that!" he said angrily, eye narrowing

"I did... but I don't want you to do it anymore, ever. I told you before I was done with you, Suzuki, and I meant it. Every word of it, I meant. So stop it. You caught me off guard this time, but it won't happen again." Shishi cleared his throat, trying to will his body to calm down.

His eyes narrowed to fine points and he glared at the other almost hatefully. He couldn't believe the nerve of the other, turning him down like that! Everyone knew he was mad about Shishi! And for the blue haired samurai to just...toss him aside after one misunderstanding...

Shishi wrapped his arms around himself and took a deep breath. "Kindly leave me to my meditation now, Suzuki? You know how I get if I don't have a chance to center myself every morning."

Growling softly in anger, he whirled about and stalked away. The nerve of that...that bitch! But then a smirk crossed his face. There was always...Touya...

Shishi watched him go, a mix of anger, irritation and longing on his handsome young face. Oh, how he had wanted to give in... but Suzuki was right, Touya wouldn't have understood, and after seeing the look in Touya's eyes the night before when he had taken him in his arms, Shishi wasn't quite ready to just abandon him. Shaking slightly, he sat back down and closed his eyes.

Suzuki stalked off, plotting his mischief, still shaking with anger at Shishi. The nerve of him to bed with the little...ice midget! He wasn't even beautiful! He just had those odd, polished eyes...and his hair!

After a long meditation, longer than usual as he was damn shaken up, Shishi stood and stretched, taking a few last deep breaths before returning to the temple. He very much wanted to see Touya.

Touya was resting tiredly in one of the main rooms, sitting on the large pillows, head resting on his arms at the low table. It had been an intense workout, Jin having provided a real challenge and neither willing to back down.

Shishi was quick to find him, and smiled brilliantly when he saw him. Softly, he entered the room and knelt down beside him, reaching out and starting to massage his shoulders. "Have a good morning?"

He groaned softly in pleasure, shifting his position so that the other had a greater access to his tense shoulders, nodding his head slowly. "Intense...very intense..." he murmured dryly. "What about you..?"

"It was... pleasant," Shishi replied evasively, leaning down to drop a kiss on the back of Touya's neck, even as he kept up his tender ministrations. "For the most part."

"I'm glad to hear that..." he said with a light laugh that was sucked up in a shiver at that light kiss to his bare, cool flesh. Thoughts of Jin returning, being in the temple, and Suzuki prowling about in hurt anger dissolved as he felt the wonderful effects of that massage.

"Shall we slip away to bed while we have a few moments?" Shishi suggested, whispering in Touya's ear. "I found it rather hard to meditate today, with thoughts of you always intruding upon my mind..." He left out the part about Suzuki's assault and the fact that it had left his body aching with desire.

Those glassy blue eyes immediately hazed a little and he nodded, nipping at his own lower lip gently. "It...would be a good way to...relax..." he offered with a faint smirk as he stood slowly

"Yes, relax," Shishi agreed, standing as well and leading Touya to his room again, not caring who saw, or what they thought about it, breezing past Jin who happened to be in the hall as if he didn't even see him, too intent on relieving himself of the lust Suzuki had induced in him with his beautiful new lover.

Touya followed after his lover as he gracefully led him on, stopping a moment as he came level with Jin...but the other was turning away, confused...or hurt, and he...couldn't keep him waiting. Just seeing Shishi would cause an ache to well up within...

Jin swallowed hard when he saw Shishi walk past, Touya on his tail. Suddenly, Touya's expressions and reactions that morning made a lot more sense- he had a lover. The walls seemed to be crushing Jin, where moments before he had felt happy and welcomed, knowing Touya was there, and he headed outside to where the breezes could try to assuage some of his pain.

Suzuki was leaning against a tree, his hands stuffed into his pockets. He looked up as he saw the crestfallen Wind Master, and instantly processed why, turning it to his advantage. "So now you know too, huh?"

Jin didn't even need to ask what Suzuki was referring to. "I... didn' think it would be possible. I mean... Shishi? They barely knew each other, last I saw..."

He nodded. "Shishi's still mad at me...and I think...he's using Touya to assuage his lust. Knowing Shishi...it'll be over soon...hope Touya can handle that lack of commitment..."

Jin stared at him, appalled. "He's just usin my Touya?" He shook his head. "I swear, I won't let him forget it if he hurts him! Touya... he's always been distant, hard ta reach. Looks like Shishi got through to him...so he'd better not betray that trust he's somehow gained..."

He smirked inwardly, moving to put an arm about Jin. "Yeah! I mean...I'm...I am...and after three times...he just...shut me out...I'm sure Touya's next...and well...I doubt little Touya knows the meaning of the word pity fuck..." he said dramatically

"Pity fuck?" Jin's head perked up and he stared at Suzuki in horror. "Ya think that's why Shishi took him to bed? Out 'a pity for him?"

"I can only imagine what Shishi's thinking! After all...I...loved him...and you see what happened with us!" he said, his tone turning to one of sorrow. "Who knows...what if Shishi is just doing this...because he wants to hurt me...and Touya's just right for a quick romp...little experience, if I'm guessing right...doesn't know how to say no...won't know how to cope...a shame really" he sighed

Jin's fists clenched by his sides. "I'll... I'll have ta talk with Touya, when I get a chance," he said softly, voice shaking slightly. "I don't want ta see him get hurt... not when I... love him, as much as I do."

"I'd haaaaate to see a pretty little thing like him get his heart crushed when Shishi decides to throw him aside like he did me...who knows? Shishi may try to go after Kurama or Yusuke next! I can only worry about Touya...and how to win my Samurai back to my side..."

"Suzuki... I'll keep this in mind. I... I want Touya ta be happy, ya know? But I don't want him ta get hurt..." He sighed. "Why he decided ta believe Manwhore Shishiwakamaru wanted him when he wouldn't believe I did for years and years is beyond me, but.. I need to clear my head, go for a fly. I'll talk to ya later, Suzuki."

"I can only imagine, Jin! But fear not! We will make things right somehow! For Touya's sake!" he offered to him before slipping away, in dramatic exit. His plan thus far...was working

Jin was sticking close to the temple, brooding and worrying. He had decided he really should talk to Touya and try to be neutral about it.

At last Touya exited, stretching ready to begin an evening set of meditation. He caught Jin's scent though and turned, facing his friend with a faintly sheepish look, still feeling horrible for earlier

Jin looked very morose as he approached Touya, but he managed a lopsided grin. "So. You and Shishi, eh? How'd that happen?"

"Jin...I'm sorry..." he said with a weak smile, but walked at his friend's side slowly. "Well...it's hard to explain...we were talking...and got to know one another a little..." he flushed red, realizing that it sounded very...whirlwind

"And you fell into bed. Fine. I understand." Jin was quiet a moment, then, "I know ya probably don't want to discuss it, but I have ta ask... why him, when I offered so many times over the years?"

"It wasn't like I just.. wanted to fall into his bed!" he defended then sighed, hating that tremble in his friend's voice. "And...you were...gone...when I wanted you there..." he murmured softly, thinking of all the times Jin would leave him there. It was his worst fear...to always be alone...but not something he would admit

Jin spun to face him, suddenly enfolding Touya in his arms. "Why didn't ya ever say so? I never would have left ya, if you asked me not to!" He buried his face in Touya's hair. "And that doesn' explain why ya wouldn't share my bed..."

"You always said you had to go where the wind took you...I just missed you...and I didn't want...you to be there one night...and gone the next." he replied as he leaned against the other, trying naively to comfort him.. such an odd feeling, when usually the other was cheering him up.

"Suzuki... thinks Shishi might just be usin ya, and he's afraid that Shishi will discard ya when he's done. I don't want... ta see ya hurt. I want ya to be happy, and if Shishi makes ya happy, fine. I just..." He pulled back slightly, reaching up to tilt Touya's face up to his, "I just want to kiss ya, just once..."

"Jin..." his eyes softened a little, knowing his friend was protective...but surely Shishi wouldn't just...toss him aside, right? As long as he wasn't possessive...

"Can I, Touya?" Jin asked softly. "Just this once... since I've been wantin to for so long..."

He nodded slowly, gazing at his friend with sad eyes. He felt bad, and didn't want to hurt him...surely one kiss couldn't hurt...if it would make Jin happy again. "Just a kiss Jin...and I'm sorry..."

"Just... know that I adore ya, Touya, and always will." Jin leaned down then, and very softly kissed Touya for the first time, and perhaps the only time.

Jin's lips were surprisingly warm...and soft, and he felt his eyes closing, feeling...sadness for the pain in that voice. "Thank you, Jin...you'll...always be my best friend..."

Jin stroked his cheek as he stepped back. "I know. Ah'll always be here for ya. Always. I just... need ta clear my head right now. You understand."

He nodded his head quickly and stepped back as well, smiling sadly. It took a moment, before he hurried through the barest portions of the forest, to work his way around the temple, thinking

Shishi had settled himself down to have some tea, his lips twisted into a smile as he replayed his latest tryst with Touya in his mind.

Jin had hurried inside, and stopped dead when he saw Shishi. Memories or Suzuki's words overlapped into his mind and he hurried forward, affecting an easy smile. "Hello again, Shishi, how are ya doin?"

The samurai looked around, a more guarded expression crossing his face when he saw Jin. "Hello Jin. I'm quite well. And yourself?"

"Well enough, well enough..say...I heard..about you an Toy...how'd that happen then?" he asked with that silly grin, though those normally vibrant eyes seemed tired...and wary

Shishi cocked his head, knowing perfectly well Jin was worried for his best friend. "We were training together, then we got talking and I couldn't help but notice how attractive he is. Surely you know how that can be."

"Oh aye, I know all too well..." after all, he'd wanted Touya for nearly years now...and to just have him snatched... "Ah suppose...I just wanted to know your intentions..."

"My intentions are to share my bed with him, until one or both of us decide it's time for things to end, amicably and agreeably. If I can get him to gain a bit of self confidence in the meantime, well, mores the better, wouldn't you say?"

"Toy's got self confidence!" he defended, frowning a little, using the air currents to seat himself in the air, as he was wont to do. "And I was just wanting to make sure nothin...unsavory was gonna happen, ye catch my drift then?"

"I understand, and I assure you, my intentions are neither to use him nor to hurt him. I like him, a lot. I... would have to, to have approached him at all after..." Shishi trailed off, looking away uneasily.

"After what...? Listen, Shishi, I dun care what all is a goin on...but I don't want me Toy hurt! He doesna need any more pain and I won't see him kept for a few nights and tossed aside for a new pretty to fuck!"

Shishi looked affronted. "That's not my intention at all! Yes, I know I have a ... reputation, but do you really think I'm incapable of having a decent, long term relationship with someone?"

He hesitated lightly then dove in, watching him intently. "Well after all the business with Suzuki, and the tension there...ye can naturally imagine me worrying for lil Toy..." he explained, thinking it rather silly he had to explain what should be common knowledge

Shishi swallowed hard. "Contrary to what Suzuki is clearly telling you... I didn't just toss him aside to find someone new. I haven't been with anyone since.. the end of the Dark Tournament, until last night. And you realize, I am capable of intense loyalty. I have... wanted... to be with someone more than anything... would have given anything at all to be with them before... I... It's just not impossible, okay?"

He could feel the pain in his heart and pushed it aside, nodding his head slowly as he took in the other's words. True...Shishi was capable of intense loyalty for those he felt deserving. "Well, all I'm sayin is don't be breakin his heart now...or we'll be havin words. I dun give a damn what else Suzuki said, just keep tha in mind for me, k?"

Shishi raised one hand. "That's fine, as long as you realize this: I don't intend to hurt Touya, but I can't promise it won't happen. People often hurt those they care about, unintentionally. All I can promise is that I won't do it blatantly, with the knowledge or intention of hurting him."

"Ah understand that, Shishi. But I dun wanna hear about him being tossed aside after a few fucks like he's a cheap whore!" impassioned, he stared hard at the samurai, the wind having carried him nearly nose to nose with him. "Hurtin happens sometimes...ah know that."

"I'm not just using him, I swear it on my honor as a samurai," Shishi replied, back straight, eyes flashing. "I really do care for him, and won't just cast him aside because 'something better comes along'."

He stared hard into the other's eyes...and nodded slowly, the wind dying down a little. Shishi wasn't one to swear...even Jin knew that. He seemed to deflate a little and grinned once more to hide it. "Jus take care of him for now, eh?"

"I'll do my best," Shishi replied, still a bit irritated at how aggressive Jin had been. It's not like he broke hearts every day! ...anymore.

He gave one last, long look at the Samurai and backed off, unable to look at him anymore. He...had promised he'd take care of him...but he'd still taken his Touya away from him...

Shishi returned to his tea, trying to cool his temper. He couldn't blame Jin for it... after all, he was starting to feel much the same way for the Ice Master.

Touya had settled himself outside, in a far corner of the rock garden, concentrating his energy, levitating atop a sharpened spike of a rock with one finger. Doing his best to adhere to the training he closed his eyes, feeling his shirt slipping up, causing a growl of faint annoyance.

Well, for just a moment anyway, Suzuki could admit that Shishi's choice -could have been- worse, as he approached softly, eyeing Touya's pale flesh. Mean though he was feeling, he didn't really want to startle the Shinobi while he was practicing such a trick, so he merely waited for the other to notice him, arms crossed and a weak attempt at a pleasant expression on his face.

He could sense the other approaching, and a moment later those glassy eyes opened and he tossed a glance in his direction. Seeing Suzuki he flipped up and stood looking up at him. "Yes...?"

"Didn't mean to disturb you," Suzuki lied smoothly, approaching the other. "I just wanted to have a word with you. I'm sure you can guess the subject, but really, I ask you to hear me out. I want to speak to you out of concern for you. I like you, Touya, and don't want you to get unnecessarily hurt."

"Hurt...?" he asked, eyes narrowing lightly as he pulled his shirt back down, but he nodded slowly. "All right...what is wrong then...?" were the halted words as he crossed his pale arms

Suzuki stepped closer and affectionately flung an arm around Touya's shoulders, a gesture Shishi had picked up from him. "Look, I know Shishi may seem like a really great, attentive lover right now, but I'll warn you- as soon as he gets bored, and it doesn't take long, he'll ditch you with no regards to your own feelings. I know- he did it to me. And he's a breast man, utterly." Suzuki snorted and rolled his eyes. "I can't count the number of times he didn't hear what I was saying because he was staring at some bouncing fan girl. The problem there is- you don't have breasts. Shishi will eventually, when he's tired of whoring himself out, settle with a women- I'm sure of that. Don't get me wrong, I believe he likes you- for now. That's all. I just don't want to see you get too attached, because he will leave you, Touya. I swear to you that, and it doesn't matter how much you... care... for him."

Touya's eyes became like glacial spikes as he looked up at Suzuki, processing his words. A soft scowl touched his lip and he looked away form the taller man. "Shishi is more...honorable than to just throw someone aside with no warning." he argued, turning to face him, even though the faintest twinge of uncertainty began to worm through him

"Oh, maybe there will be some warning, if you happen to notice it, sure. He'll start being cold, aloof, not listening to you. Saying he's tired or has something to do other than spending time with you," Suzuki shrugged. "Of course, if one is utterly lovesick, one is not as likely to notice the warnings. Then a pretty speech about how meaningful it was and he's off with the first D-cup he finds."

"No! Shishi wouldn't just do that! You were too possessive, that's why he disliked you!" he fired back, eyes narrowing. At least...that was all Shishi had told him...and it wasn't like he was possessive...

Suzuki put his hands on his hips and glared down at the other. "Is that what he told you? Sure, I'm a bit possessive now, I suppose... He stole my heart! I'm sure you can understand that. But have you ever asked him what happened? I'd tell you, but I'm not sure I know myself!"

He grew quiet, silently and stubbornly trying to cling to the fact that Shishi...as flirtatious as he was...did have honor...and surely he wouldn't just toss him aside for a large breasted female?

Sensing he had instilled the hoped for doubts into Touya, Suzuki patted him on the shoulder. "Try talking to him. Hell, if you figure out why he left me, please, tell me. I'd love to know. I'll see you around, Touya." He then turned and strode off, trying not to gloat.

He moved away guardedly, glaring at Suzuki's back warily. Surely...he was in the wrong, after all, it was he who had shown the possessiveness and had even hit the other...but...wouldn't he be like that too...? No! Of course not!

Shishi was sitting in his room with a book, glancing up idly from time to time, hoping Touya would return soon. Not because he was particularly aroused, but more because he liked having the other around for the company.

He returned a short time later, pushing, forcing those thoughts from his mind. And then he saw Shishi...and a smile touched his lips...the beautiful demon was sitting there so calmly, reading. The picture of perfection. It was his turn to surprise him, and, trying to ignore Suzuki's warnings, he moved to stroke the back of his neck cautiously, testing the action

Shishi smiled brilliantly, closing his book without bothering to even note the page and turned his head around to look up at Touya. "There you are. I've been waiting for you. Sit, join me."

He smiled faintly and moved to sit at his right side, relaxing in that silent manner, flashing the other a look of appreciation. "How has your day gone, then...?" was the soft, polite query that left his lips, still trying to ignore Suzuki's phrases

Shishi leaned forward to briefly kiss Touya, before settling back to face him more comfortably. "Oh, well enough, excepting Jin felt the need to harass me earlier. I can't blame him though, he just wants you to be happy. Yours?"

"Jin spoke with you too...?" he felt a sweat drop and sighed. "Not much...I trained...and...eh...spoke with Suzuki for a few moments, but other than that...nothing of importance..."

Shishi's eyes narrowed. "You spoke to Suzuki...ah, so that's it. I thought you had something on your mind. What did that stupid, vain, arrogant asshole say to you?"

"Nothing, nothing. He just...wanted to know why..."he trailed off. They both knew what he had been getting at. "I told him what happened...with..." a blush touched those pale cheeks lightly. "us..was none of his business..."

Shishi reached out and stroked Touya's flushed cheek gently. "You're damn right about that, it is none of his business, but I'm afraid we'll both have to put up with his jealousy for a time yet. He... probably won't get over it anytime soon."

There was a moment's hesitation before he spoke again. "He...really liked you a lot then, didn't he?" Touya held his breath for a moment, but that soft hand on his cheek was a balm to his senses and he leaned against it, closing those pupil-less eyes slowly

The samurai was quiet for a moment, then replied softly, "Yes, he did. And I cared about him. More than I should have, considering what a self-absorbed prick he is."

He allowed himself to nudge at that hand lightly to let Shishi know that he had heard him and opened his eyes to half slits, enjoying watching the beautiful Samurai

Shishi leaned down and breezed another kiss across Touya's lips before pulling his hand back and resting it on top of the other, where it sat on his legs. His eyes held Touya's face for a moment before dropping down to focus on those hands. "Touya, did he say anything to make you doubt me?"

Those eyes flew open, then quickly narrowed to their normal space. He started to shake his head. "No...just jealous ranting about you being his...I...did not listen to him." he lied with a faint smile, willing his face to remain impassive

Shishi glanced up at him and then shook his head, snorting rather inelegantly. "Please, don't lie to me, Touya. Suzuki can be ... very persuasive. I know that first hand. And he's clever, so he probably figured out something to worry you. Just tell me, please?"

That inelegant snort made a faint smile touch those pale lips and he sighed lightly. "Nothing important...just...stupid stuff about how...you would leave when you got bored...and find someone with...D...cups..?"

Shishi's eyes flew open and he stared at Touya for a moment before bursting into laughter. "He said that?" Shaking his head, the samurai continued to chortle. "Oh, that's a good one, really. Well, as to that- I certainly didn't leave him for someone with D cups, did I? Nor did I leave him out of boredom, if you must know."

He had to admit...he wasn't exactly a busty fan girl...but would he be able to keep the Samurai's interest? With his icy nature...? It was a genuine concern, but one that he deemed unimportant at the moment. "May I ask...why you did leave him? You don't have to say, of course!" he added quickly to placate him

The samurai frowned slightly, more at the memory than at Touya's question itself, and wrapped his arms around his chest. "I can tell you the whole story, if you really want to hear it. I.. don't mind. If you know, it might be better. It would give Suzuki less things to taunt you with."

He nodded slowly, nestling a little closer to the elegant samurai that sat at his side, so wrapped up in the unpleasant memory. Words left him for a moment, and he had to clear his throat. "Yes...please."

Shishi nodded, face somber. "Alright. As you can probably guess, I grew up in a privileged samurai household, the only coveted son. Spoiled rotten, I was- still am, I suppose. Anyway, one day I'm in town and in breezes this guy like I've never seen before. Bright blond hair and a flamboyant attitude, almost literally trailing rainbows, and he looks at me and I freeze because I knew that if I spoke to him, it would change the course of my life. He approached me, in the end, and we got to talking. I found out he was gathering a team for the Dark Tournament, and he quickly offered to let me join, since he sensed my potential and could see I was a skilled swordsman. My parents were thrilled I was going out to make a name for myself, and off we went. He seemed to have set his mind on seducing me, and I had no objections at all. I was so in awe of him, which is ridiculous looking back now, but he had this confidence and charisma about him that just drew me in." He chuckled. "I think it's a trait my fan girls like in me. I might have learned it from him. At any rate, I easily gave in and started sharing his bed- once we had the leisure for such things. First we had gathered a team and done some intensive training. At any rate, I finally gave in to him and by that point I was utterly... I loved him. Not my best of moments, but I won't lie to you. Anyway, after our defeat at the hands of Genkai, I was totally shattered. I had been raised to expect only the best for myself, and Suzuki had fed into that belief, telling me there was no way we could lose, none at all. It would be unthinkable, he said! So, young and only somewhat aware of the world, that defeat was shattering- not to mention I made a royal ass of myself and marred my honor. That aside, I was pretty confused about the whole thing and could think of nothing but tucking myself into Suzuki's arms until the world stopped spinning around me. I went looking for him as soon as I woke up and was allowed to leave that damned infirmary, and I find him in his bathroom, looking in his mirror and blubbering about 'damn Toguro' and 'damn Genkai' and his 'precious, precious face'. I tried to get his attention, explain what I was feeling... but he just started complaining about -his- problems to me. That was fine, I listened and tried to offer comfort, expecting the same in return, and got nothing. Feeling hurt and betrayed, I stopped sharing his bed. I just... When I needed him most, he was too wrapped up in himself to be there for me, and so I knew I couldn't count on him, so I cut my ties with him, in that regard, as best I could before it got too hard... not that it was easy then. After that, we parted ways. I went home to my family who did comfort me, but by that point I was a bit too jaded to listen, and I hadn't seen him again until Kurama gathered us all here." Shishi shrugged and grinned, though it was weak. "And you're the first lover I've taken since."

Touya listened too the story with widening eyes, and at one point, he wasn't sure when-his hand had found it's way into Shishi's. He had seen Shishi's fight with Genkai...and he had seen Suzuki's. "And so now...seeing one another...is a great amount of tension..."

"Quite a great deal, yes. Apparently he's now decided that he loved me, though where that thought was when I needed him is beyond me." Shishi sighed and squeezed Touya's hand.

Perhaps it wasn't love...but a possessiveness. He wanted you...because you were beautiful...and now that you've...moved on...he wants you back...like...a child with a toy?"

"So it would seem." Shishi turned pained eyes on his new lover. "Oh, but Touya... it would be so easy sometimes to just... go back to him. I won't lie to you about that either. Only my pride won't allow it. He hurt me, and I can't go back to him, but sometimes..."

He swallowed hard, but nodded in that nonchalant manner that he used to convey all emotions as one...trying for that affection of apathy. "He...does seem quite...persuasive..." he allowed against his will, though he held tightly to that hand, unknowingly

"Yes, but he won't catch me off guard again." Shishi's tone and expression were fierce. "I won't let him. I'm not the same naive, stupid boy he first met. Not anymore."

Touya had to smile at the fierce tone the other now had, and canted his head to the side lightly, merely studying him. "I am sorry to hear...that you went through all of that."

Shishi gave him a sudden smile. "Oh, it's alright. I couldn't stay sheltered all my life!" Reaching out, he wrapped his arms around Touya to pull the other against him. "Besides, I wouldn't have met you."

He allowed himself to be dragged closer, surrendering and nestling closer, inhaling the soft, lovely scent that wafted from the other demon. He always smelled beautiful...looked beautiful. He was like perfection... "I...am glad to have met you as well..." he said carefully, smiling a small smile

Shishi pulled back just enough to be able to kiss Touya, which he did, soundly. One hand slid upwards, resting on the back of his hair, stroking those soft tresses, and the other slid down to the small of his back, holding him closely.

"Mmm.." he felt those sweet lips pressed against his and pressed himself closer immediately, thrilling in the hands stroking his hair, sliding over his back. His own raised of their own volition to wrap about the other's neck and waist, holding him gingerly

"I'm yours now," Shishi assured him, though the words were muffled by the kiss. Leaning back down onto his futon, he pulled Touya down with him, making it quite clear what he was hoping for- and that he was giving himself up to Touya.

Eyes...softened at that, and he returned that kiss with a renewed passion as he lowered himself to Shishi, joining him on the futon. Shishi was offering himself...he could do the same. "I...m ours now..." he echoed as his lips found Shishi's once more.

Some time had passed- several weeks, in fact, and Shishi showed no signs of losing interest in the Ice Master. Actually, he seemed to be growing more fond of him as time went on. Smiling at the memory of the early morning sex, Shishi entered the clearing where he usually meditated and settled himself comfortably, having a hard time clearing his mind of his lovers beautiful face, and soft cries...

There was a soft sound of footsteps on the grass, as the girl appeared from the tree line and towards the clearing. Clearly of demon heritage, she appeared to be a beautiful red cat like girl. The vixen saw Shishi and gave a light purring chirrup to let him know he'd been spotted and came a little closer, her kimono style shirt barely containing the large globes of flesh that strained at the fabric. For she was busty and giggly.

Shishi's eyes opened at the noise- and nearly popped out of his head, though he managed to prevent himself from looking so inelegant, and, well, perverted. But one couldn't blame him, as the only woman flesh he'd seen in quite some time was Genkai or Yukina, and, well... one was old, the other too innocent, and neither very busty at all. "Um.. hello?" he inquired, making an effort to look at her face, but it was hard...

"Oh my gods! You're Shishi!" She gushed, falling to her knees at his side, her arms pressing against her swelling bosom. "I saw you at the Ankoku! You were so pretty! OH...but I had to go before the end of it...but I can't believe it's you!" she giggled, blushing "Nyao..."

"Um, yes. I'm Shishiwakamaru," he informed her ample bosom. "And who might you be?" he added, again wrenching his gaze upwards.

"I'm Sheena!" she giggled, rubbing at her cheeks in a kittenish way, sticking her tongue out at him. "I just can't believe it's you, Shishi! And you're even cuter here!" she gushed, reaching out. "May I...may I touch your hand!" those red ears flickered cutely as she waited, jiggling with every movement

He should have sensed it was Suzuki, really he should. He should have realized some stupid buxom demon girl wouldn't arrive here like this... but... "Of course you may," he replied gallantly, tossing his hair back over his shoulder in a way that he knew made him look stunning.

Suzuki was honestly testing Shishi...his demon costume was perfect, to be sure...but a demon in the ningenkai? One that the Tantei didn't know about? As Shishi tossed his hair back she let her hands fly forward, pinning his hand to her bosom, giggling happily "Oh wow, this is such an honor, Shishi-sama!" she gushed, her eyes filled with stars.

"Yes, of course," he replied in a haughty tone, his eyes once more fixated on where his hand was resting currently. -Soft...- he thought, dazedly. -Touya isn't built like this... Wait... Touya!- Pulling his hand back in as gentle a way as possible, he cleared his throat and stood, putting a little distance between them. "Always glad to meet a fan..."

The ice demon in question was slowly making his way to that spot...he could sense Touya and smiled lightly at the thought of meditating at his side, as they had come to do now and then in the morning's.

She pouted, giggling as she looked up at him. "So shy, Shishi-sama...and you're soooo beautiful! I wanna have your kittens..." she sighed lightly and stood up, taking his hand and rubbing it lightly...shoving it right back in her bosom, hugging it to her heart. "You're such a perfect man!" her voice carried a little, lilting.. fan girlish

"Yes, I'm fully aware," he agreed amicably, his voice cracking slightly. He coughed again and pulled his hand free- again. "And I'm flattered by your offer, but I have no intention of having children any time soon."

"Mrowr!" she rubbed her chest against him, purring in a sultry manner. "Maybe I don't want kittens right now either..." hands tugged at his arm entreatingly as she pressed herself flush against him. "I think I love you, Shishi-sama..." she said in a half mewl.

And it was this scene...those normally tender words that the ice demon walked in on. Touya stared, dumbfounded at the girl...at Shishi. Eyes widened...and he wasn't sure what to say...

Shishi backed up, placing his hands on her shoulders and pushing her away, gently, but in such a way that it was clear he was serious. "Look, again- I'm flattered. But right now is not a good time. I'm afraid I'm in a relationship at the moment, and I've never really been much one for casual dalliances with my fans."

"But...but..." and her eyes welled with tears, great large ones that made her adorable little Mary sue eyes sparkle with BEAUTIFUL dew. "Shishi-sama..."

"I'm sorry, but it can't be," he replied firmly, which would have been much more convincing and gallant if his eyes weren't glued to her cleavage. But the words were said none the less, and he had no idea his lover was watching- as he was a bit... distracted.

"But...I bet...I can make it better! I'm a good girl!" in all her rambunctious actions, perhaps that top opened a little wider, and she sniffled again, mewing at him sadly.

Stepping a little closer, he watched silently, eyes narrowed...waiting to see what happened

Shishi swallowed hard and closed his eyes, as he wasn't getting them back otherwise, and stepped backwards, turning slightly away from her. "I'm very sorry but..." Now that the spell of large breasts had released its hold, something occurred to him. "Wait a moment- where the hell did you come from anyway?" His brow furrowed in thought, and suspicion.

"Wh...what do you mean...!" she asked, giving another heart wrenching sob. She stood, rubbing at her eyes and turned to run away. "You're a beast, Shishi-sama! A beast!"

And it clicked. No one else knew all of his fetishes so well- surely this woman appearing, being a cat woman with large breasts- all that he liked in a woman- was no coincidence. And that bastard could disguise himself. "Suzuki, you sick son of a bitch!"

Giving another great heaving sob she took off running...because Suzuki damn well didn't want to get caught in that situation! She ran as fast as she could to try and escape his wrath.

Shishi growled low in his throat and drew his sword. Summoning his youki, he sent out a modified version of his infamous Chorus of a Thousand Skulls- specifically to catch and bind Suzuki so he could catch him more easily.

Screaming high and loud...very girlishly, whimpering as he was caught and blinded but moments later, too stunned to have properly fought back by much.

So angry his horns were starting to form on top of his head, Shishi stalked to the captive Suzuki and paused before him, punching him soundly in the face. "You ass," he growled. "That was not a funny joke."

He whimpered, rubbing at his face as he stared up at him bleakly. "Dammit, Shishi! I was just playing with you!" he whined, trying to get away, his own youki forming about him as he started to gather his bearings.

"Playing? Playing? You call that playing? And what would you have done if I hadn't pulled away? If I hadn't realized it was you? Would you have started laughing and told me who it was, or would you have kept it up to try to hurt Touya?"

"I...I don't know! Probably..." his mind raced as he began to search an answer. "I would have laughed and played it off, of course I wouldn't try to make you cheat on Touya! I was just testing you, you know?" Once more he rose, his muscles bulging lightly. He smirked then. "Besides...your little love toy saw it all anyway..."

Shishi's back stiffened momentarily. Turning, he noticed Touya for the first time, and he gave him a look of surprise, dismay, and some minor guilt... more the guilt of a man that had had very impure thoughts than a man who had acted on them, but none the less...

Touya stood beside the tree, one hand resting on it...perhaps he'd been laying in wait...too stunned to move...but part of the tree had frozen over, where his hand touched. He said nothing, merely staring at Shishi...then turning that apathetic glare onto Suzuki

Shishi didn't even look at Suzuki again as he stepped towards Touya, his hands out in supplication. "Touya... I..." Not knowing what to say, he merely shrugged and looked pleadingly at him.

He braved that tiny smile he had first given Shishi and stepped forward. The Samurai...had almost faltered...but still...he had not gone through with it...had pushed...Suzuki away. "Shishi..." he whispered.

Sensing that Touya wasn't furious with him, Shishi gave a very large smile of relief and closed the distance between himself and the Ice Master, wrapping his arms around his lover and burying his face in his neck. "I'm sorry, love," he muttered.

He shuddered lightly and clung to Shishi tightly, glaring at the heap of cat girl Suzuki hatefully before closing his eyes and burying his face into his lover's throat. " I thought we could meditate together..."

"Only if you give me time for a cold shower first," Shishi replied wryly. "Then I'm spending all day with you, just you, and no one else."

"You don't have to, Shishi...I mean...no harm done..." he said with a light chuckle as he moved to gently lead him back towards the temple, ignoring Suzuki

Shishi let out a great sigh and gave Touya a grateful smile. "Damn Suzuki, knows my weaknesses," he joked, blushing faintly. "Almost fooled me, but even if I kept believing it, I would have turned her down."

Touya pretended that that one moment of faltering hadn't hurt...but it did...and yet he understood. And Shishi had still returned to him over the girl...so perhaps...Suzuki as wrong after all...

Shishi paused in the walk to pull Touya to him and kiss him, before releasing him again. "Did I ever tell you that I utterly adore you?" he asked conversationally.

Touya paused to look up at the other in surprise, mouth working silently for a moment as he tried to find the words to speak. "Wha...what?"

Shishi laughed at the others expression. "What? Is it that surprising? Even after the way I fawn all over you?"

That blush deepened over his pale features and he turned his head downwards immediately. "You don't have to fawn over me, Shishi..." he started softly, stroking his hand

"Mmmm...can't help it, beautiful," was the reply, and while part of it was residual lust, and part of it was gratitude that Touya wasn't that asshole Suzuki, most of it he meant very sincerely.

He snorted, not needing a term like beautiful attached to his name as he walked alongside him, his arm creeping about his waist gingerly. "You're the beautiful one, Shishi."

Shishi slid his own arm around Touya's shoulders. "Whatever you say, but you won't change my mind. Why can't we both be beautiful, thus making everyone who sees us together insanely jealous?"

He had to laugh at Shishi's arrogant attitude and nodded slowly, knowing it was better to just give in to his words than try and fight it. "If you say so..." he murmured, stroking a lock of perfectly maintained blue hair

Shishi winked at him, and guided him back into the temple and to his room. "You know... you should move all your stuff into my room and we'll just share. We already do anyway."

He started in surprise, and felt himself nodding, shyly once more. The idea was appealing...and with Jin never sleeping in the room anymore...on the nights he was in his room...it was lonely. Far different from the normal quiet solitude he enjoyed

Shishi grinned at his own brilliance. "Perfect! I know you don't have many possessions- let's move you in right now."

Touya couldn't say no to that face...and he didn't want to. He wanted to be closer, so he nodded, leading him to the room he had previously shared with Jin when the Wind Master was around. "There isn't much at all..."

Shishi nodded and began briskly gathering up the items he knew belonged to Touya. There was even less there than he thought. "You need some new clothes," he remarked. "I'll have to see about getting you some, when we return to Makai."

He chuckled, shrugging. The last new outfits had come from Kurama as a gift, and they were just training clothes. He gathered up what little was left and followed the other back towards his own room.

Shishi deftly put everything away, tucked neatly in with his own possessions before disrobing and slipping into his bed, desiring a midday cuddle after the hectic and surprising morning.

Touya was all too eager to comply, slipping out of his own loose garments and into Shishi's arms. Touya then buried his face in his lovers shoulder and sighed softly, contentedly

Shishi stroked Touya's hair, so glad he hadn't done something stupid and ruined things with this beautiful Ice demon, as Suzuki had clearly intended. He frowned slightly, knowing he would have to confront Suzuki once and for all about this... the idea of killing the ass also crossed his mind, but he decided against it as he realized Genkai would wipe the floor with him for it. No, a nice, stern talking to and some humiliation would have to suffice.

Touya curled closer to him, near purring in his arms as the ice demon rubbed against his shoulder lightly, just...wanting that silent closeness...he was far too addicted to that feeling

Shishi smiled and let all thoughts of revenge leave his head, just enjoying Touya's very presence... for the moment.

Suzuki had reverted to his normal outfits once more, and was resting atop the archway at the head of those stairs that lead to Genkai's shrine. Stretching out, he yawned and seethed over how close he had come to breaking the two lover sup

Quietly Shishi approached the arch on the ground, eyes trained on the plotting youkai above him. Inwardly, he seethed in a mixture of anger and fond remembrance...and hurt. That hadn't fully left him, no matter how close he got to Touya.

He was on his side, staring down the stairways, but Shishi's energy reached him and he turned to gaze at him, affecting a faint smirk.

Shishi returned the gaze levelly, still approaching. "Suzuki, why don't you come down from there?" he called softly.

He rolled over easily and perched there, staring down at the pretty blue haired demon. "Why...what do you want?" he asked bitterly, trying to keep his snappier comments in check.

"You. To come down here," was the reply, as Shishi opened his arms in an invitation to the other to join him there on the ground.

His eyes narrowed but he leapt down, looking to Shishi, arms crossed across his muscular chest. "Yes, Shishi?" he found himself asking in that affected tone of hurt and envy..

Shishi didn't drop his arms, but he also didn't say anything, or move otherwise, keeping his eyes fixed on Suzuki's face.

He too watched the other intently, canting his head to the side lightly as he waited, a few bangs of beautiful blonde hair sliding down into his eyes,

"Dammit Suzuki," Shishi hissed at length, his almost non-existent patience fraying. "Come here, you stupid, stubborn asshole!"

"What!" he blasted back as he strode forward to eye the other, now only a foot apart as he looked him over, his arms still up in a protective fashion about his torso. "I thought you'd be busy with Touya right now..."

"I'm not with him all the time, you know," Shishi hissed back. "I do have a life of my own! Now..." Frustrated, his sighed and stepped closer, wrapping his arms around Suzuki firmly, in a way he hadn't since he had stopped sharing the others bed.

Suzuki stiffened lightly, then warily brought his arms about the other, resting his head on his shoulder. "So what's this about then, if you don't mind my asking?"

"Shut up for a minute, would you?" Shishi answered, softly, melting against Suzuki's lean body.

He held the other closer, tighter...possessively against him, smirking with triumph over his head as he buried his nose in that perfect blue hair

"I've missed this, so much it aches sometimes," Shishi confessed. "Do you even realize how much I loved you? Have you even considered it for one moment?"

"Of course I...I considered it!" he responded hotly as he held him closer, kissing his hair reverently. "My beautiful little samurai...

"And did you ever bother to feel the same? Or was I just a lovely little piece of ass you could show off?"

"I care for you and you know it!" he responded, eyes narrowing lightly. "You weren't...just a piece of ass, Shishi...and it wasn't until you were gone..." he smirked into the other's hair, kissing him gently as he closed his eyes

"Somehow, those words ring hollow, Suzuki, and so I have to wonder to myself why I still allow you to have such power over me," Shishi mused, as much to himself as to the other. "But you see, I like Touya. I really do. I don't love him the way I loved you, but I could, so easily. In just a little time. And so I ask you, if you cared about me at all, ever, please just leave us alone and let me see where this goes."

He stiffened as he held onto the other, glaring down at his hair, but he nodded slowly, sighing. "Wherever it takes you...hell, I'll be here..." he said after a moment. He didn't sound happy in the slightest, but he seemed at least little relenting. "Who knows...maybe he can make you happy...and stuff..."

Shishi chuckled wryly. "Did you know, that ever since you turned up here, all I wanted to do was... this. Right here, I wanted this. More than anything. Until I thought to make a move on Touya, and suddenly the lack of this didn't hurt as much." Shaking his head, he still held to Suzuki. "And thank you, Suzuki. I'd rather have you in my life as a friend, than not have you at all."

He managed a large smile and leaned forward, kissing Shishi's forehead lightly. "Whatever happens then...happens. I suppose I should stop making an ass of myself."

"Oh yes," Shishi purred softly, smiling up at him, an evil glint in his eyes. "Because the other option was that I would kill you."

His eyes widened as he looked down at the samurai, blinking in...faint apprehension. After the incident in the clearing...he somehow doubted it was a lie...

While the other was still off guard, Shishi leaned up and kissed him. It was full of repressed passion, regret, love, sorrow, anger, and it was also very clearly a goodbye.

He returned it until Shishi would feel the need to stop it...and those eyes fell closed. He sighed, realizing that it was indeed over for now...and he was unhappy...but realized he had to accept it or look like a fool

Shishi pulled back, briefly, then moaned deep in his throat and kissed him again and again, soft, brief kisses, as if he couldn't bare to let go and let it finally, really be over.

Suzuki was only to eager to comply, reaching for the other, trying to grip him, those little kisses being returned a hundredfold. "Shishi..." he said huskily, watching him, waiting to see what he did.

When he finally stopped kissing him, it almost appeared that there were tears in those violet eyes. "Suzuki... why the hell couldn't you have gotten over yourself for just a minute when I needed you?"

He wiped a tear away and smirked lightly to cover his own bittersweet feelings. "And I don't suppose you'll agree if I ask you to run away with me after all of this, huh...?"

Shishi blinked at him, then looked away. "Don't be stupid. We're training to help Kurama and Yomi-sama... And I can't just leave Touya like that."

"I didn't think so...but it was worth a try..." he sighed softly. "I really did care for ya...I dunno...if it was love...but I care...a lot more than you think..." it was tough admitting even that, and he looked sheepish...envious of Shishi's new love

Shishi stroked Suzuki's cheek softly. "Then you should have shown it, asshole. Instead, you blew your chances with me." Clearing his throat and dropping his gaze, he stepped back. "Well, I should... get back to the temple now."

He looked away and nodded, moving to hurry off into the forest for some time alone. Suzuki didn't want to see Shishi at the moment...he just wanted...solitude...and to contemplate what he had truly lost...

Solemn and still looking horrendously downcast, Shishi glanced over his shoulder at where Suzuki had been, as he returned to the temple and his new lover.

Watching him go...he felt the pangs of his loss, and turned, running into the forest. He needed to find a way to work off this energy.

Returning to his room, Shishi set his sword aside and threw himself on his bed, face down in the pillow, trying to clear his mind and achieve the happy and peaceful state he found himself in when Touya was around. His body still burned where it had touched Suzuki, and his lips longed for those kisses again, but now it was really and truly over and he had to put it behind him. If only it weren't so hard!

Touya came in only a few moment later, looking at Shishi silently from the sliver of the doorway. He stared down at him silently, torn with indecision. He started to back away, thinking the other needed silence to straighten whatever plagued him-though he had an idea what it was

Shishi sensed him, however, and not removing his face from the pillow he reached out a hand, beckoning Touya to join him.

And obediently he came to his lover, kneeling and...just wrapping his arms around him in a sweet, simple hug. Strong medicine. He remembered the times in the Shinobi clan when he'd been truly depressed.. and Jin had offered him a hug...and things had actually looked up a little.. perhaps it would help here...he just...didn't know what to say

Shishi grabbed Touya's hands, clutching them tightly. "It's really, officially over," he said at length, not looking at his new lover. "I think Suzuki will leave us alone now. Or I'll kill him."

He nodded slowly, not smiling in triumph...for he knew the loss Shishi was feeling. Instead he just nestled closer, tightening his hands about the other demon's...and kissed him sweetly on the forehead.

Shishi finally opened his eyes and regarded Touya, more or less calm. "What about Jin?" he asked suddenly, totally changing the subject.

"I...I haven't seen him...much lately..." he said after a moment. "I think he's avoiding me now..." he said sadly as he curled closer, trying to hide his face in his lover's throat.

"Touya," Shishi asked softly, "Did you love him?"

He shook his head lightly as a negative and then wrapped his arms about that swanlike neck. "No...I.. wanted to...sometimes...just so..I wouldn't be alone...anymore. But he was always gone and back...I was afraid we'd get close..and then he'd leave for good..but...I didn't love him...

"I don't think he would have left you, if he had you," Shishi murmured, kissing the top of Touya's head, trying to forget the feel of Suzuki's lips.

Touya shrugged his shoulders lightly. Though he felt bad for Jin, regret for hurting him...it was the one who held him...that he wanted.

Shishi reached down and tilted Touya's face up, then kissed him. "I'm yours now, Touya. I'm yours until you don't want me anymore."

He looked up at his eyes...and perhaps those glassy eyes seemed to gather a little moisture as they kissed. And when they pulled back for air moments later, he was blinking rapidly, trying to keep his calm composure

Shishi smiled faintly, seeing those damp eyes. "I don't love you either," he admitted, "But I think I could. Very, very easily."

He chuckled softly and hugged him tightly, once more hiding his face so those hot tears could fall unseen. That was what he wanted...to not be alone in the.. darkness, as he thought of it
The samurai sighed heavily, holding his new lover against him- the one he had given up the most important thing in his life for, and smiled faintly. Well, this had potential. Why not investigate the new opportunities with a lover who wouldn't ... ignore him over a few split ends. Chuckling to himself, he kissed Touya again and smiled faintly...