Disappearing Hearts

By: Hixxy

Author's note: All right I'm back! Now due to my inexperience at writing a fanfic, feel free to criticize whenever necessary, and if you see any mistakes storyline wise plz let me know as I don't really remember all the details of the characters. Enjoy! By the way this chapter has some colorful words that wouldn't do for a kid to read them.

Summary: this is basically a Bellatrix/James/Lily love triangle fanfic with the main focus being on Bellatrix and James so if this is not to your taste I suggest you leave.

'speech'

(thought)

'ALL ABOARD!' screamed the stationmaster

And with that the train to Hogwarts was underway to its destination.

Onboard in compartment 304 Bellatrix sat down, alone, as usual and wished desperately for the trip to end as soon as possible before the usual bullies came.

'Hello Bellatrix' hissed a sly voice from her doorway

Startled she turned around and saw the ugly face of Roldolphus grinning at her with a seducing smile; only, in his case it made him look like a retard. Roldolphus... The only guy in the whole of Hogwarts' list of eligible bachelors that was interested in her. However she considered his presence an annoyance, and had told him so on numerous occasions, but it seemed that the more she knocked him back, the more strongly he would come back.

(Why won't he just leave me alone!)

'Roldolphus...just leave me alone!' she yelled

'But what if someone comes to bully you, you need somebody to protect you my love!' he declared

Finally, she had had enough; she was sick of all of the years she had to put up with his declarations of love and how they were fated to be together. She'd rather be bullied then to have Roldolphus as her knight in shining armor.

'JUST SHUT UP!' she practically screamed 'I HATE YOU, I DON'T LIKE YOU ONE BIT OK!!, SO JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!'

Roldolphus was a bit shocked at first, because this was the first outburst she had ever had, For the entire time that he had known her she was a meek little thing that couldn't even raise her voice to speak clearly. But after the initial shock had set in he started to get angry.

'You bitch, after all these years you still treat me like Shit!' he said nastily 'well guess what, I'm not gonna take it anymore, from now on I'm just gonna take what I want!'

and with that he grabbed Bellatrix and pushed her onto the cushion seat. Bellatrix tried to fight back, but he was far too strong for her, finally pinning her down so she couldn't mo. Grinning maliciously, he started to put his hand under her shirt.

'I've been wanting to do this for a long time hehehehheheh.'

(I'm going to be raped! This can't be happening! please James, save me!!!) she thought with tears forming around her eyes

Suddenly, as if some higher being had heard her prayers, she felt Roldolphus go limp on top of her.

'A little early to be playing around don't you think Bellatrix' taunted a voice that she knew so well.

Quickly she pushed Roldolphus off of her, and looked at her savior. James...

'I'm not like that! I...I...was almost raped.' she stated with the tears now rolling freely down her cheeks.

(James...you saved me again... even if you didn't mean to.... I love you so much it hurts oh how I wish I was brave enough to tell you)

James looked kind of shocked as he glanced at Roldolphus' limp form on the ground. Then he stared at her in the eye for quite a few minutes not saying a word. Bizarrely enough, to Bellatrix, it seemed strangely romantic in a way, if she didn't count the fact that she was almost raped and that her mind was in an emotional tornado right now. Not to mention the fact that her face was washed with tears.

(I can do it! I have to tell him how I feel!)

'James, I have something to tell you...' she started off; he looked at her expectantly and her throat started to contract, the first signs of embarrassment.

'I....I..Lo'

'HOHOHOHO!!!!' boomed an uninvited voice.

And there was her hated cousin Sirius standing there with a smirk.

(I hate you Sirius, are you trying to make my life hell or something!!!!) She screamed in her mind. But being the meek thing she was she couldn't say anything.

'hahahahaha....so the rumors are true.' he laughed evilly after glancing at Roldolphus' prone form on the floor

'What rumors?' she asked confusedly. She knew that people teased her, but she didn't know that she was gossiped about.

'That your nothing but a slut.'

James decided to step in at this point.

'Padfoot...she was almost raped' he said gently

Sirius, however just looked at her coldly with the same smirk on his face, as if to say "Who gives a shit about you".

'Prongs, haven't I told you many times, her family are liars, the whole lot of them.'

James immediately turned around to face her, staring wide-eyed, she just stared back hoping that he could see the truth in her tears. However he didn't, he turned back to Sirius and muttered what sounded like 'let's leave the loser to do her slutty business' then left the carriage hurriedly. Sirius grinning from ear to ear evilly gave her the finger as if to say "take that" then left to find his friend. although her heart was broken she gained enough composure to push Roldolphus outside of her carriage and locked the door; finally, she was alone....

(James...I was so close to telling you how I feel, and then my fucken cousin had to ruin everything...I hate him!!!)

Feeling the last of her emotional barriers breaking down, she cried new tears thinking how similar the situation that happened today was to the situation that happened on the first day she had ever met her true love.

FLASHBACK

'Hello Bellatrix...' Sirius said with a slight sneer.

'Sirius...' she replied warily

James Potter was just standing in the middle between the two of them with a confused look on his face that clearly said "what the hell". Wanting answers he decided to question Bellatrix.

'Bellatrix, I thought that you said that didn't know Sirius' he said with a look of curiosity.

'I....I....' Bellatrix was at a loss for words as to how she could say to James that she and Sirius were cousins but that both their families were enemies, when she had already lied to him about Sirius's existence in her life. Unfortunately Sirius was NOT about to keep quiet.

'She said that she doesn't KNOW me James? Now that's a laugh, we know each other quite well don't we, Bellatrix?' he said with contempt

'..........' She just couldn't think of a thing to say, her mind was in turmoil, trying to find a way to salvage the situation.

James was still just standing there between the two of them, both giving each other looks of utter disgust for each other, only this time he had an even bigger "what the hell" face expression. Finally, tired of being left out in the dark started shaking Sirius for the answers.

' Sirius, tell me what's going on between you and Bellatrix NOW. How do you know her? and why do you hate her so much?' he said sharply.

'ahhhh......my dear James' he started off mockingly ' do you remember me telling you about those relatives of mine that my family have been fighting with for four years?'

'uhhhhhhh........vaguely, what about it?'

It was at this point that Bellatrix started to die inside, because when James finds out the truth, he's going to hate her just like her cousin.

'well she's one of them' Sirius finished pointing his finger at her overdramatically.

James looked shocked for a second then calmed down and glanced at Bellatrix coldly, who by now was on the verge of crying at seeing the first friend she ever made looking at her so meanly, Sirius on the other hand was just laughing like crazy taunting her with the words "loser as always". After a couple of minutes of James and Bellatrix not saying a word, James started to walk away with Sirius following behind him.

(NO! I can't lose him!!!!) she thought, Panicking, she cries out.

'WAIT!'

without so much as a backward glance James said in an annoyed tone

'What do you want NOW?'

'I...I...ar..are..you still my friend?' she knew that it sounded dumb but she just had to know.

For a second he looked a bit pained but then he glanced at Sirius then looked her straight in the eye.

'How can I be YOUR friend, your just a loser' he whispered and with that turned around and started walking away again.

Sirius, however stayed behind and whispered scathingly

' I know that you fancy him, but guess what your just a loser, he can get a girl ten times better than you' then he too walked away.

When Bellatrix heard these words her heart cried out that it wasn't true, that she still had a chance with James, but Sirius had spoken with such conviction that she knew it had to be true.

After all, who wouldn't be interested in the handsome boy with beautiful ocean like eyes....

END FLASHBACK

Author's note: so how's this one? I did the chapter a bit longer so I hope your happy about that. I estimate that there is going to be around six chapters for this story. though I get the feeling that the rest of the other chapter ain't gonna be as good as my first one, however I'm just doing it for the hell of it, so u guys can R&R!!!!!!!! By the way if you got some constructive criticism, I would also like to hear it. Oh yeah.... I would also like any ideas on how to progress with the story so if you got any, just send them to my email: jh4u100hotmail.com

That is all..........till next time! Laters!!!!!!