Disappearing Hearts
By: Hixxy
Author's note: Damn...By the way this fic is going, it's probably gonna go for longer than I thought, by the way if my writing technique starts going down or if my ideas aren't good enough please tell me, as I'm not really revising it much, I'm just rushing it.
Summary: this is basically a Bellatrix/James/Lily love triangle fanfic with the main focus being on Bellatrix and James so if this is not to your taste I suggest you leave.
'speech'
(thought)
'Because I love you' Bella repeated.
'..........' James was shocked, never in his entire life had he expected those words to pass her lips.
'You...you...love me?' he asked a little uncertainly, as if he had heard her wrong.
'Yes...........'
'Since when?'
'The first time I ever met you.' She replied gently.
'When was that?' James asked, racking his mind trying to remember.
(He doesn't even remember the first time we ever met....) Bella depressingly.
'It was...Oh it doesn't matter anymore, come to think of it, just forget I said anything...I....I...I have to go.' She replied while trying hard to prevent another flood of tears from being released.
'What? But we still have class...'
'I don't care I just have to go alright.' And with that she ran out of the classroom, ignoring the indignant cries of anger from Mr. Weevil.
'Come back here Miss Black! Or I'll have you expelled form Hogwarts!!!!!!!!!'
Bella didn't care, she just ran and ran until she found a girl's bathroom. Once inside the privacy of the cubicles, she cried and cried, using tissue after tissue. (I was such a fool, I thought that if I told him I love him he would change, but how could I ever expect him to love ME; the loser who is everyone's punching bag, whereas he is the most popular guy in school with all the girls at his beck and call. How can I face him NOW; oh I want to die.....)
'Why you crying missy?'
Moaning Myrtle. Great. Out of all the bathrooms that were in Hogwarts, she just had to run into the one with the overemotional ghost.
(But aren't I the same as her.... We both have no friends, we were both bullied and teased, we're both losers, we're even crying in the same toilet! The only difference between us is that she is dead.... Maybe she can understand how I feel)
Drying her tears Bella replied.
'Nothing important. I'm Bellatrix Black...But you can call me Bella.'
Moaning Myrtle after hearing her name, stared at her empathetically.
'Bella.... so you're the girl that everyone treats as the loser.'
Bella hung her head in sorrow.
'I know how you feel, people treated me the same way they treated you when I was still alive. Life's not fair.' M.M continued.
Out of curiosity, Bella decided to ask.
'How come everyone teased you in school when you were alive.' she asked, however regretting having let the word 'alive' out of her mouth, she expected a torrent of complaints, but she was surprised when M.M just said simply.
'Because I was myself.'
Looking directly at Bella in the eyes, she continued.
'I once loved a boy that was popular, however when he found out that I loved him he just used it to further his ideas for playing pranks and teasing me.'
Stunned, Bella's mind went into overdrive: What if James decided to use his knowledge of her love for him to torment her even further; she was sure that if he did, she would never be able to handle it, she would rather die than have her feelings being toyed with by the man she loved.
Looking back at Moaning Myrtle, she knew that she had finally found a kindred spirit in this school.
'I'm sorry about that.' Bella smiled genuinely.
'That's okay. If you ever need to talk or need advice, I 'm always ready to give it to you.'
Feeling much better, Bella turned to walk out until a sudden thought struck her.
'Myrtle, how come you're not nearly as annoying as everyone says you are?'
With a smirk M.M replied slyly.
'I decided to stay here to help girls like you only, but the job gets boring, I got to do something for entertainment.'
Bemused, Bella just walked on to her next class.
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After all her classes were finished for the day, Bella suddenly remembered that she had detention with the head boy AKA James Potter
(Oh no I have detention with him now, Why can't it have been next week or the week after? I'm just not ready to see him!) She panicked.
'That's it! I'll just tell them I forgot.' And with that she made her way to her room.
Looking at her bed, she suddenly felt tired .
(Might as well have a little nap, that's a good excuse for forgetting)
So she changed into her pajamas, jumped into bed and napped for about 1 minute.....
The next minute she was wet all over, even her bed, looking up she saw the smirking face of James potter holding a...bucket?
'Miss Black since you 'forgot' to go to detention, I took the liberty of coming here to remind you, I hope you don't mind?' he mocked trying hard not to laugh.
Bella didn't say anything; her face took on a blank look as she just stared straight ahead trying not to look at him.
'How did you get into my room?' she asked finally.
'I'm the Head Boy remember? Not to mention the girls in the Slytherin common room were quite helpful in showing me around.' He said with a wink.
'Now. Down to business. You are going to change out of those wet clothes and you are gonna come with me to do your punishment, alright?'
'Alright, just wait outside then' she said quietly.
When he had gone, she just started crying.
(I don't want to do this, being near him hurts so much, when I know I can't have him!)
However, she had no choice, so she changed her clothes into the denim jeans and the baby blue top again and walked out.
'Good, now let's get going before Greasy boy finds out I'm in here.' He said grabbing her arm, which made her blush.
However the blush vanished when just as they were about to leave the slytherin house he yelled cheerily 'Bye Girls!!!!' to a group of slytherin girls who responded with a flirty 'Bye Sweetheart!'
(He really CAN get any girl he wants....) she thought depressingly as she tagged along behind him as they made their way to room 605.
'So... Why did you run out of Advanced Potions this morning?' James asked trying to get her to talk.
'Don't know' Bella replied exasperated.
'Fine. Fine.'
The rest of the way was filled with silence, both feeling awkwardly around each other.
When they got there, James opened the door and both of them went in.
Looking around, Bella was horrified, because on the floor was a mountain of rubbish paint was all over the walls. How was she expected to clean all of this within a week?
James meanwhile had the same facial expression as she except when he turned to look at her it was transformed into a grin.
'Well... better get started then.'
'But...but...how?' Bella protested weakly.
'With this' he answered indicating a broom, a small dustpan and a normal looking garbage bag.
'Shouldn't I have more than one bag?' she asked uncertainly.
'The bag is charmed to be bottomless.' He said calmly then summoned a tanning chair and lay down watching her.
Her face red from embarrassment and anger, she picked up the garbage bag and started using her bare hands to scrape the rubbish in.
After five minutes she was tired and dirty, the mountain of rubbish didn't look any smaller, and to make it worse, James was just watching her humiliation. She felt like crying.
(I was so happy this morning, now look at me, my whole day has been filled with tears and it's only the first day!)
Suddenly she was rocked out of her train of thoughts, when she felt James next to her helping to scrape up the rubbish with her.
'What are you doing?' she asked.
'Helping you, what else.'
'But you don't have to.... It's my detention.'
'But I want to, ok?'
Bemusedly, she just continued doing the chore in silence, wondering why he would help her even though he didn't have to.
'I remember you know.'
Confusedly, she snapped her head towards James.
'What?'
Looking at her in the eyes James continued.
'The first time we ever met, at Platform 9 ¾, I'd never forget that day.'
Shocked, she just stayed silent.
'I remember seeing a girl that was struggling with her suitcases; she was so pretty, I just had to talk to her.'
'Wa...was it me?' Bella choked out.
'Yes'
Strange how one word could turn a person's life into heaven, but that was how Bella felt when that one word passed James' lips. But then another thought crossed her mind.
'Then why did you hate me when you found out Sirius was my cousin?' she asked sullenly.
'Because.... Because Sirius was my best friend and he told me a lot of bad things about you, and like a fool I believed him. I always liked you, you know.' He hoped that the excuse didn't sound as lame to her as it did to him.
'But you and your little gang were mean to me for the past 6 years, and that made everyone do the same.' She accused tearfully.
'I know, and I'm so sorry for that, I was just so afraid of losing my best friend and afraid of what everyone would think that I went along with Sirius. I'm so sorry, I wish I could change time but I can't, I was shocked when you told me you loved me even after all I did to you.'
'It was because I knew you weren't like that, ever since we met at the station I knew that you were a good person, and that's why I love you.' Bella said softly.
Suddenly, James grabbed her hand tightly and stared at her deep in the eyes.
'Bella I love you too, ever since we first met, I knew it. I know that I could never make it up to you for all those years that you were put through, but now I'm not going to be afraid anymore, I don't care what everyone thinks. I love you.' James declared with tears in his eyes.
Overwhelmed with happiness, Bella started crying. She grabbed James and hugged him fiercely, as if it was their last day together then kissed him passionately on the lips.
They stayed like that for 15 minutes, but for the both of them it was timeless.
Finally James broke it off. He smiled.
'I don't want to wreck the mood, but I think we still have cleaning up to do.'
In response, Bella just kissed him again mumbling what sounded like 'just a few more minutes'. However, James wasn't about to complain, and just melted into the kiss again.
After a few more hours, they decided to leave, as it was almost time for bed.
Standing at the doorway, they bid each other good night.
'When will I see you again?' Bella asked eagerly.
'Don't you remember? You have detention ALL week' he smiled mischievously
And with a final kiss goodnight, they both left to their rooms for some sleep.
On the way there, Bella was thinking about today.
(Wow! James loves me too! It was almost as if my dreams came true!)
Smiling again, she thought about the kiss.
(No it wasn't as if my dreams came true... It was better)
Author's note: FINALLY Bellatrix and James reveal their love for one another.
Will Sirius find out?
What will he say or do if he does?
Can their love survive?
Find out in the next chapter! And remember to keep reviewing!
Till next time.........Later!