CH.2: RED HANDED AND COCKED TO THE LEFT

"And he's forgotten the differnce between reality & dreaming..."

"...Where am I?"

"You're Late" Tai glanced his eyes down at the watch tightly around his wrist "hm..about 1 hour" It was 4 p.m in the daylight and i had walked into the small classroom late for the 7th time."I saw you at school today,you showed up there on time,this place is no different,God willl pu-" "Ew gross! look what the doser's got! hater marks!" I turned around and looked at this short haired girl with brown eyes,she was pointing to my face. Everyone else in the classroom looked,then put their hands together and began to pray

Fucking religious-brainwashing-bullshit.

"...What now.." I glanced down,and everything looked normal..I placed a hand on my neck,feeling the two tiny holes. Catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror on the wall,I saw the hickeys. I shrugged."No big deal.." "Oh it is a big deal." Grimencing,i glanced up at Tai "...crap..."

Outside of the classroom,"Disgusting," He spat. I looked down at the floor while listening to this lecture from Taichi-he spoke as if he were a real teacher .It came to mind how big of a deal the incident really was. Hickies,were proof of "foreplay",and/or any other acts of sensual contact. This,in the norm was forbidden to those under 28,or who were married. Something only scenesters did. Dirty,degrading. I wondered why all of a sudden normies had become so strict. "Can i go back inside now?" "Can you tell me everything i just lectured you on?" "um..n-" "there's your answer! I really don't even want you here right now,you can go home Daisuke." He shook his head at me "You should be ashamed.."

I walked down the same old dirty streets on the pathway to my house."I can't believe I wasted all that time.." I stuck my cold hands into my pockets with my bottom lip stuck out. I thought of myself as becoming a wreck.A nervous wreck,a sex fin wreck,an Addicted wreck,every wreck you could of imagined. All these things had been introduced to me too fast..-Damn Kyoko And soon i found myself taking a wrong turn at a very familiar street..I suppose I got lost and found myself walking ,until i turned myself into a Cafe ,it had began to rain.

I sat down in one of the chairs as I heard an familiar voice rant on about nonsense. " I have no clue...she must of stood me up!" "Well forget her Ken,you know how girls in the scene are." "omf!" I flung forward a little as someone slapped me hard on my back,I turned my head to look at him. It was,you know it,Ken. His face looked a little surprised for some reason though the expression had changed "Whoa. What the hell happened to you?" He stepped back a bit."Don't ask..."I replied quietly,my hair was wet and in my face,my eyes had circles under them. I guess i must of looked horrible like that but, I couldn't help it."Now don't go and be gettin' all offended on me bro, comin' have a drink of Sake!" He waved his hand in the air,gesturing with a glass. I closed my eyes,trying to imagine myself somewhere else,and it wasn't working.

"..I don't have time for this...I have to leave now,Ken."

I got up and walked outside into the darkness,i really didn't have time for drunken nonsense. I walked about two feet outside the door when a figure quickly made its way to me as I backed against the wall and let it come closer and closer. A hood atop its head, it rested its hands on my shoulder,the wind blowing off its hood to reveal that distinct face. "Daisuke where were you!" She shrilled.

"I.." "I knew you got kicked out of Tai's class he sent an email,lucky i got it before your parents got home Daisuke! i worried about you..." "I'm really sorry but i can-"

she placed her hands on my cheeks,stopping my voice right there in my throat. Her face looked strange,not the normal evil look she always had on..she actually did look worried "SO !..you just left to see a girl..I see how it is" I turned to my side looking at Ken.Fuck. "I don't really have time for this,Ken-"

"...Ken?" I saw her glance over at him, examining him slightly "Yea I'm ken,you wanna make something of it?" he laughed to himself...stupid drunk, then his friend walked outside the cafe too "hey...babe" He grinned and looked over at Kyoko i watched them, then whispered to her"That's the same Ken you were looking for.."

"Well ive got my eyes on something else tonight...dinner"She grinned,watching the boy next to him,as i hugged Ken."Come on man...lets let my friend and your friend get to know each other better.." "suuuuuuuuuuuuuure...want some Sake?" He must have been too drunk to even realize it was Kyoko. And in that moment i began to think..How could Ken have been in the scene supposedly,and now the norm?I was the only doser to my knowledge...but all that thinking began to hurt my head.

I stared at the red lines on the clock that read 11:44,as the numbers slowly began to fade to a haze i could make nothing of..Lying on my back,hands over my stomach i realized i was on a couch in Ken's living room. I didn't remember much of anything after we left the bar,after a few sakes. I must have slept for a while,in the hopes of waking up to an actually sober Ken. Off to the side i heard voices..not the ones in my head.
"Yeah..exactly..you can't go too harsh on delicates like that now can ya?..uh-huh..you have a good night,alright,see ya" I dully glanced over to the door,i saw the back of ken standing there closing it,then the darkness of my eyelids,i was falling asleep.

"Wake up...c'mon wake up you lazy fuck." "fuck you Ken..." "ah,Sir Daisuke is awake...you know,i think its about time you learned Daisuke..." "Nani..?" I opened my eyes,looking to Ken,whoa cted as if he didn't hear me."What," repeated. I tried to find his dialated pupils,probably huge off getting high from some drug no one's ever heard of but him..but instead found a darkened face with light yellow eyes,skinny pupils and an evil grin. "The game of the vampires...the scene..the norm..you're being fucked over,didn't ya know?" I sat up giving him an exasperated look. "You LOOK like you've just been fucked over...and the game of the vampires? Believe me,i know more than you... i'm dating one you fuck." Ken stood up placing his hands behind his back pacing a bit. "Ah...Don't get to cocky my mortal friend,i think you know nothing...but the cycle,because you're part of it.." "What the hell are you talking about?"
Oh Yeah.
He was definently high off some shit.
But i just decided to go along with it all."Mortal?ha. You wish you were good enough to be called a vampire,Ken..You're nothing but a wimp,you couldn't convert if you tried"

A light chuckle came from him as he looked at the floor "You know Daisuke,we all wish things..." He slowly edged over to me and moved in very close to my face,inches away,his eyes opened wide, "And i wish she'd hurry up and kill you...you aren't good enough to be a vampire either ya know?What?You think your special because 'satan' talks to you? he's in your head?hah...he's just fucking with your already fucked up mind my little ignorant one..because I!..."he stood up extending his arms,as if they were wings no one else could see,but him, grinning. "Am Spawned from Satan himself...an experiment you may say?yes.but..who really gives a fuck?hahaha...who really gives a fuck about you Daisuke,huh? you think people are going to pity you..you've got your little 'depression' ,and issues,you think people are gonna feel sorry for you?Doser. No..because no one gives a fuck about you!No one cares...Kyoko? uh-uh she doesn't care about you,no one does...you might as well do us all a favor and kill yourself,you worthless piece of shit!just give up the act and die. Convert,at least!..please?Daisuke you just don't get it...god..you're so fucking stupid..your just so dumb,and blind!"

With anger in my eyes i readied myself to jump at him,but i couldn't. Straps from the couch i was laying in found there way tightly around my wrist and ankles,Ken came closer,with a syringe in his hand "Now say Goodnight Daisuke...hopefully,soon you'll become fucking material for something greater than a human-being...'cause you sure are doing a shitty job at that..but..ah well..might as well try eh?Here it goes...oh yeah..when do you think Satan will talk to ya again eh?or does he even fucking care..." I watched him inch the needle closer and closer to my arm "...You're crazy,"I spat. Ken looked up grinning sickly,and licked up my neck to my lips,pulling me into a full kiss. "Oh believe me...I know."

"FUCK!" I gasped for air,and jumped up out of my bed. Running to the bathroom, rinsing my mouth out about a million times,splashing cold water onto my face. I shook my head, drying my face with a towel then looked around my bathroom and sighed a sigh of relief "Damn..dream..a nightmare," I went back to my room sitting on my bed,lonely..i decided to push the thought of Ken out of my mind,and back to what had happened earlier tonight..if that wasn't a dream also.

"It's the same thing every time...every time."..Why?..why does it seem like every time something goes wrong,i find her?At the cafe...she came to me..after i had been kicked out of Tai's class..Why was i kicked out of Tai's class? Becasue i was late and had markings from her!It occurs to me..its like she comes back to fix her mistakes or make up for them..Every time I'm with her its like theres something she wants to tell me..something she knows that i don't..something...

Could it be true? Oh well...even if it is..i still go back to her..every time...it's like I'm lost without her..Why can't i sleep?" I held my head and thrashed it around..Its always like this,i just can never stop thinking ...could it be my medication?..I don't know..

"You know...I'm starting to think you're the real vampire here..." I glanced over to the window where Kyoko was leaning up against it in the moonlight,she surprised me "I just can't sleep...insomniac i guess maybe its c-" "Davis...are you sure about this?" I gave her a puzzled look. "About what?"..I looked over at her wishing she didn't know exactly what was going on in my mind,what i was thinking. "You know what...me and Tai,you're a human, you're meant to do all that stuff with God and everything..after all your world has gone through,religion seems to be the only sacred thing left. So much confusion about the scene..not to mention what Ken ..nevermind." Puzzlement faded to curiosity. "What about Ken?" At my question,she stared at me for a moment,then to the floor..then changed the subject quickly. "Nothing...anyway..i know I've been invading in on your life lately and causing you problems but.." "You're not invading!" I got up quickly and held her wrists "You're not invading, you're supposed to be here i know it!..I..(i really didn't want to admit it,but)..I need you." I leaned my head down onto her chest and held her there..damn i was acting histaricle,i was embarrassing myself. "Eh...?" Her eyes fell to the top of my head. I sighed and let go of her,going out through my window down into the streets.
"Davis...?"

"I need some air.." walking slowly down a beaten old path i lead myself into an alley way.. I sat down to think . I let my mind look back onto how i had just got up and left,childish i supose...but not that any of it matters..i just needed to get away from my life for a little bit..i wondered how long i would stay away..but the answer to that was not found ..soon i found myself laying on the cold concrete floor curled up in my little ball of safety where no one could get to me, finnaly.

"Daaaaaavis.."

There it was. That damn voice again,i stood up wobbling,I stared down at the floor,everything seemed to be spinning. I tried walking until i found myself in another alley way,using the wall for support. I must have walked for at least 20 minutes...20 minutes that seemed to erase itself from my memory,like a street cleaner following a trail of dirt. Perfectly clean, gone. Never existed.

I Looked up at the door "42b," it read. "..where am I?" I sat down leaning with my back to the door..i saw the sun coming up, and heard a familiar voice. "What the..?" Oh crap. It was Tai. It was his house,i knew it looked familiar, this apartment! "Oh,h-hey Taichi..." I fell to the ground my eyes going in and out of focus,all i wanted to know was what was going on? But soon,i didn't even have enough energy to think...everything was spinning again,i was being swallowed up into a spiral of darkness,and there i stood before him.

"Daisuke,you've come" "But of course...i need you..help me be evil...," The words and voice came from within me,but i have no recollection of telling myself what to say. It was as if someone else was controlling me..as if i was nothing but a host body for a scenester. Looking around,the world seemed to be in chaos. Where the school should have been,lay a pile of bodies,about 10 people were scavenging through them,if any good body parts were left. What was this place?was it real?was it a dream? "Well...first i must kill...you must kill..we must kill...kill..kill them...rid them from this worthless planet..make room for them" "No!" I pulled a knife from my pocket and stabbed at what seemed to be an invisible wall in front of me..i as the blade hit it, ripples erupted. He put his hand against it,and i flew back.

"Daisuke Motomiya!" "Huh?yes.." I looked up wiping the drool from my mouth... "Classroom?"I thought. How did i get here? There were snickers heard in the background and giggles "STUPID DOSER" I looked around as everything began to spin again "May i please b-be..excused..." I basically whispered the words to myself. As the syllables traced off to a place unknown...

"Kill..Kill them all...prove to me your worth..she doesn't know what shes talking about.."

I ran..stumbling through the empty halls holding onto lockers as i tripped and stumbled getting slower and slower. I heard a faint ring of a bell in the back ground as students flooded the halls. I was hanging onto the locker as my body slowly went to the floor..I saw all the lockers with blood smeared over them..blood on the floor..out of no where. Snakes,rats,Beatles,bugs crawling across the floor gnawing on bones,lockers opened as blood came pouring out of them flooding the hall..

"Hahaha...Dead...no matter what its all your fault!her fault!your fault!"

"Who! Who are you talking about!" I wanted to scream..but it felt as if my life was being drained from an unknown source. All the students quicken their pace,running through the hall,stomping all over me..I screamed but none of them could hear me..the blood faded into water..boiling water,acid..it ran over them as they dissolved in mid air..i saw the wave getting closer and closer to me

"Now do you be lieve? do you see what you've done?There's no way out.."

Oh how it burns..burning with pure rage,envy,and hate. The pain was too much to describe,and in the midst of it all,there she was, floating above me..It was Kyoko, she was all bloody too.."K-Kyoko...What are you doing here?"

"Dead..all dead..why Daisuke?"

"Shit...not you too..." She looked hypnotized..the blood rushed in again,all those disgusting bugs eating away at my body..

And now I was falling in mid air..down..down..floating in mid air pills..surrounded by blurred faces,un-recognizible. The numbers 01 in a symmetrical pattern over a static like screen.
...

I awoke on a floor ...it was empty around me the atmosphere was cold and it was all blue and beautiful..."Was it..just a dream?" And with my words I watched the atmosphere shatter,like a mirror,as i sat up sweating looking around. ah..back in my room,on my bed. And there she was sitting on a chair watching outside the window..it must have been a dream..but i honestly couldn't tell anymore. I heard the tone of my computer,a new message had been received. "Another from Konor?What do you want," i yelled at the monitor,as Konor's face appeared before me. "Daisuke why were you talking to him!" "..talking to who?" "You know who I'm talking about..i saw you,talking to him. After all the warning messages i sent you!Don't you care about the virus?the rumors?Don't you know! and you have the nerve to converse with him?What are you going to do?..make your choice,Daisuke and stop playing games!" I sighed,frustrated. Konor was making no sense at all. What messages?This was the first one i had gotten from him all week. and talking to who? "Konor..i wasn't even in the scene today,i haven't had time to log on since last time we talked." "..So now you're lying to me?" I shook my head. I had no time for this. I would be late for school.

Opening my locker,i sighed a sigh of relief "Oh thank God." "ahh!" I looked over next to me as a young blue haired girl had opened her locker,red liquid erupted from it...blood..a snake and beatles "No..." I slammed my locker shut and ran into the bathroom locking the door. I stood at the sink looking at the mirror,splashing my face with water,and looked back into the mirror. Back arched, breathing hard,my face was wet and my eyes were dark..slowly they darkened even more..

Horns,blood shot red eyes,a fangfull grin and jade black hair."You're Dead! hahahahaha" i watched as the face slowly spun to change into the face of Ken.."Daisuke..what's the matter Daisuke?Is this life to much for you..were both the same,him and I..Poor baby,do you want out?Well its simple. just kill everyone you love..nothing's too hard for you,doser!"

The face slowly changed back again,laughing maniacly. I screamed out in horror,and stumbled backwards into a stall, holding myself in the corner,rocking back and forth.."I hope you don't think she actually loves you...no one loves you..you die" "GO AWAY!" i yelled at the top of my lungs,breathing heavily i took out the bottle of pills from my pocket...I threw it into the toilet and flushed it..Instead of going down,the bottle shot out at my head,then from the toilet came snakes again,the bugs crawling soon covering every inch of the bathroom.I felt my mouth being pulled open,i couldn't close my jaws as bottles flew at me pills everywhere. I got up running into another stall and lunged for the toilet on my knees,i covered my mouth and gagged a few times. "I hope you didn't think you could get rid of me!" I ran to the mirror and punched it with force,it shattered..With a fist,i kept hitting the mirror "GO AWAY GET AWAY FROM ME!"

The door swung open,and there i was, sitting in a corner off the stall, in front of the principal "What's going on in here?" he said. A young boy standing next to him spoke,"I told you,we all heard the screams."I looked at him..all that couldn't have been a dream,it was just too realistic. With pure disgust on my face i got up and ran out of there,out of the bathroom,out of the school,straight into a empty park i fell on my face in the grass,breathing heavily i took out my bottle again."Im sorry,Daisuke" I looked next to me and there she was...she kissed my forehead and i embraced her."why..your always everywhere i need you..why are you always here!Promise me you'll stay..." "Daisuke...I love you...why would i leave?" I smiled somewhat and nodded.."I wouldn't know.."
" NO ONE WANTS YOU!"
I sat up..."Not again." "Oh Daisuke...I know you hear the voice..just ignore it..come with me.." I glanced over to her dully..was she going crazy,or what?I simply stood up and started walking off "Ive "came" with you too many times..and now this cycle has just got to stop..i love you but..Goodbye" And with those last words i finally found the strength to leave..well at least i thought i did..walking off,She held me by the wrists.

"Daisuke..You can't just leave,because there's something you don't understand.." "Oh really!" I turned around staring at her,wild-eyed. "Really,Kyoko? I never would have guessed! Because we all know how perfect my life has been..Kyoko tell me right now exactly what is going on. Because i know that there has to be an explanation to whats going on!..I..I can't even remember whats in my dreams,and what is reality anymore.." I watched her eagerly. I honestly had no control over my thoughts anymore..i began to wonder if i was even actually there talking with her,or if that was a dream too. "There is no such thing as reality."

Great. More riddles. Thats exactly what i was looking for,Kyoko. Thanks-a-fucking-lot.

"Daisuke..there have been no dreams..you haven't slept for the past 4 days-" "Don't you dare tell me theres been no dreams!I dreamt of ken in the mirrior,i dreamt of scenesters eating normies! i dreampt of being attacked by a bottle of pills for fucks sake!" "Daisuke..you weren't dreaming,you were in the scene."

Silence.

I couldn't say a thing because something in the back of my mind knew that this could be a possibility. "And you wonder why they call you doser,Daisuke?You wonder why people stopped the dose?because it makes you crazy. you've been in a transition between the scene and the norm,uncontrollably. like a glitch in a system,you're brain is interfering with the pro-actives inside the virus. Its like you're a road block to a 3 ton bull-dowser,in the way,being pushed in 2 directions." Virus?Had she been talking to Konor,and actually believed his non sesne,too? "Its not nonsense Daisuke...its time you accepted the fact that you can't just live a normal life. You made that decision a year ago,when you continued your dose..now its time to make another one."

"A decision?" "..Yes. You see,the virus the something Ken has created..very quickly it takes control of all the identities in the scene,leading to a destruction of the norm,and everything in it who have discontinued their dose." "..so if that goes as planned,i would live?" "Yes..but if something goes wrong,then the scenester's souls will be permenently deleted,and anyone who has been converted or continued their dose will be stuck in the scene." "And that something going wrong...is me..isn't it?" "..exactly." I stood there staring at the ground..how could one stupid little pill cause all of this?My thoughts went back to what she had said about Ken "But if ken created it,then h-." I stopped myself. just as i thought..more lies. "Daisuke,i had to pretend that i didn't know Ken,so i could find you...you don't understand..Ken did convert himself,but with the virus,he has the ability to manipulate his body here in the norm,to try and brainwash you...Daisuke,you know what you have to do." "have to do! Why should i be responsible for this?" "because you're the only one.." "Risk my life to save the people who call me doser?Who do you think I am?" "...You forget the people in your school aren't the only 'normies'.." i sighed,not wanting to accept defeat..but she was right.

To save the norm would mean more than that..it would mean giving everyone a chance to choose life over death..it would also mean saving Kyoko. And it would also mean me possibly converting to the scene..

"Tell me what i have to do." My expression hardened,as Kyoko smiled. "You forget this conversation. From now on,you're not just some doser..but the doser who will save the world...now close your eyes and relax." I did as i was told,and took a deep breath .The familiar pain on her fangs on my neck were here again,but this time another feeling came with it. Not only was there a bite,but what seemed like an injection, too..and all at once every single emotion seemed to pulse through my veins like ice water.

I thought about all the things going on and all the things going on between us..i was too man to cry..at least i thought. I frowned as hot tears filled up my eyes,I clinged to her,she pet my head and sighed closing her eyes "What was i thinking...You're so young. I regret it all..its my fault." "How is it your fault..?" "Thats a whole different story..lets save it for another day,okay?" I nodded. i could tell she wasn't telling me everything,but for some reason i can't explain,i felt content with whatever answer she gave me..and within a matter of seconds i started to believe i deserved whatever pain she gave me. To save the world,i know i would need her..hell to save myself,i would need her. I had a lot to learn. I smiled childishly and shrugged...What the hell was happening to me? "I knew you would come with me..i wrote a letter to your parents that you went off to America with an older friend of yours to be an artist.." (Art?I hate art! that was crap they wouldn't go for that...but instead,) I smiled "Okay." See?this is what was happening to me.."Lets get you to my house.."And after that..i remember no more but her soothing voice..