Against All Odds
Chapter 7: Nevermind Me
Meredith let herself fall into him. She wanted this, she needed this. She needed, wanted, HIM. HE was all she ever wanted. She grasped his forearms with her small hands as he maneuvered her up against the wall, pinning her against in, kissing her for all he was worth.
She wasn't sure what did it, but something brought her back down to earth. She wrenched her mouth from his. "Derek… We can't. This isn't right. I'm leaving tomorrow. That should make you happy." She told him. He sighed, leaning his forehead against hers, knowing he could. (Because there wasn't even a slight chance that she'd pull away) "Now why would I be happy?" He asked softly. "I'll be out of the picture. You can go on with your life, with your wife. Never mind me." She replied softly.
"Never mind you? What is that supposed to mean?" He demanded. "It means go on, move on, put me out of your mind. Don't worry about me." She suggested."What makes you think I want to go on without you?" He questioned, his eyes burning holes into her. She shrugged. "I figure life will be easier without me. No distraction." She replied, her voice sounding small.
"You are a lot of things Meredith Grey, but you are not a distraction. Believe me when I tell you that." He whispered, running a finger down her jaw. She felt herself crumbling under his grasp. "I… I need to see you everyday. I need to feel your presence next to me. It calms me when I see you in the halls and you smile at me… I'm supposed to just…Forget about that….And like it or not, I will worry about you." He trailed off, keeping his voice low and soft.
Stay strong. This is not how this is supposed to go. She pulled herself up to her full height and pushed away from him. "I'll be just fine Derek." She said, her voice changing, taking on a cold, distant sound. He looked like he'd just been punched in the stomach. It was killing her to say this. "I'll be fine Derek. Never mind me. I'll be OK. Don't worry about me. Just keep on going. And you'll be fine, like you said, it'll pass." She told him, as she made her way to the door and opened it.
He was at a loss for words. He didn't think she'd kick him out. Of all the things he expected, this was the last one. He turned and headed to the door. He looked at her, opened his mouth to say something, then shut it. "Goodbye Meredith." He said finally, turning back around, and headed to his car.
As soon as the door shut, she lost it. She slid to the ground, the tears cascading out of her eyes. Her body shook with sobs. She rested her head on her knees as the tears came. "What… What am I doing? What have I done….." She choked out, her voice heavy and cracking from the tears.
He made it as far as his car and couldn't move. He leaned his head back and rested it on the seat. A single tear fell from the corner of his eye. Then another. And another. Until his face was wet from the tears flowing freely from his eyes. I guess this really is goodbye….
I'm sorry, I know its short. But it's sort of a necessary evil. A few chapters left and this'll be done.
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