"Sorry to keep you waiting Adrian, I had to take a call." Dr. Kroger said as he entered to room and sat down.

"It's alright I don't mind."

Dr. Kroger looked hard at Monk, and then brought out his note pad. "You didn't mind? A-a-Adrian that's not like you."

"What to you mean."

"I mean that usually when I am late you…well you usually aren't very happy with me."

Adrian considered this, "Well it gave me time to think." He said.

"Oh I see………think about what?"

"Oh you know." Monk began. "Stuff."

"What kind of stuff?"

Adrian said nothing.

"Did this stuff involve you?"

Monk nodded.

"…And Trudy?" Kroger inquired.

"Yeah." Adrian replied.

"And……………your child."

Monk looked at his Doctor and frowned. "Does Natalie tell you everything?" he asked.

Charles thought about it then said, "Only the things she thinks I need to know."

Monk sighed and sat back in his chair. "See? I knew this would happen."

"Y-you knew…what would happen?"

"This. I knew once they knew people would start talking about it."

"Well Adrian how are we not to talk about it? I-it's big news."

"Its old news" Adrian corrected.

"Well to you maybe but not t-t-to those who know you…………why have you not said anything before?"

"Because……I didn't want to talk about it…and I still don't."

"Why not?"

"I don't know." Monk said with a shrug.

"Oh, I think you do." Kroger said looking hard at Monk.

"………………Because…I didn't want to be reminded. It hurts…really…really bad."

The doctor nodded a little, "I believe you." He said.

"I didn't even know. Neither did Trudy. After she went through the coroner's office the man who did the autopsy asked to speak with me alone and it was then that he told me how he found the fetus still in her body. I asked him to keep it a secret. I didn't want anyone to know

…………Five days……it had only lived…five days."

Dr. Kroger looked down shaking his head. "I'm so sorry Adrian."

"Trudy always wanted kids. I never…felt ready. She used to tell me…that she would take me anyway she could get me…with or without kids. It's funny," Monk said with a fake laugh, "The one time I finally give her what she asked for…and she can never even have it."

There was a very log pause because Adrian was sick of talking and his doctor didn't know what to say. So they just sat there as Monk tried to keep as many tears from slipping in between his lashed as he could (though he was failing). As Adrian wept silently Dr. Kroger stared at the blank sheet in front of him trying to think of something to write down, but all words seemed to escape him during this time of sorrow for his friend. Finally Monk spoke…

"It killed me to hear that I had not only lost a wife but a child that I never knew. No one has ever felt pain until the feel what I've felt…which I pray is never the case for anyone…ever. Cause it hurts………like nothing you have ever felt before." Then Monk broke down and started to cry with everything he had.

It was then that Dr. Kroger did something that he had never done before in all his days as a therapist…he stood from his chair and walked over to Monk, He bent down and hugged him. Charles could help but cry. Now seeing how badly this man wanted a child, Dr. Kroger regretted every telling Monk the he was not fit to be the father of Tommy.

After the hour was up Natalie watched as both Monk and Dr. Kroger came to the door. Natalie noticed that both of the were red around the eyes 'Gee I wonder what they talked about.' Natalie asked sarcastically in her head. "Ready to go home Mr. Monk?"

Monk nodded. "yeah."

"See you next Wednesday Adrian." Charles said then closed the door and then started to walk back to his office to do some paper work. "That poor man."