Chapter Five
Not A Word Not A Soul.
I threw myself onto the couch in our common room and cried as if i had never cried before. Everything he had just said was true, i had known it but it had never hurt like this before. When i finally looked up a bong and a lighter was reaching towards me by a pair of soft and pale gentle hands. Passed this i could see a worried Malfoy staring at me and for some reason i did not feel uncomfortable. I took the bong and the lighter in silence and smoked about five or six cones before finally setting them down. I placed my face into the pillow and screamed with all my might.
"Settle pettle," Malfoy patted my shoulder and i swatted at his hand making him laugh which in turned made me laugh and we just sat there a good ten minutes laughing at ourselves. We wiped the tears of laughter from our eyes.
'What do you want Malfoy?" I sighed still irritated at having my privacy invaded though i was bawling my eyes out on our common room sofa. My heart still cold as ice as was my voice, "come to rub it in?"
"To see what's wrong, i can't have my roomie having a tantie on me now can i? i have had to live with Drama queens for almost six years i don't want to live with one this year."
"Sod off."
"No I want to know what's wrong!"
"Why don't you ask the groupies they all know like just about everyone else in the school? Even better yet you can ask Pansy Parkinson while you fuck her brains out!" At this comment, he went slightly green.
"Actually I'm..." he stopped himself before he could say anything further, "look tell me what's wrong and I'll tell you something about me."
"You're a virgin aren't you?"
"You sure like to hit the nail on the head don't you? Anyway so are you!" it was my turn to go red at this.
"Yes Malfoy if you must know I am... I just want to wait for "the one" you know."
"And what if "the one" doesn't want you?" i stopped myself from saying anything when he said this he knew the bastard he knew he was just trying to make it harder for me. "So you got a big crush on Potter and he turned you down big deal!"
"It's a big deal to me Malfoy!"
"I heard what he said after Defense against the Dark arts class Granger." Again, I was stunned.
"So why did you ask?"
"Cause i wanted you to let your damned pride go and tell me dammnit!"
"It's not like you care Malfoy!"
"Granger I have to live with you for a damn year, unfortunately as much as you don't and i don't want me too I have to care okay its my duty!"
"Why?"
"Because it disrupts my day to day life okay?"
"Fuck off Malfoy i knew you only cared about yourself," i thundered past him to my room and charmed it to lock and soundproof itself. I pulled out my personal guitar and a bottle of Jim beam i had snuck in. I opened the bottle and drank a quarter of it then put it down to play guitar my favorite song Oh love by Jase E
How can I love you and still let you go, go go go,
How can i need you and not tell you so.
How can I kiss you but still I want to cry, cry cry cry,
How can i hold you, when i know i have to say good-bye?
Oh love oh love how can it feel so good it hurts, hurts so bad,
Oh, love oh love how can it make you happy only to make you sad.
Oh love how it can be so hard but still be so plain,
Oh, love oh love how is it we're all player in this game of love.
Oh love Oh love Oh love Oh love.
How can i feel so confused, when everything's so clear?
How can I push you away when i only want you here?
How can i remember when all i want is to forget?
How can i be so hopeful but still so full of regret.
Oh love oh love how can it feel so good it hurts, hurts so bad,
Oh, love oh love how can it make you happy only to make you sad.
Oh love how can it be so hard but still be so plain,
Oh, love oh love how is it we're all player in this game of love.
Oh love Oh love Oh love Oh love.
Oh love Oh love Oh love yeah yeah yeah Oh love.
I reopened my bottle of Jim beam and drank another quarter so that only half the bottle remained i stumbled around drunkenly for a few moments and barely had time to put it down before i collapsed onto the mattress and falling into a drunken sleep.
I awoke around 3 am the next morning to a throbbing headache and a very upset stomach feeling very nauseas and recognizing a hangover. I lit a joint to ease the pain and took a quick swig then decided to head to the kitchen for a super greasy midnight snack of Bacon and garlic feta mushrooms with toast. I loved magic, now in my seventh year i have learned to cook and clean with just a flick of the wand and quick incantations. I consumed my breakfast feeling a little better after eating something and a coffee. I went into the rose garden to have a quick cigarette when Malfoy came out.
"Can I have one?"
"Malfoy, I thought you were rich why are you always bumming off me?" to this he laughed.
"My father owns everything and he is in prison I don't get a sickle until he is physically dead. He is pretty much dead anyway." i passed him a cigarette and a light and for a while we sat there in the cool breeze just silence, a comfortable silence. Malfoy was the first to break this silence.
"I have a deal for you. I have a solution to your problem but..."
"There's always a but," i rolled my eyes.
"But i want you to be my partner in my classes..." again there was only silence an uncomfortable silence this time," Look I'll meet you in the common room for lunch to talk about it okay? Just think about it." then he just got up and left not a word just stood up and walked to his room.
"What do i want help from a ferret like you anyway?" i muttered to myself. Then again, it was a partner in all my classes and seeing as Harry was no longer talking to me. As to the solution to my problem, well i guess i could hear him out it'll be fun hearing Malfoy tell me what he thought was wrong with me, and if he had a plan to fix it if it sounded all right I'd run for it see if it worked.
I sat beside him in Transfiguration first, we were now learning to apparate properly, and it was pretty some people would concentrate real hard and still go nowhere. Of course, apparation i had read about in fourth grade and it was so very easy for me that i really didn't have much to do for the lesson but help the ones i had been laughing at.
Next, we had potions. As it was theory Malfoy and I had said barely minimal except "Next page," or, "Pass the wormwood." which was me or
"Stir this please," or, "What was that?" which was mainly Malfoy. We were in practical so we had to ask minimal favors we didn't speak abut anything personal it was a completely professional.
Last of all we had ancient runes which was boring as all hell but a good thing to learn most students took it to sleep in class thanking whoever made quick notes quills and of course decent ones that didn't lie like Rita Skeeters. I mainly did my homework in this class. I was so lucky that my hangover was gone when i had woken up, it was like a blessing. But now it was hitting me again and wanted to sleep so i decided to actually for once postpone my homework and sleep it off a bit more.
"Ron give me five more minutes," I grumbled. Malfoy couldn't help but smirk at this. He nudged me with his elbow again. "Ron go kiss Neville would Ya?" i started to settle again, when i was rudely awakened by very loud and annoying laughter. I'll tell you i was not pleased. I pulled my hand back and slapped the culprit who for a second sat there shocked only to burst out in laughter till his face went bright red.
"Shut up!" i whispered sharply.
"Ohhh I'm sorry that was priceless," he wiped a tear from his eye.
"You have to promise me you won't tell a soul!" i urged. Again, he sat there silent for a second and burst into to laughter once more. Once he had composed his face he could not stay serious because the look on my face was far more priceless than the joke, pleading but serious, completely serious. Eventually after about fifteen minutes of this, I walked off to our dorm peeved that he wasn't serious but frightened he would blurt Ron's secret. Another ten minutes later Malfoy finally arrived. By this time, I had cooked a Thai red chicken coconut curry and was now packing myself a bong. I smoked this and passed some to Malfoy as well.
"Not a word not a soul," I said to him. He tried not to laugh so hard as he nodded his head and kept the secret. We dished up our lunch and ate it in complete peace and quiet. Then i remembered why we were her.
"I believe you had a solution to my problem i just want to clarify what problem you're talking about?" I inquired.
"Ahh yes well let me first say that that was fantastic Red curry."
'Thanks and Second of all?" again i was impatient.
"Ok ok patience is a virtue you know?
"Yeah yeah whatever," I shrugged off my own advice.
"Well how do you feel about Harry?" I felt a bit stunned by this and immediately i was on the defensive.
"What kind of business is that of yours?"
"Well that obviously means you do."
"Shut up you ferret! I'm not here to be laughed at!"
"Tell me to shut up just hear me out and answer the question okay?"
"Fine yes i do okay i still like him after everything he did to me!"
"Well what if i said i could transform you into a princess that any man would want and you would have guys at your beck and call and if you choose Harry then you choose Harry."
"And what do you want in return for it Malfoy?"
"Call me Draco."
"Is that it?"
"No."
"Okay what do you want Draco." boy that felt weird actually calling him by his first name without his last.
"Someone to talk to, to tell how i feel."
"Why me?"
"What is this twenty questions?"
"Yes. Why me? And that doesn't count as two questions asking the same thing. And I'm up to six."
"Cause your trustworthy,"
"You don't know that."
"I know you know about my sister." this shocked me
"How do you know? Seven."
"I overheard the old bat telling you."
"Firstly you were listening and second she maybe an old bat but so is Snape!"
"Hermione," He used my first name. You never told anyone with all the opportunity you had and you have been somewhat civil in your own strange way to me and your the only REAL HUMAN BEING in Hogwarts! Oh and tell Fred and George those extendable ears are amazing!"
"I will," I replied remembering to reprimand the boys for selling Draco the extendable ears," So let me get this straight Draco, you will help me win Harry's heart if I talk to you about stuff...? Eight. Am i sure, i want to do this? Nine. And why should I? Ten. How do i know you wont use this against me? Eleven."
"Granger... Hermione if you don't believe me I'll make an unbreakable vow."
"You'd do that?"
"Will you trust me?"
"Can I trust you? Unlucky thirteen."
"Only if you let me."
"Why should I? Fourteen."
"Why do you keep asking that?"
"Because I don't know why i should."
"Granger because if i use it against you, I'll tell you things you can easily use against me."
"Shake on it?" Fifteen" I reached out my hand still somewhat skeptical. He took my hand and shook it receiving a small electric shock from the buzzer o my hand as a practical joke.
"Now it's binding."
"Great, how did you get it to do that?" he shook his hand and stared at mine evilly
"Muggle thing"
"Oh. I couldn't back out now i had just done a deal with the devil. A deal with the devil for a piece of his soul. I was playing with fire now and i just had to hope that i didn't get burnt like you would with two out of control poi's wrapping itself around your neck.
"Friends?" he asked meekly.
"Don't push it okay? Sixteen."
"Okay."
"Do you want another bong? Seventeen. Can you wash the dishes? Eighteen.
"Sure and do i have to?" he laughed.
"Yes."
"Why?
"Why ask why? Nineteen. I cooked lunch you wash dishes and how long till class starts there twenty."
"Okay okay I'll do the dishes and ten minutes. So Charms next huh you had time to do your homework anyway."