Chapter Eight.
Every Me and Every you
At seven, I made my way to the rose garden the diamantes on the top of my dress gleaming in the moonlight. When Draco finally noticed i was there his face looked almost pained.
"Hermione, Hermione, I'm so proud of you, you found a gem in that store a real gem you look like an angel."
"Why thank-you," I curtsied the blue cotton ribbon on the bottom of my dress shimmering alike t the silver cotton ribbon around my waist tied at the back in a little bow beneath the drop with crisscrossed straps covered in diamantes as the rest of the top half, like the gold cotton ribbon around my neck and running down the sides cutting a line into the black cotton ribbon at the end of my triangular sleeves. The bottom was just a free flowing red velvet skirt the blue cotton ribbon attached at the very bottom hem the dress.
Draco looked dashing in a formal black suit with a shirt underneath with all the colors of my dress swirled around on it Disney characters running around and chasing each other or simply just doing what they liked. In complete silence, he handed me a large black velvet box, which contained a matching necklace and bracelet to my earrings and also a ruby ring for my hand.
"You look amazing and I am so proud of you that I want you to have these no excuses just take them. My sister would have wanted me to give them to you." He put them on for me and then picked a red rose from the garden and handed it to me, I did the same for him and stuck it in his shirt pocket whilst i decided to carry mine.
"Shall we go Valentine?" He asked bowing low, I giggled and curtsied before taking his arm. "You really look like a goddess Hermione," he whispered in my ear.
"Thank you Draco, i could never have done it without you." I beamed at him. In silence, we walked to the ball and as we arrived, we had to wait twp minutes before we could enter.
"Introducing Head Boy Draco Malfoy and Head girl Hermione Granger." As head boy and head girl we were the only two to have, our names called respectively as we entered with our partner. No one had actually expected us to show up together. Everyone in the hall turned to stare at us like fish in an aquarium except my mouths didn't open every two seconds for air.
"Oh my god," one person started breaking the annoying silence and then the hall was full of gossip and scandal again.
"What are they together or something?" another questioned.
"Aren't they cute they make a gorgeous couple," another cooed.
"Wow she looks amazing. Never even noticed. Lucky Draco i wouldn't mind being able to hit that hot piece of ass whenever I wanted to," said some disgusting pig. But all the voices and gossip and people looking at her didn't matter compared to the sour look of unhappiness on his face. Over waltz, Lavender Brown the school slut and she puckered up her lips and kissed Harry. I almost was about to pick her up and throw her to the other side of the room but before i could take one step i felt a strong hand holding mine and figured two could play at this game. Lavender wore a tacky short dress that was corny as it is Lavender that did nothing to hide her skin and bones body and when she sat down displayed her hidden treasures for all to see.
"May I have this dance Milady?" Draco bowed again to me. Again i giggled a curtsey and let him take me in his arms putting one hand on my waist and holding my hand with the other as i placed my other hand on his shoulder and my head on his chest. Wow his heart was beating fast i thought to myself. A slow song began which i recognized as Kate Derouge's maybe tonight. I listened to Draco's soft and sweet voice as he sung along to it.
I've been holding on, to a love gone wrong it's true for
too long
The hurt it left inside made me wanna hide too much
than i do
I'm not afraid to be alone the truth is I'm all right
but something has been missing from my life
Maybe tonight maybe I'll fall
Maybe he'll crash through my walls
Maybe at last love will come back and take me deep into his arms
Maybe the heart that comes apart finally mends
Maybe tonight I'll finally fall in love again
Cried alot of tears, faced alot of fears
To get right here
Every chapter ends before the right one can begin again,
In this story of love
Maybe tonight maybe I'll fall
Maybe he'll crash through my walls
Maybe at last love will come back and take me deep into his arms
Maybe the heart that comes apart finally mends
Maybe tonight I'll finally fall in love again
I'm ready for another chance and right thats enough
I know I will survive what ever comes
Maybe tonight maybe I'll fall
Maybe he'll crash through my walls
Maybe at last love will come back and take me deep into his arms
Maybe the heart that comes apart finally mends
Maybe tonight I'll finally fall in love again
Maybe this time i'll find a love that never ends
Maybe tonight i'll finally fall in love again
Maybe tonight i'll finally fall in love again
Maybe tonight i'll finally fall in love again
Maybe tonight i'll finally fall in love again
another slow song that i knew as Avril Lavigne's Fall to pieces started as i snuggled a little closer into the warmth Draco radiated.
I looked away then I looked back at you,
You tried to say the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way I'd never get over you,
Today's the day I pray that we make it through.
I felt a tap on my shoulder and a slight cough only to see Harry. I turned out of Draco's to face him properly.
Make it through the fall, Make it through it all.
"What potter?" I asked impatient at the disruption of my peacefulness.
"Hermione? Can I talk to you in private?" His cute face staring at me looking honestly hurt.
"Afraid of public rejection? Anything you have to say you can say here or I won't listen." I was being stubborn something else Draco had told me.
"Please Hermione, I'm sorry,"
And I don't wanna fall to pieces I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'cause I'm in love with you.
"Are you jealous cause you think Draco's getting your goodies?"
"What more can I say but I'm sorry Hermione?"
You're the only one I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone you bring me back again.
Back under the stars, Back into your arms.
"You hurt me Potter!" I snapped, "You hurt me badly, think about it you said and I quote "you know what Hermione i did toy with you, lead you on, hurt your feeling and tell everyone that i had done so. However, you want to know why Hermione? you have always been a know it all bitch who always had to be right and have her way and I'm sick of it your nothing but an up-tight frigid bitch and no one with a brain would want someone as plain and annoying as you" you remember that potter? After you publicly humiliated me? Well look at me Potter look at me!" I began to cause a scene trying to stay calm while i still felt hysterical.
And I don't wanna fall to pieces I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'cause I'm in love with you.
"I'm not what you labelled me anymore and you know it, i am a bigger and better person because i got on with my life and didn't let you destroy me like you wanted to."
Wanna know who you are, Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.
Wanna know how you feel, Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything... Everything.
"Hermione, I don't know what to say... I was wrong i shouldn't have said those things to you about you and i should never have hurt you. Please forgive me" He looked like he was about to cry... really cry.
I don't wanna fall to pieces I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And i don't want a conversation I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it.
"You only say that now Potter because I am beautiful and you can't have me! Please excuse me I have nothing further to say and I would like to get a butterbeer." Everyone was stunned. Hermione Granger had just lost her patience with Harry Potter who used to be her biggest crush and best friend.
"And Potter, to think i would fall for a phoney apology like that. You really are a dickhead!"
And I don't wanna fall to pieces I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it.
And I don't want a conversation I just wanna cry in front of you.
And I don't wanna talk about it
'cause I'm in love with you...
I'm in love with you,
'cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you...
I'm in love with you.
It had been so hard for me to say that, i watched from the table full of butterbeer and snacks in mortification as he walked back to his prize slut and snogged her.
"Sorry babe, the frigid bitch has cobwebs between her legs and isn't interested I tried." he said as loud as he could... "Let's make that threesome a twosome." Behind her back he hi-fived his friends and I was glad i wasn't her but still i felt jealous and I wanted him more than anything now. I wished I hadn't said the things I said. Ron would hate me, Harry would never speak to me again and he was sleeping with Lavender. I felt sick like the whole room had moved like a dragon had stomped his foot right outside the door but no one but me noticed this change in scenery. I dropped my butterbeer and ran past a bewildered Draco and a stunned crowd all eager from some more gossip. I ran all the way to the rose garden, threw my red rose to the floor, and pummelled it with my fists.
"What did that rose ever do to you?" Malfoy joined me he knelt on the ground and wrapped his arms around me letting me sob into his chest never asking questions not even saying a word just letting me sob until finally the tears subsided.
"Do you feel better?" he handed me a black handkerchief from his pants pocket.
"It should have been me," i felt more tears threaten my eyes with their approach, "I love him not her, she can have any man she wanted, all i ever wanted was him was it too much to ask?"
"If it helps she can never have me," he smiled as i snorted at his comment and lit two joints we leaned against the stone seat at the front of our garden looking into the vast blackness beyond our room i leaned into his chest ad he wrapped his arm around me. "Hermione I have something to tell you," he looked into my big brown eyes eager from him to say what he had to say. For a moment, he felt like he didn't have the courage to go on. He couldn't say what he felt inside him like fire. So he leaned in and he kissed me softly but sweetly on the lips, just a lingering brushing of our lips together that radiated warmth comfort and the soft scent of marijuana on our lips.
"I love you, I have for so long and all i ever wanted was for you to open your eyes and see how i felt about you. All i ever wanted was for you to notice me like you wanted Harry to notice you. I was jealous that you did all this," he waved his hand up and own to indicate he meant my transformation," for him when I have loved you all along, when all I wanted was for you to do this all for me." From the hall, i could hear the sounds of placebo coming to us and I kissed him back. I deepened the kiss and he held me close his tongue fighting mine with supremacy, i pulled at his jacket and he obliging took it off.
Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passion's spent.
My hearts a tart, your body's rent.
My body's broken, yours is bent.
Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
I pulled at his tie and had started to unbutton his shirt when he broke off the steamy and intimate kiss.
"Are you sure?" he looked concerned but it was hard to take him seriously, when he looked so sexy with my lip-gloss smeared over his lips. I nodded in reply and he picked me up like a husband picking up his bride to carry her over the threshold of their new home and took me to the plush white rug in front of the fire. He went to his room and got a pillow and blanket stalling to make sure I was not going to back out of this.
Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.
In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
He placed the pillow under my head and the blanket over me and then finally laid down beside me and kissed me feverishly. eventually after much pulling, pushing, and temperament at our inexperience we lay fully naked beside each other.
"What am I supposed to do?" he asked me making me want to laugh if this wasn't such a serious moment. I took his hand and placed it on my breast he pulled me close to him and he ran his fingers over my nipple almost expertly making me feel sensations i had never felt before. I felt lust control my body and I began to want it more. he ran his hand over my trim and fit waist to rest on my firm backside.
Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
There's never been so much at stake.
I serve my head up on a plate.
It's only comfort, calling late.
Cuz there's nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
He captured my lips once more with his own and it was his turn to take my hand and he pressed flat against his taught and well toned chest and ran it down his stomach to something i had never seen let alone felt. He was almost about to laugh if the situation had not been so serious at the surprised doe eyed look on my face which i knew he found amusing. I ran my hand in his up and down his well-endowed asset and groaned in pleasure finally letting go to let me do the job on my own. I then felt his hands seeking entrance in between my legs to which i obliged opening them slightly. He ran his hand against my clit making me grow wet quickly making my insides turn to jelly and i knew i was almost at climax. He slipped one finger inside me driving me crazy. He pushed me onto my back and climbed on top of him.
"Are you sure?" He asked again. I nodded my head.
"Are you?" I asked teasingly. His only reply to this was to capture my lips once again in his own and slowly he entered me
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Like the naked leads the blind.
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.
All alone in space and time.
There's nothing here but what here's mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Pain struck me in bare moments only to be replaced by pleasure moments later. His body collided with mine as we bucked at each other trying to find a rhythm together. He held and sucked my breasts as he entered me. He rubbed his body against mine bringing me to my climax twice before i finally felt limp like a rag doll. We continued this our bodies sweat mingling together in front of the fire running into my bellybutton filling it with sweat like he will filling me with him. Again, the feeling of climax hit me as i felt something hot surge through my insides and Draco finally collapsed on top of me after kissing my forehead.
"I love you Hermione Granger," he told me looking into my eyes his forehead resting against mine. Suddenly this felt wrong. I had done this for the wrong reasons and I had never felt the same for him. I felt guilt heavy guilt.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he
I rolled him off of me and he knew that something wasn't not right and the love we had made had been made for the wrong reasons and thought i had said i had been fine I really had been lying all along to the both of us.
"I'm sorry Draco I could never love you back the same way," I slipped out from underneath the covers grabbed my dress and made my way to the bathroom with haste.
"I understand," I heard the whisper wavering from a voice that sounded as though it was about to cry, like it's world was just crushed in ten simple words, before i heard silence complete silence but that was outside my head inside my head was screaming and yelling and crying and going on overload all of my confusion had gotten the best of me. I could not believe what i had just done. I had just lost my virginity to Draco Malfoy! I slammed the bathroom door behind me locking it and climbed quickly into my dress ignoring the blood between my legs. I leaned against the wall, slumped down to the floor, put my head in my hand, and cried. It was supposed to be Harry I gave my virginity to he was the one i wanted he was the one for me. Why had i done something so stupid? Draco was definitely not Harry and now I had hurt him more than, if i had straight up rejected him. Now my actions would have consequences. Consequences i did not want to see or know. I ran a hot bath and left the tap dripping hot water so i would not feel the cold creep up on me and I could finally be at peace. I sat in the bath fully clothes and transformed my wand into a sharp razor blade. I had quickly ransacked my cupboard for some sleeping pills and taken my never-ending bottle of Jim beam with me. I swallowed the all the pills in the packet and drank half a bottle of Jim beam. When i was drowsy I hacked messily at my wrists not caring about the blood that was spattering on my face just hoping that the after life would be kinder than the one I was about to leave.
Every me and every you,
Every Me...he