Title: Right Before Your Eyes
Author: Wereleopard
Rating: PG
Email: Angst
Summary: Up to pregnant Darla it is AU, Angel's thoughts and questions about himself, his friends, his redemption and the love he has for Cordy.
Disclaimer: The characters in the Angel verse were created by Joss Whedon & David Greenwalt. No infringement is intended, no profit is made I am just poor and the song doesn't belong to me either.
Distribution: FSB! Yes please!

A/N Sorry this isn't that good but it was stuck in my head and wouldn't leave I am planning this to just being a one off since it isn't that good. Ok cause I have been asked nicely I will continue this.

A/N 2 The first part of this is in the standalone section cause that is what is was supposed to be.

A/N Brief appearance by Buffy but don't worry not for long LOL. Also I got this idea of this for the rest of the story for Heart's All I wanna do, lyrics are at the end of this chapter.

Chapter 2

Angel stayed in his room for the next week. The rest of the AI gang had been dealing with Darla. Cordy had finally gone back to her apartment and they managed to get hold of her but she could deal seeing Angel at the moment after everything they had been through he could still look her in the eye and lie to her.

Wes was worried so he called Buffy and she dropped everything and headed to LA. They were all worried about their friend they had never seen him like this it seemed as if he had just given up. Wes was just hoping with his and Buffy's history that she could talk some sense into him and she was happy to try with her dying Wes thought that she jumped at the chance get away and forget about her problems just for a little while.

Angel felt so alone he missed her companionship, her smile, her laugh he missed everything about her. He wanted to open his eyes and see her there, see her smile that open, warm and loving one she had. The vampire knew that he truly had messed up not only did he turn his back on her, which she did eventually manage to forgive him for but even after that time and time again he lied to her, looked her in the eyes and continued to lie.

"Angel?" A familiar feminine voice said, it wasn't the voice he wanted to hear but he was glad to see her.

"Buffy, what are you doing here?" He asked as he opened up his eyes and gazed at his ex-girlfriend.

"Wesley was worried about you and he phoned me. You really messed up huh?" She said with a small smile. Her heart ached for the man in front of her, she had never seen him this lost before, he looked as lost as she felt.

The slayer walked over and laid on the bed next to him rubbing his arm softly.

"I don't think she'll ever forgive me and that is saying a lot she has forgiven me for a lot of things I have done but this I've lost her." With that Angel started to cry for his body felt cold even to him and he truly did feel dead. He didn't want to feel like that not anymore he just wanted to be warm and to be help.

Buffy watched him she knew that he was feeling exactly how she did, and they just needed to be with someone, to be with each other just for one moment, one hour, one day. Her heart leapt at the thought and she tried to banish the thought that they could be together again. She had been so excited when Wesley had told her that after the Darla incident the PTB didn't want to risk Angelus coming out that they made his soul permanent.

Angel stood still as Buffy's head moved towards his and everything seemed to happen in slow motion and their lips touch softly. He knew that there wouldn't be anything between them but he just needed this right now and he could see that she wanted it too.

Cordy had cried herself to sleep every night, Dennis had wrapped her blanket around her, he had brought in food and drink but she just ignored them. Her heart ached she missed him, missed them.

Wes had called again and he was worried about Angel it seemed that the vampire had stayed in his room and not moved. The ex-watcher had begged her to come back but she had told him no even though she never meant it. Climbing out of bed it was time to go back and see if anything can be salvaged.

Cordy walked into the Hyperion smiling at everyone they smiled nervously back her, her eyes narrowed suspiciously.

"What's going on?" She asked.

"Nnnnothing." Wes stuttered slightly.

"Ok I'll just head up and speak to Angel see if we can at least talk." Cordy turned and started up the stairs.

"NOOOO!" Gunn, Wes and Fred called out.

Cordy stopped and turned around to them her hands on her hips and suddenly a thought occurred to her.

"He's not with Darla, is he?" She asked her voice full of disgust.

The three looked at each other and laughed nervously.

"Of course he's not with Darla." We said trying to smile.

"That's good, uhh how is she and you know the baby?" The brunette asked.

"The baby is fine it seems to be normal, human and Darla well she is grouchy, bad tempered, the usual." Fred laughed as she told her friend.

Before they could stop her Cordy ran up the rest of the stairs and flung open the door of Angel's room and they she stood stock still, her muscles had turned to stone. Her heart stopped beating as she saw the image in front of her, tears threatened to spill from her eyes but she forced them back she wouldn't let Buffy or Angel have the satisfaction.

Angel lay on his bed naked with Buffy straddling his lap. Their eyes were closed with passion until they heard the door slam on the wall as it was opened.

"Your soul Angel." She whispered they were the first things she could think of her brain had just shut down, her heart was breaking and at that moment she knew why she had been upset about Darla, about Kate and why she hated Buffy. Cordy was head over heels in love with the vampire with a soul and ironically she realised that as he was making love to his soul mate the one woman he would never get over.

"It's permanent." He stuttered out his hands still holding Buffy's hips, when he realised that he was still doing that he dropped them to the bed.

"Cordelia I." Buffy started to say.

She raised her hand. "Stop Buffy I just, I uh just came by to tell that I was leaving and that when I get visions I'll uh phone you." Cordy could feel the tears threatening to fall she turned away and rushed out the door.

Angel pushed Buffy of him grabbed the sheet, which he wrapped around his waist and ran out the door after her.

The rest of the AI gang looked up as a sobbing Cordelia ran down the stairs and out of the door, it was daylight she placed her sunglasses on her eyes. She had planned this in case the talk hadn't turned out the way she planned and if she needed to make a quick escape, which she did.

Wes opened his mouth but before he could say a sheet wrapped Angel came running down the stairs followed by a similarly wrapped Buffy.

Wes, Gunn and Fred just turned away from the vampire and walked out into the garden Angel had truly done it this time. Cordy would never forgive him for this, and it looked like they weren't going to see much of here.

Angel had ruined it for all of them.

Cordy had just packed her clothes and personal belongings she said good-bye to Dennis and left. She did leave a note for her friends telling that she loved them and she would be in touch and asked Fred if she wanted to take over the lease of the apartment she didn't want Dennis to be left alone.

Angel had finally managed to get rid of Buffy and managed to get the guys to let him go and see Cordelia and they guys kind of understood what had happened between the vampire and the slayer it still didn't make it right, but Fred she was distraught she truly believed that Angel and Cordy belonged together but he had gone and messed it up.

He knocked on her door and it opened by itself he couldn't hear her heartbeat panic attacked him inside. Angel walked in and looked around all her pictures everything that made this her home was gone, it was just a furnished apartment and on the mantle piece were two letters one to Fred, Gunn and Wes he picked it up and placed it in his pocket and the other was to him.

The vampire sat on the couch and stared at her handwriting and he slowly opened it as if it contained something dangerous.

Angel,

I am glad that you are going to have a child and I have no doubt
that you will be a great father.

Also you soul is permanent good for you broody boy you and Buffy can finally be together just the way you always planned.

See things do work out.

I'll call when I get a vision I have no idea where I am going but I will still help with your redemption the only way I can.

Goodbye Angel

Even though we had our problems I have never regretted not even for one moment when we met at that party you made my life worthwhile.

Love,

Cordy.

Angel held the paper tight to his chest as the tears started to fall, he had lost the one thing he truly loved with all his unbeating heart, what he felt for Buffy was nothing compared to what he had just lost, he had lost everything and it was his own fault there was no one else to blame. He had been thinking about himself.

6 months had passed and Cordy had found herself a small house in a small town where she worked as a waitress, she had told them that she had fits, which covered when she had a vision. Everyone was very sweet and caring and they tried to set her up with numerous men in the town but she refused them all.

The story about her was that she had her heart broken, which made her laugh because it was actually the truth. Cordy tried as hard as she could to forget the vampire but she couldn't but also at the moment she couldn't go back.

Wes had told her what he was doing with Buffy; it was the same thing with Darla all over again. But deep down she was glad that the two of them had not gotten back together. Angel now had a son, he named him Connor and Darla had staked herself so their child could live, at least the bitch had done something right. They all had begged and pleaded with her to let them know where she was but she refused she still wasn't ready.

"Well, well, well I see a seer but where is the champion?" Said a male voice whispering in her ear, Cordy groaned and prayed that this was not who she thought it was.

TBC

It was a rainy night when he came into sight
Standing by the road
no umbrella
no coat
So I pulled up along side and I offered him a ride
He accepted with a smile so we drove for a while
I didn't ask him his name
this lonely boy in the rain
Fate tell me it's right
is this love at first sight
Please don't make it wrong
just stay for the night

All I wanna do is make love to you
Say you will
You want me too
All I wanna do is make love to you
I've got loving arms to hold on too

So we found this hotel
it was a place I knew well
We made magic that night. Oh
he did everything right
He brought the woman out of me
so many times
easily
And in the morning when he woke all I let him was a note
I told him 'I am the flower you are the seed'
We walked in the garden we planted a tree
Don't try to find me
please don't you dare
Just live in my memory
you 'll always be there

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I wanna do is make love to you
I've got loving arms to hold on too

Oh
oooh
we made love
Love like strangers
All night long
We made love

Then it happened one day
we came round the same way
You can imagine his surprise when he saw his own eyes
I said 'please
please understand
I'm in love with another man
And what he couldn't give me
was the one little thing you can'

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I want to do is make love to you
Come on
say you will
you want me too

All I wanna do is make love to you
One night of love was all we knew
All I want to do is make love to you
Say you will
you want me to

All night long
All night long

All night long
All night long.