Chapter 3: More work… and tears!

Is this the life I wanted?

(Words by William Turner and Jude Harrison)

I look at my reflection

I look at my life's own irony and I…

Try to hide myself,

I keep revealing secrets that I never wanted to see

Chorus:

Is this the life that I wanted?

I look to find that this is difficult and I…

Try to hide it…I try to fight it!

But then I realized that…

Is this the life that I wanted?

Verse 2:

Time is wasted…

Well I have to stop reading what some stranger wrote and well…It's been two weeks since that drastic event. Two long weeks of being treated like a 60 year old, not a 16 year old in the hospital. Those two weeks made me feel like going to hell. I try to sleep, but guess what? I didn't because of William. I doubted about William saving my life. I always think what if William didn't save me? Where will I go from here? Will I die?

I went on recording the new album…well I am 25 percent done and I had three of the 12 songs already recorded and I am going to like promote one of them…well not the one that William wrote; but the one that I actually wrote… I placed the lyric William made on my red ACDC messenger bag. It was noon and everyone in the studio went outside to eat lunch. I saw Tommy going inside the control room and I was in the sound booth as always playing the guitar. Seeing Tommy in the control room, I went inside to say hi:

"Hey Tommy…you want me to record now?" I asked eagerly. He turns around with a nervous look and says:

"Jude you got to record William's song…"

"Wait, what? Record what someone else wrote? It's not my style…you know that!" I interrupted.

"Wait…you got to let me finish." Tommy said patiently, "Either you record the song or Darius won't let you work on the rest of the album. Not my rules, Jude. You know that!" William comes inside the studio and waves at me and Tommy. Tommy waved back and I crossed my arms and I scowled at William.

"Jude what's wrong?" William asked. This time, he wore red contacts and the same gear the last time I saw him, except for the shirt that he wore. He is wearing a grey Heart-a-gram t-shirt this time. I looked at him angrily…like I am going to kill him...Damn I got to calm myself down…control…control! I yelled:

"What did you do!" I heatedly asked. William had a questioned look on his face and replies:

"Wait…what's going on?" He asked questionably…I came in front of him and looked up because he's 6 feet and I am 5'7 and I yelled:

"You know what's going on!" I yelled. I kept punching him with both of my hands and William pushes me back cautiously and I fell on the floor. I am still angry at him, but William sighed and talks to Tommy about what really happened. Tommy tells him that Jude has to record the song that he wrote or else Darius will cancel recording for good. William sighs yet again. He kneels down right next to me and taps me in the shoulder. Darius comes in the studio and wants William to leave the studio.

"Wait…William?" I said. Tears are running down my face…almost doubting that William is telling the truth. "I'm so sorry. I really am…I really am."

"Sorry about what?" William asked…He walks near me and sits down right next to me and hugs me just make me feel more comfortable. "Jude…whatever it is, it's not true, okay? Look, maybe working on your new album is making you more tired than strong-minded." By now, I am actually agreeing to what William is saying…Why bother? I thought. William and I hugged and waved our goodbyes.

"Where are you going?" I asked curiously, wiping off my tears. William stood up and I followed. He replies:

"I'm just going to grab a bite at the deli across the street." He replied.

"Can I come with you…please?" I said in a whisper. I came close to him, hugged him, and kissed William. William backed up to a nearest wall and actually likes the kiss! He pushes me back slowly. He looks at me with disgust and leaves the studio. "William…William!" I followed him out the door and William stops in front of me.

"Jude…" He pauses.

"William…I'm sorry…I…" my voice breaks and I started to cry again. He holds my face with one hand and says silently:

"Jude enough…you can't just kiss someone right out of thin air." William interrupted. He walks away with an angry look all over his face. I guess…I guess…I won't ever see him again. I looked at him one last time and went inside the studio.

Darius is in the studio and he isn't happy at all. He leaves the studio and it's just me and Tommy. Tommy, with a stressed look, tells me:

"Jude, Darius says that we are canceling recording for the new album…"

"Tommy, you're kidding right?" I asked. Tommy is still looking at me seriously, beams 'no, I am not kidding.' "Why?" I continued.

"Jude…your stunt that you did with William, that's why." Tommy replies, "Look…Jude why did you kiss William?"

"I didn't use my head and went for it…" I said. Tommy leaves the studio and I am left alone. Tommy looks at me worriedly and closes the door. What am I going to do now, I thought. I left the studio last and well…there goes my career…but I still have a chance. Let's just hope it works…

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