Chapter 4: Mirage
The next day I find myself in my bedroom, in my mom's house, that well…I feel rejected about William. Why did I kiss him? Why? Then someone knocked on my door. I said with a sad feeling:
"The door's open…I hope…" the door opened and it was William and he brought a bouquet of roses, daisies, and carnations. He sat on my bed, he handed the flowers to me and I blushed a little bit, and smiles like he actually didn't know I kissed him…He looks at me with a contented look and says:
"Jude…I wanted to tell you that…"
"Tell me what, Will?" I interrupted…Is he going to say what I think he's going to say? I though. William turns around and picks up my acoustic guitar behind my bed and starts to play chords. These chords sounded like the ones that I was fooling around with. He kept playing and says:
"Jude, I wanted to say that…I…" He pauses and continues, "I…" He starts to sing. Wait, he's going to sing? I thought. He continues singing:
"I try to find myself
In someone else's shoes
I always thought of being…
Being popular…
I work for 50 bucks a month
And thought I'm going nowhere…
Is this the life that I wanted?
I look to find that this is difficult and I…
Try to hide it…I try to fight it!
But then I realized that…Is this the life that I wanted?
I make a break into stardom…
5 years of hard work led me here
I meet my adoring fans
They told me they are friends…"
He talks normally: "Well I guess they're not." I laughed softly because that was kind of true. He continues to sing:
Is this the life that I wanted?
I look to find that this is difficult and I…
Try to hide it….I try to fight it!
But then I realized that… Is this the life that I wanted?"
He played these new chords that actually fit the song and sings accapella:
"Is this the life that I wanted?
I look to find that this is difficult and I…
Try to hide it…I try to fight it!
But then I realized that…Is this the life that I wanted?"
He ends the song and I clapped like crazy and William blushed.
"Wow…William!" I exclaimed, "That wasn't bad at all…I like it!"
"Thank you, Jude Harrison." William replied, "I wanted to say I love you, Jude."
" I..." Before I said 'love,'William faded and my bedroom is gone and I am standing in a dark room. I couldn't see one inch and it was pitch black. Then, this bright light came back again and I see William, waving to come near me. Then a shadow of a voice came hollering by:
"Jude, wake up! Jude, wake up! Jude!" the voice sounded like Tommy and vanishes; then I hear sirens...Then the voice came back again: "Jude! Oh God come on! Wake up…come on, wake up!" Then I hear a gasp, a sign that says 'welcome back to reality.' The voice became less distorted and then normal.
Then, I see light…again with the lights! I hate it when that happens! With the light being brighter, I opened my eyes and I am back in the real world. I am being wheeled off in a stretcher with Tommy, not William, and a paramedic team. I'm back in the hospital again. Tommy looks with a worried look and I asked:
"What happened? I fainted again didn't I?" I said exhaustedly. William, wherever you are, please come back. I thought just to get my mind off the random faints.
"Jude? You okay?" Tommy asked, "That's the second time this month…you really are worried about William, huh?"
I shook my head and then the scene vanishes again and I am in the dark room again. William is there again in the beam of light and I thought I need to say sorry to William. I ran toward the light and William's image is coming closer and when I was in front of him, I hugged and bawled like a girl losing his doll.
"William…I'm sorry…I am…I shouldn't have kissed you…Please give me a chance…Please!" Then I hear the same gasp from out of nowhere. William's gone…gone…just like that.
"Jude? Wake up, girl! It's 9 in the evening! Jude!" the voice sounded like Kwest and I opened my eyes. Well, I really am back in reality, I though. Was it all a dream? Or was it real? I guessed I slept in the studio the whole time.
"Hey, Kwest…Can you help me?" I asked.
"Yeah what's up?" Kwest asked. He is packing up my Telecaster back ina leather guitar case.
"Have you ever apologized to a girl because you kissed her for no reason…?" I pause and Kwest replies:
"Jude, is this about you and William?" Kwest asked.
"Yeah." I replied honestly. Kwest sits down right next to me and says:
"We got a big gig next Wednesday and I invited William to come. This is your last chance to bring William back. Either that day or never…" He stops speaking and I said:
"Thanks, Kwest…Thanks a lot…" I said. I guess this is the last time I would bring William back. It's now or never…