Warning: Violence. Depressing thoughts. Self-Harm. Sexual Innuendos. Underage drinking.
Chapter 1: A New Villain.
Nico's POV.
"There is no middle ground! Pick a side! Hero, or Villain!" he demanded. I looked at Bakugou, and then at Shigaraki and the league. I didn't want to pick a side! But if push came to shove. I sighed, and hung my head.
"I'm sorry Kacchan." I said, and walked over to Shigaraki. I looked up at All for One. "I choose Tomura. I will follow him to the end. But I will keep my moral compass, and attacking those I once called friends is outside of that." I sat on the ground. Bakugou looked at me, and nodded sadly. He understood. Then, a look of pure rage filled his face.
"You're the enemy now. That means I have to take you down!" he exclaimed. I smiled sadly at him.
"I don't want to be your enemy Katsuki. But I cannot desert my friends. I will never seek out any of those I hold in regard on the battlefield. But, if I am sent, I will go." I told him, and went back to looking at the ground.
Bakugou managed to fend off what was left of the Vanguard action squad while All-Might fought All for One. I sat and watched it go down. I wasn't going to help either side. Then, a large blast of ice shook me out of my thoughts. Midoriya had come up with a plan. Katsuki launched himself into the air with an OP blast of raw firepower, and caught Kirishima's outstretched hand. they disappeared into the night sky. I sighed, and stood.
"Tomura, go home." All for One said.
"But, Master," Shigaraki said. All for One shook his head.
"No Tomura. Leave to fight another day." He said, and used forced quirk activation on Kurogiri's unconscious body. A portal opened, and he told us to go through it. I looked at Shigaraki.
"Let's go." I said, and placed a hand on his arm. The pros watched on as I led Tomura, and rest of the villains into the portal away from them. The portal closed behind us, and we were in an underground layer. I didn't know where we were. Shigaraki was pacing, scratching his neck, and cursing under his breath. I sat numbly on the floor, and stared at the wall. All for One wasn't going to make it. That much I knew.
I cursed to myself in Greek. In less than 24 hours I'd had one of my worst fears realized, hope for a better future, and lost it all. Great. Just bloody fantastic. I stood up, and turned to Tomura.
"Is there a room I can have?" I asked. he nodded, and led me to a different part of the lair. There was a corridor with 8 doors down it; 4 on each side. Each of them had a name plaque next to it. Only one of them had a name on it; It was Tomura's. he gave me the room next to his. I engraved my name with the shadows. It had a very final feel about. I closed the door behind me.
I fell to the floor, and cried. I made a shadow barrier so no one could hear me, and cried my heart out. Why me? why couldn't I just have a normal life? I couldn't have a normal life with my cousins. I couldn't have a normal life in a new world where no one knew who I was! I couldn't have a normal life anywhere!
I guess I just wasn't meant to be happy.
I pulled my jacket off. I promised myself I'd never do this again. Screw promises. I pulled my dagger off my hip. I looked at it for a moment. It wasn't too late to stop. I could still- no. it was too late. I'd chosen my side; There was no going back. I pulled it harshly down one of the pre-existing scars on my left arm. Pain blossomed through my body. I deserved pain. I deserved to pay for what I'd done. I pulled it down again.
One time for each time I'd done something stupid.
Killing that Nomu. Pain.
Befriending Katsuki. Blood.
Thinking that it could last. I deserved this. I didn't deserve to be happy after everything I'd done.
Telling Aizawa what I'd been through. My vision was getting fuzzy around the corners.
I stopped, and looked down at my arms. 37. 37 times I did something that I shouldn't have. 37 new scars to remember them by. I put my dagger back on my hip. The smell of my toxic blood filled the room. I looked around. I was kneeling in a large puddle of my own blood. I let out a small choked laugh. If only my 'friends' could see me now! What would they think? Another laugh fell from my lips.
I was crazy. That much was obvious as I looked at the cuts on my arms, and the blood spreading around my room. I couldn't stop the laughs from coming. If the heroes saw a demon, it was a demon they were going to get!
I woke up to someone banging on the door. I blinked.
"Nico! Are you alright in there?" someone asked. I looked around. I wasn't wearing my jacket. Why was that? I looked down. my arms were painted almost black. What? Oh. There was a large black stain where I was laying. It spread unevenly across the floor, and looked like some of it was dripping outside the door.
"I'm fine." I replied. my voice was slightly cracked. I looked at my arms. 37 angry red lines looked back up at me. they were closed, but still raw, and painful. Good. I deserved to feel pain for what I'd done. I sat up. I needed to clean this up. I summoned a rag, and a bottle of bleach from the shadows. I set to work.
About an hour later, I finished cleaning my blood off the floor. I washed my arms off in the attached bathroom, and put my jacket on. I opened the door, no one was in the corridor. There was a small pool of my blood outside the door. I wiped it up with the shadows quickly. Hopefully no one had noticed. I went to the lounge. The atmosphere confirmed my prediction last night. All for One had been defeated. Oh well. I sat on the couch next to Dabi.
"Nico," Shigaraki greeted. I nodded in his general direction, and laid back.
"So," Dabi said. "Shigaraki is now our leader I guess." He announced. No one argued. We all just sat there in an oppressing silence for a while. It seemed everyone was affected somehow. Whether it be because of the loss of a mentor, or the fact that we now had the equivalent of a toddler as our leader. I sighed, and stood.
"Okay. I'm going back to my room." I turned, and left the lounge area. I went in my room, and closed the door. I did not have the mental strength to deal with anything today. I laid on the bed and closed my eyes.
Someone knocked on my door. Ugh.
"Come in." I said, without opening my eyes or even looking up. whoever it was, they shut and locked the door behind them.
"Nico," I identified the voice as Tomura. "I know what you did." He said. my heart rate sped up. what? No. he couldn't. could he? I opened my eyes and looked at him.
"And what would that be?" I asked. he glared at me, and came closer. Before I knew what he was doing, he'd touched my jacket. My jacket turned to dust. I blushed a little.
"Ok, you got me there." I said, and turned my arms up. he gasped. Guess he didn't account for just how much I'd done. He pulled his gloves back on, and grabbed my hand roughly. Why was he always so rough?
"Nico. Why did you do this?" he asked, and stared at my eyes intently. I stared back.
"Shigaraki, what I did was wrong. I played both sides from the beginning. I didn't want to pick a side. I led the heroes on. I led the villains on. I led my friends on. I led the teachers on. everyone thought that I was on their side." I sighed, and closed my eyes. "I deserve this. I deserve to feel pain for what I've done."
"Nico, you didn't do anything." Tomura said. I shook my head.
"But I did. I promised Katsuki, and Shoto, and Izuku, and Tenya, and all the others that I would be there until the end. I lied Tomura. I failed my friends. Like others failed me." I said. "I'd promised I would never be that person. I guess promises really were made to be broken." I said softly. I felt a woosh of air, before a stinging sensation on my face. I opened my eyes to see the rage filled eyes of Shigaraki.
"Stop this! It's quite frankly pathetic! You chose a side get over yourself Nico! You can never be anything if you go on about failing friends! Shit happens! That's life for you! Move on! make new friends! Don't just wallow in your self-pity!" he raged. I blinked. I blinked again.
"Who would want to be friends with me?" I asked, and proffered my arms. He glared at me.
Then, he kissed me. like, a real mouth to mouth kiss.
"I do, stupid." He said.
"Um," yep. I'm a master of poetic sayings. He took that as an opportunity to kiss me again. Hands started wandering, and clothes somehow disappeared.
I woke up. I felt sore. I blinked a few times, and looked around. Tomura was laying on top of me. it was actually rather warm. I moved, and he blearily opened his eyes.
"Hello. I see you're up too." I stated. He blinked, and nodded.
"Yeah. I'm up. what about it?" he asked, and closed his eyes again. I smirked, and started playing with his hair. He had nice hair.
"You know, we should probably get dressed." I stated.
"But why?" he asked, and snuggled closer.
"Because I'm pretty sure Dabi is gay." I stated. He rolled his eyes at me.
"Alright. Fine." He got up. I rolled out of the bed, and stretched. Ouch. I was sore in places I didn't know you could be sore in. I grabbed a change of clothes, and went into the bathroom. I locked the door, and took a shower. I finished, and put on my clothes. A long-sleeved V-neck, and a loose pair of sweats. I came out of the bathroom.
Tomura was dressed, and was once again on my bed. He really didn't want to get up. I rolled my eyes, and went to the lounge. Dabi and Spinner were the only ones still there. Dabi looked lost in thought, and Spinner was pacing madly.
"Hi." I stated, and sat on the couch. Spinner spared me a look, and just went back to pacing. It was doubtful if Dabi heard me or not. I stretched my left hand out, and focused. A case of high-quality rum came out of the shadows. I grabbed a bottle, and laid back against the head of the couch. I popped the top, and took a swig. I waved my hand, and a second bottle appeared in my hand. I proffered it to Dabi. That snapped him out of his thoughts for a moment, as he took the proffered bottle.
Third per POV.
The three of them were there in the almost quiet long enough for Nico to finish off the entire bottle of rum. Dabi was finishing his second, and Spinner had finally sat down.
"What's going on in here?" Toga asked, coming in from the hallway.
"Nothing much. Want some rum?" Nico asked. she smiled, and ran over. Nico handed her a bottle, and looked at the case. He really shouldn't have another. But he was officially a villain now. He could drink as much as he wanted. Nico took another bottle.
After the second bottle of rum, the world was getting a little fuzzy at the edges.
"Nico? What the hell is going on in here?!" Shigaraki asked, coming out of the hallway. The demigod smiled slightly drunk.
"We were drinking." He stated, and giggled. Dabi was out cold next to the teen, and Toga was using him as a pillow. Tomura looked at a loss for words. Nico smiled strangely, and held up the last of the six bottles of rum. "Can I interest you?" He asked.
"Nico, I don't think that's a good idea." Tomura said, sitting down across from him on the footrest.
"Oh pooh! It's grand idea!" The demon said, and popped the top. Tomura shook his head fondly.
"You're drunk." He assessed. Nico pouted.
"So? What's so bad about that?" he asked.
"Nothing. It's just funny to see this side of you." Tomura said, taking the bottle of rum out of Nico's hands, and taking a swig. Toga moved, and whacked Nico's shoulder lightly.
"Stop moving so much pillow." She complained.
"Oh, I'm sorry your majesty." Nico responded. then they both broke into giggles.
"Is there something I missed?" Tomura asked.
"Not really. I just gave you all nicknames! She's your majesty, then we have the lizard, we have the burnt chicken nugget, or staple face, we have Mr. blind, then there's grayscale. I still haven't come up with a nickname for you, but it could definitely be Hand-y to have one." Toga and Nico burst into giggles again. Tomura did not find the pun funny.
"Why are you so weird drunk?" Spinner asked from his hiding spot at the bottom of the couch.
"I don't know. Toga, why am I weird drunk?" Nico asked, looking at the blond using him like a pillow. She turned her face up.
"I don't know. maybe you should get more drunk. You might find out." She said, and put her head back down. he looked up at Tomura.
"That sounds like a great idea!" Nico said happily. Tomura shook his head.
"Come on." he grabbed the goth around the waist, and lifted him off the couch.
"Ooh! So strong!" Nico said happily, clapping his hands. Tomura hauled the goth teen to his room, and put him down on the bed.
"Go to sleep. Maybe you'll be less drunk when you wake up." he said, and turned off the light.
"No, don't go." Nico said like a whiny two-year-old. Tomura sighed.
"Very well." He crawled into bed next to Nico, and they both fell asleep.
Nico's POV
My head hurt.
That was all I could recognize as I came to.
My head hurt, and I was warm.
I blinked a few times, and tried to remember. Where was I again? Oh yes, the secret villain base. In my room. And I was little spoon. Okay then. I shifted a little, and my headache rebelled. I really needed to fix that. I closed my eyes, and released my aura. I fixed my headache, and reopened my eyes.
I was looking into the eyes of Shigaraki.
"Oh, hi babe." I said, and went to move. He grabbed both my hands, and pinned them over my head. I blinked, and looked again. His eyes were almost all pupil, and had a slight glazed look.
Shit.
That was the same look Will had. When he almost…I shook that thought off, I had to deal with this now.
But what did I do?! I didn't want to hurt Tomura, but at the same time, I didn't want this to happen!
"Tomura, snap out of it." I said. he just grinned maniacally. I struggled, but to no avail. Was this going to end like last time? When I'd almost murdered my then boyfriend? When he'd gone around spreading lies to try and get me banned? Was this the end of my life here as a villain?
No. I wouldn't let it end like this! I took a deep breath, and pushed myself up with my wings. We went tumbling off the bed, and onto the floor. I sprung to my feet, and ran into the bathroom.
Shoot. I didn't mean for that to happen. Dammit! Dammit to hell! Once he was stuck in the haze, the only way to get him out was to knock him unconscious. Welp, I hope he doesn't remember this. I opened the door, and hit him in the neck with exactly enough pressure to put him out. He fell, but I caught him and put him on the bed. I really needed to make sure that no one was in the room next time I healed myself.
I took a deep breath, and felt another headache coming on, but not the drunk kind. I sighed, and sat on my bed.
Why me?
I laid down, and fell asleep.
"Nico, wake up."
"No, I no wanna-" I said sleepily.
"Get up!" Tomura yelled. I jumped, and turned to him.
"That was mean." I pouted.
"What the hell happened this morning?!" he demanded, pulling his shirt to the side to show the bruise I gave him when I'd knocked him out. I shifted a little, and looked at the bed.
"Umm, I uh, knocked you out." I said. it came out as a question.
"Why?" he demanded.
"Because I healed my headache while you were asleep. It, um, had the same effect as usual but you couldn't fight it. it put you in a haze, and the only way to break it was to knock you out." I told him truthfully.
"Haze?" he said, a little less aggressively.
"Yeah. that's actually the reason I don't like using that power. If someone's will power isn't strong enough it puts them in a sort of lusty haze. My first boyfriend was the first to ever experience it. I almost killed him on accident." I said, looking down. my options hadn't been to great at that time: Use raw power that was untamed and would knock me out, or get raped. Thanks, but I'll be knocked out now.
"Oh, were you okay?" he asked. I looked at him.
"Yes. I was. Will, on the other hand needed a lot of healing." I smiled a little, and cuddled closer.
"I love you." Tomura said, and kissed me. I smiled.
"I love you too."
End of chapter 1.