Chapter 3

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Sam looked at the payphone in front of him. He was debating with himself on whether to give his brother, Dean, a call.

But they had parted on bad terms and he had left Dean. Sure, Dean had called him names before but 'selfish bastard' has really hit home. And in his anger, he had left. And Dean had told him not to come back.

Staring at the payphone, the memories played in his head mercilessly.

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-Flashback-

'I don't care. I want to go with dad. He might need our help," Sam was nearly yelling at his brother to get his point across.

But Dean was adamant. Their father had told them to stay away, and that would be what he intended to do. But his younger brother had different opinion about that matter.

'Yeah, well, Sam always had different opinion about EVERYTHING,' he thought bitterly.

"Try to understand Sammy. Dad has a reason why he told us to stay away. Think about it Sam. When has he ever refused our help? Maybe this time we can't help him. It's time you understand that," Dean tried to reason with his brother.

But Sam couldn't. They were getting somewhere with Jessica's and their mother's murderer and he couldn't get it off his mind. He wanted to be there to kill it.

"No, I don't want to understand. I just want to kill this thing. I don't care, Dean. We have to go find Dad," Sam argued.

Dean had has enough of his brother's ranting, so he stopped the car abruptly and turned to face his brother in the passenger's seat.

"Yes, I get it that you don't care Sam. I get it that you never cared about anything in your life except for yourself. It's always about you isn't Sam? It's always about how you wanted to live? What you wanted in life? How would it be for you if anything happen? It's always about you and nobody else. That's all you cared about. Your pathetic little life, you little piece of shit. You're just a selfish little bastard, you ungrateful… ungrateful… ungrateful bitch!" Dean yelled at him and he was running out of words.

Sam looked at his brother in disbelief. Dean had erupted at him before but never this extreme. His father had called him selfish before, when they had argued about Stanford. But Dean never did. Dean always supported him in whatever he did. But Dean is yelling at him now, about how selfish he had been.

If it was under normal circumstances, as normal as it could get, he would probably be ashamed and get a bit teary-eyed, but today he was only feeling the anger inside. He knew he should probably say he's sorry or perhaps just sit quietly and ignore his brother for a while until both of them had calmed down. But he just had to open his big mouth.

"Fine, if that's what you think. Suit yourself," he said before he opened the door and took his backpack with him.

Dean cursed under his breath and got out after his brother.

"After all that speech I made, you're just gonna go? That just proves how selfish you really are Sam. You'd never stop and think how is this gonna affect Dad and me, will you? You'd just go ahead and do what suits you best without thinking about consequences for other people."

But Sam kept on walking.

And Dean had had enough.

"Fine then! Just walk away! You always do! That's what you do best!"

Sam stopped for a while and Dean let out a sigh of relief he didn't know he was holding. But then, after just a second, Sam started walking again. And anger flared yet gain with Dean. He turned towards his car and walked quickly to his car. He opened his door but before he got it, he yelled over to his brother.

"You walk out on me now Sam, you walk out on me forever. Don't come running back to me, Sam. I have had enough of your shit."

But Sam never stop walking.

And Dean got into his car, started the engine and drove away. And that was the last of each other the brothers saw. Neither knew that tragedy was only waiting by the doorstep.

- End of Flashback -

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Dean looked out the window, at the raindrops that were falling from the sky.

He too, remembered what happened when he parted with his brother, and had just recalled the memories at the Halliwells sisters' request. He had tried to call his brother after they parted ways but he could never get through the phone. And he got worried.

He regretted his words to his brother and he never meant any of it. He was angry and worried about his father and he took it out on his brother. He didn't know why he said half of the things he said. But anger always had a way with him.

He hoped that Sam would understand. Sam would know that he didn't mean any of it. They were only words that had no meaning. When he told Sam not to come back, he didn't mean that as well. How could he not want Sam? He was his younger brother, his responsibility. He has cared from him practically since birth. And he would always forgive him for anything and everything. That's just the way things are.

He just hoped that Sam realized that. Because he knew how stubborn his brother could be. If he thought Dean does not want him in his life, then he knew Sam would never contact him. Even if he was in trouble.

"Damn it Sam, where are you?" he muttered softly under his breath.

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Sam was still staring at the payphone when suddenly he was jolted out of his memories when the thunder sounded outside.

'Dean would never stay mad at me. He should be worried out of his mind right now. I really should give him a call. I want to see him. I need him,' he thought.

Just as his hand reached up to the phone, someone tapped him on his shoulder.

He turned and saw Nick, his face etched with concern.

"Sam? What are you doing out of bed? You really shouldn't be out of bed this soon?"

But Sam stared blankly at him and then turn to the payphone and then back at Nick again.

Nick seemed to understand because he asked softly as not to startled Sam, " Do you want to make a phone call, Sam? Is there someone you'd like you call? I've got my cell with me if you want to make a call?"

Sam stared at the payphone again. Then he shook his head and looked up at Nick with the saddest face anyone could have.

"You sure? Okay. Let me help you back to your room. Your doctor would be mad to find you out of your bed." Slowly Nick guide Sam back to his room and Sam followed willingly.

A few steps later, Sam turned his head back towards the payphone and looked at it longingly as he was guided away. Sighing in defeat he turned away from the payphone.

'Dean does not want me.'

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Okay, let me just clarify something.

This would take place during Scarecrow when they were arguing. But the scarecrow bit never happened. Dean head up to San Francisco while Sam head on to wherever he was going to. (was it California?) anyways, not important. And no Meg.

No Chris (Charmed) coz if he was in this, I wouldn't know who to concentrate on. LOL. Bad enough I have Greg (CSI) to deal with, I haven't decide if he plays a major role or not. And no Billie coz I just don't like her. So probably in season 5, no Chris and no Billie. But yes, there's baby Chris though I doubt there will be much of him.

And as for CSI, the current season.

Thanks for reading, and hopefully you'll review.