Hey everyone, sorry that I haven't updated in a while. I haven't been in the mood to write. I only recently immigrated to the UK from South Africa, so I was a bit home sick this week. But I am back and hopefully my writing hasn't suffered for it. Lets get on with it then, shall we.

Disclaimer: apparently changing country doesn't change the fact that I don't own Gilmore girls. Damn!

Luke couldn't believe that it had been two and a half weeks since he last spoke to Lorelai. He knew she needed time to sort through all of the feelings that the failed attempts at getting pregnant brought up, hell he did too, but now he was just worried about her. She never came in for coffee, pie or burgers. She never came by to talk to Luke about their options. All this only led Luke to believe that she had given up on the idea of having a kid with him and that hurt.

It was 2 weeks until Christmas and Luke had been hoping that things would be easier. The diner was slow as everybody was out doing their Christmas shopping. The only customer there was Kirk, he definitely didn't have a life, Luke thought. He felt bad about kicking Kirk out, but Luke had more important things to do. He closed the diner early and decided to go past Lorelai's house and see if he could get her to talk to him. She wasn't home so she went past the Dragonfly Inn, she wasn't there either but Sookie was so he stopped to talk to her.

Luke: hey Sookie

Sookie: hey Luke, what brings you around?

Luke: I was looking for Lorelai; she wasn't at home so I assumed she would be here.

Sookie: no, she has her parents stupid 2 weeks before Christmas party.

Luke: I see you have the same opinion on it as I do.

Sookie: just celebrate Christmas on Christmas day, that's what I say

Luke: yeah, so um… do you know what time she will be back?

Sookie: no, but probably not to late, she went over there about an hour ago. And she hates spending more than a few hours there.

Luke: ok, thanks Sookie

Sookie: is everything ok/

Luke: perfect, why do you ask?

Sookie: well….

Luke: Sookie?

Sookie: well you seem offish, more so than normal and Lorelai's been different lately…

Luke: what do you mean different?

Sookie: she seems upset about something; I know she is hiding something. I just don't know what it is.

Luke: i'm sure its nothing but stress, the inn is still new and you are all trying to find your feet.

Sookie: I'm sure that is part of it, but there is something else. Something is really bothering her.

Luke: do you have any idea what it is? Has she said anything?

Sookie: no, but Luke, I want my laughing, joking, childish friend back

Luke: I want her back too

Sookie: I thought you hadn't noticed a difference

Luke: I haven't seen her or spoken to her in a while so I want to have her back at the diner that's all.

Sookie: yeah, ok? Well Luke, I need to get back to the food. Let me know if you speak to Lorelai and if you find out what's wrong.

Luke: will do, thanks Sookie.

Luke returned too the diner but decided to keep it closed. He was determined to speak to Lorelai that night.

It was probably one of the only events that her parents hosted that she ever enjoyed going to, and she wasn't going to let her bad mood change that. She arrived on time ready to mingle with the high-class friends of her parents and she couldn't wait to see her daughter again. Things were weird still between them, ever since the baby thing with Luke started. But this was not the time to think about it, so she knocked on the door and was greeted by the maid.

She walked into the living room after taking off her coat, and went to greet the guest. She spotted her mom and dad talking to some people she didn't know and she saw Rory cornered by a very strange looking old man. Lorelai quickly rushed over to save her.

Lorelai: hey babe

Rory: hey mom

Lorelai gave Rory a long hard hug

Lorelai: sorry I need to borrow my daughter for a moment.

Old man: sure, no problem

Rory: what's up

Lorelai: nothing just thought I would save you.

Rory: thanks

Lorelai: there are more people here than usual.

Rory: I know, just means that more food was made, and if more food was made then….

Lorelai: more food to eat?

Rory: no, well yes, but more apple tarts

Lorelai: oh yes, yummy. Do you think we can go eat?

Emily: Lorelai, its rude not to come greet the hosts

Lorelai: sorry mom I just got carried away saying hello to my daughter…. Hello mom, the party looks great

Emily: thank you

Lorelai: there are more people

Emily: some of your dads international clients are here for the holiday season, so we thought it would be rude not to extend an invitation to them.

Rory: that is nice grandma

Richard: hello Lorelai

Lorelai: hello dad

Richard: can I get you something to drink?

Lorelai: yeah, some… I don't know, maybe a vodka martini

Richard: coming right up. Emily? Rory? How are your drinks?

Emily: i'm fine Richard

Rory: me too grandpa

Richard: ok then

Emily: so how is the inn Lorelai?

Lorelai: it going well thanks mom, busy but that's a good thing

Emily: yes it is. I see you didn't bring anyone

Lorelai: I didn't know I could

Emily: well an invitation for boyfriends are always open

Lorelai: ok, then I still wouldn't have brought anyone

Emily: what are you talking about?

Lorelai: what are you talking about?

Emily: Lorelai!

Lorelai: mom!

Rory: ok, that annoying

Lorelai: sorry

Emily: well Rory didn't you tell me your mother was seeing someone

Lorelai: Rory?

Rory: yes well Sookie told me you were in a relationship

Lorelai: why would she say that?

Rory: she said on some days you would come into the in with I just had sex look on your face

Lorelai: oh my God, what?

Emily: Rory!

Rory: sorry grandma, i'm just quoting Sookie

Lorelai: ok, so new subject

Rory: mom was there someone? Sookie knows you well.

Lorelai: there isn't anyone.

Emily: ok, so new subject like Lorelai asked would be a good thing, I don't think mothers and daughters need to hear about each other's sex lives

Lorelai: thanks mom. So Rory, how's Yale?

Rory: mom? …….. its fine.

Lorelai: good, will you excuse me for a moment, I am going to go see where dad is with my drink.

Lorelai walked off to find her dad while Emily and Rory watched her go. Emily turned and excused herself too and headed to entertain her guests.

When dinner was finished Lorelai felt tired and retreated to her old room where she sat on her bed. Emily found her there after about half an hour

Emily: Lorelai?

Lorelai: hey

Emily: have you been crying?

Lorelai: no!

Emily: yes you have, what's the matter. My guests are wondering where you got to.

Lorelai: sorry, i'm tired and just needed a minute for myself.

Emily: ok, but please will you come back and join the party now.

Lorelai: let me freshen up then I will be down.

Emily: ok……. Lorelai?

Lorelai: yeah mom?

Emily: is there anything you want to talk about?

Lorelai: its ok thanks mom, I can handle it on my own

Emily: fine, I want to see you down there in no more than five minutes, you hear.

Lorelai: yes mom!

Emily walked quickly out the door, hurt a bit that Lorelai wouldnt confide in her even though she new there was something wrong. Emily decided to send Rory up instead.

Rory: mom?

Lorelai: hey, did grandma send you up to hurry me

Rory: she sent me to talk to you, she says that you were crying but didn't want to talk to her about it.

Lorelai: I told her I can handle things on my own

Rory: and can you?

Lorelai: always

Rory: do you want to talk about whatever's wrong? Has it got to do with the boyfriend Sookie thought you had and you say you didn't.

Lorelai: kinda, but hey we are missing out on the party so lets go down ok?

Rory: mom wait

Lorelai: what?

Rory: please talk to me, things have been different with us for a while now and I want that to change.

Lorelai: Rory, i'm sorry but I can't talk to my daughter about these things or my mother.

Rory: then talk to your best friend

Lorelai: unfortunately for this there is no separating the daughter from the friend. I'm sorry Rory……. Are we ok?

Rory: I guess we will have to be. Promise me though that you will speak to someone

Lorelai: ……….fine

Rory: mom!

Lorelai: I promise.

Lorelai and Rory rejoined the party and Lorelai stayed there for a little while before excusing herself. She headed home and sat on the couch in the dark by herself and was just about to nod off when there was a knock on the door. she got up slowly and was surprised to see that it was Luke.

Lorelai: hey

Luke: hey, can I come in

Lorelai: oh yeah sure.

Luke: I thought things weren't going to change

Lorelai: I know i'm sorry

Luke: you see I know things are hard, but people are starting to wonder why you don't come in for you coffee fix everyday, they think we are fighting. Are we fighting?

Lorelai: no, of course not

Luke: ok then why Lorelai, why aren't you coming into the diner anymore?

Lorelai: i'm sorry

Luke: Lorelai?

Lorelai began to cry a little and made her way over to the couch. Luke followed her but kept his distance.

Lorelai: it hurts more than I ever thought it would, to be perfectly honest I never once considered the fact that I might not be able to have a baby.

Luke: I could be me, maybe go out and find someone else to have a baby with you. What about Rory's father Chris. You no he gave have kids and he seems to pass on good genes otherwise Rory wouldn't be as great as she is….

Lorelai: Luke!

Luke: what?

Lorelai: I want your baby

Luke: I want you to have my baby too

Lorelai: but its not working

Luke: I know, it's probably not the right time or meant to be. Lets not stress about it.

Lorelai: so what do you want to do?

Luke: I think if we take a few months, to unwind. I will get tested and we will find another way. Then in a few months we can talk about it again

Lorelai: ok, sounds like a plan

Luke moved over to where Lorelai was sitting and gathered her up in his arms giving her a soft but firm hug.

Luke: it will all work out, I will make sure of it

Lorelai: I have not doubt

Luke: good, so will I see you in the diner with a smile on that dial.

Lorelai: yes, I've missed your coffee so much

Luke: ouch

Lorelai: what?

Luke: you missed the coffee!

Lorelai: and you!

Luke: good that's better. I missed you Lorelai

Luke lifted Lorelai chin so that he was looking into her eyes. He leant in only to give her a small peck. But Lorelai turned it into a more passionate kiss. She linked her hand with his and led him upstairs. They took it slower than they had ever done before. They made love because for once they wanted to show each other that they cared. There was no urgency, no pressure, and no ulterior motive. They were just there to be with each other.

Thanks again to all of you that have taken the time to read my story, I am currently working on the next chapter so it should be up soon. Please leave a review to let me know what you think. I didn't get time to check it thoroughly so I hope there weren't to many grammar mistakes. Thanks again