Hey everyone, thanks again for reading my story and returning back to see what I have in store for the wonderful Luke and Lorelai. This chapter is a bit longer than the last chapter but is a little bit confusing, so I hope its ok. The story takes a bit of a turn in this chapter and I think it is mainly because of what mood I'm in. I hope you will like it though. Sorry that you had to wait a little while longer than I intended as I was not allowed to post until now. Sorry but they put a lock on my account so I couldn't help it.
thanks Marcel-Marceau-Chicken for giving my story a read over whileI was locked out.
Disclaimer: just read the chapter, you know the characters are not mine.
It was early on a Sunday morning and Lorelai was curled up on a bed crying. She was holding on to the small bump of her stomach that had started to form now that she was 4 months pregnant. The coming Thursday, at the town meeting, she had planned on telling the town about her pregnancy, but now she wasn't so sure that was a good idea.
Things had been pretty much been the same for the last 2 and a half months. She had yet to see her mother but spoke on occasion with her father who was sincerely excited about the future new addition to the family. Rory still seemed happy though Lorelai noticed from time to time that she seemed sad when the baby was mentioned. When Lorelai and Luke went to the 3-month check up Rory tagged along, she seemed excited about seeing her baby brother or sister but when she saw how affectionate Luke was towards her mother and how proud he was of his baby, Rory couldn't help but be a little jealous.
Rory had opted not to join Luke and Lorelai at the doctors the week before at the 4-month check up, instead she wanted to spend that time with people at Yale. That Monday had been a happy one. Luke and Lorelai were able to see their baby move a little bit and the doctor took blood to run standard tests on and to determine whether an amniocentesis would be necessary.
The doctor had phoned on Wednesday morning to tell Lorelai that the tests came back normal but that Lorelai was not to take that as a sign that nothing would go wrong. Lorelai accepted this even though deep down she told herself that nothing was going to go wrong.
When Friday morning came, Lorelai felt a bit ill so she took the day off of work. The morning sickness had subsided a few weeks before so she couldn't understand what was wrong, but when her stomach started to cramp, she made an appointment to go see Dr Shepard.
Lorelai went to see the doctor without telling Luke, as she didn't want to alarm him if nothing was wrong. When she got there, he redid the scans and noted that there were no movements and the heart rate was considerably lower than it should be. The doctor drew more blood telling Lorelai he would find out what was wrong. He explained that it was more than likely something that was predetermined to go wrong and nothing she had done.
The doctor phoned on Saturday afternoon and delivered the bad news. He told Lorelai that the baby's health was very poor and that there was only about 30 percent chance that the baby will survive.
That was when Lorelai went to see Luke. She went to tell him what had happened but chickened out when she saw how happy he was. He had another present for her. It had become a little tradition of his. Every Saturday he gave her a gift. It started off with items of clothing, bottles, and nappies but this past week he presented her with the crib he made. It was carved out with beautiful pictures and a space was left for where Luke planned on carving the baby's name.
Luke and Lorelai shared a special moment when he gave her the crib and Lorelai asked if he would stay with her that night and make love to her. She wanted him to be close to her, but he turned her down and she left. She felt angry even though she knew she had no right. They weren't in a relationship; he had no obligation to sleep with her.
Lorelai couldn't take it anymore. She was scared and the one person she wanted to have comfort her was not an option. She needed to get away and that's exactly what she did. Lorelai booked herself into a hotel in Hartford and curled up on the bed. That's where she stayed all night.
Later on Sunday afternoon Lorelai booked out of the hotel and made her way home. It wasn't until she saw Sookie standing by her front door that she remembered that they had made plans to spend Saturday night together.
Lorelai: Hey
Sookie: Lorelai, where have you been? I've been so worried. You never came last night and you weren't answering your phones. I called everyone and nobody knew where you were.
Lorelai: I'm sorry Sook
Sookie: What happened?
Lorelai: I don't want to talk about it
Sookie: Lorelai?
Lorelai: Sookie everything is fine now I promise. Now I just want to go inside and sleep
Sookie: You've been crying
Lorelai: No I haven't
Sookie: How long have we known each other?
Lorelai: A really long time
Sookie: Exactly, so don't lie to me
Lorelai: Sookie, I……
Sookie: Does this have anything to do with Luke?
Lorelai: No, why would you say that?
Sookie: He said you got into an argument.
Lorelai; It wasn't an argument
Sookie: So you're not upset with him
Lorelai: No
Sookie: Don't lie to me
Lorelai: I'm not upset with him. I am a bit disappointed but not upset
Sookie: What happened?
Lorelai: It's between Luke and I Sook
Sookie: Where did you go Lorelai?
Lorelai: I needed some space, I needed to think so I spent the night at a hotel
Sookie: Are you sure you are ok, do you need to talk?
Lorelai: I need to speak to Luke at some point but I can't get up the courage
Sookie: Well then go inside, get the sleep you wanted and maybe you will feel up to talking to him then
Lorelai: Thanks Sookie. I'm sorry about last night
Sookie: Its ok, speak to you later
Lorelai: Bye Sook
Lorelai made her way inside and curled up on the couch thinking about how she was going to tell Luke that their baby was more than likely not going to be born. About 10 minutes later there was a knock at the door. Lorelai planned on ignoring it as she knew her eyes were red and swollen again and she really didn't feel like talking to anyone, but when she heard who it was she changed her mind.
Luke: Lorelai? Answer the door, Sookie told me you were home
Lorelai: Luke?
Luke: What's wrong? Where did you go?
Lorelai: Come on in Luke. We really need to talk
Luke: Ok
They made there way into the lounge and Luke was the first to sit. Lorelai waited back for a bit, then sat uncomfortably in front of him. She sat perched on the coffee table with her hands clenched tightly in her lap.
Luke: Lorelai what's going on. Please is everything ok?
Lorelai: No
Just admitting made Lorelai start crying again. She didn't think there could possibly be any more tears but there they were running slowly down her cheeks. She wiped them away furiously and tried to calm herself long enough to tell Luke what had happened.
Luke: Lorelai, you're starting to scare me
Lorelai: I'm sorry. Luke I'm so so sorry
Luke: Lorelai, you're not making any sense
Lorelai: I …… Luke I cant do this
Luke: Lorelai, what has all of this got to do with?
Lorelai: I need you to promise me something Luke? Promise me that no matter what I do or whatever happens that we will always be friends
Luke: Is this what that's about. Lorelai of course we will always be friends.
Lorelai: You promise that no matter what I do or how angry or upset you get with me, you will always be my friend. Do you promise?
Luke: Lorelai?
Lorelai: Luke I need you to promise before I tell you what's going on
Luke: Ok ok, I promise. I will always be here Lorelai. You and my child are the most important people in my life
Lorelai: You might just have to settle for me
Luke: What?
Lorelai: We might not get our child Luke
Luke: Lorelai what's going on, you're confusing me. We saw the doctor on Monday. He said everything was fine. Why are you talking like this?
Lorelai: Cause things change Luke. My stomach starting cramping on Friday so I went to go see Dr Shepard and he found something wrong with our baby Luke. Our baby is sick
Luke: How is this possible?
Lorelai: I don't know, but the baby is sick Luke, really really sick. The doctor said that there is only a 30 percent chance that he … that he will survive the duration of the pregnancy.
Luke: What?
Lorelai: I'm so sorry Luke
Luke: I …..
Lorelai: I don't know how this happened I don't know what I did wrong
Luke: You did nothing Lorelai, you have been so good through out the pregnancy
Lorelai: But it wasn't enough, I must have done something wrong
Luke: The baby will be fine Lorelai, you'll see. Ok?
Lorelai: Luke the doctor says…..
Luke: I don't care what the doctor says, our baby will be ok
Luke pulled Lorelai into his lap and held her tight. Her head was buried in his shoulder as she cried. Luke to had tears in his eyes. He didn't quite understand or believe what was going on, he made a mental note to phone the doctor and hear all of this from his mouth. He held Lorelai tighter trying to calm both her and himself down.
Luke: Everything will be ok, Lorelai I promise
Lorelai: Don't make promises you cant keep. Dr Shepard said everything would be up to our son from now on. There isn't anything we can do
Luke: Our son?
Lorelai: Yeah, we are having a boy. Dr Shepard let it slip by accident.
Luke: A boy…..wow
Lorelai: I'm sorry
Luke: Lorelai the last few months have been the best of my life. Don't be sorry for giving that to me
Lorelai: But….
Luke: Lorelai, just close your eyes ok
Lorelai did what she was told. She relaxed her body as much as she could under the circumstances. Her head lay lightly on his shoulder. Just as she was about to drift off to sleep, she opened her eyes with a new revelation.
Lorelai: What are we going to tell them?
Luke: What?
Lorelai: The town, Rory, Sookie, my parents
Luke: We tell Rory, Sookie and your parents nothing. There is no need to worry them with this and as for the town, if you would like them to know that we are expecting a baby then we tell them on Thursday as planned but if you don't then we will wait.
Lorelai: I wanted to tell them so badly
Luke: Then we will tell them
Lorelai: But what if he dies Luke?
Luke: Now I need you to promise me something
Lorelai: What?
Luke: You have to promise that there will be no more negative talking about my son. Is that clear?
Lorelai: But Luke….
Luke: I don't care what the doctor said or what statistic he gave you. I don't want our son to here you speaking negatively about him. Ok?
Lorelai: Ok
Luke: Promise?
Lorelai: I promise
Lorelai laid her head back down on Luke's shoulder. When she fell asleep, Luke scooped her up in his arms and carried her upstairs to bed. Instead of leaving her, Luke took of his shoes, hat and flannel shirt and climbed into the bed next to her. He pulled her closed to him and placed his big hand on the small bump of her stomach
Luke: your going to be ok my son, we will prove everyone wrong. Us Danes men are tough.
Luke banished every negative thing that came to mind and fell asleep thinking of all the wonderful times he and his son were going to have.
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