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A/N: Sorry for the terrible little delay. I got a computer, fixed the net and now I'm back. I have this fic finished, but will be posting it slow. I need some major feed back people! Review, let me know what you think.

Happy reading people.

Chapter 10: Mistake

I woke up again, startled and sweating. Ranger sat up next to me collecting me in his arms. I need to get these nightmares out of my head. I need something good. I turned to Ranger. His eyes were concerned. Not what I needed.

"You want to talk?" He asked.

"No." I said still looking at him. He stared back as if asking then what?

Then I found myself brushing his lips with mine. I pulled back and stared at him. Both of us surprised by what had just happened.

I leaned in again and gave him a more complete of a kiss. His arms around me tensed a little and I pulled back.

"You're playing with fire, Babe." He said the old familiar phrase.

"I know." I said and kissed him again.

I pulled back a little, loosening his arms around me. I began to pull off my tank but Ranger's hands took a hold of my wrist and stopped me. "I don't think this is a very good idea Steph."

"I do." He loosened his grips on my wrists but didn't move his hands away. I knew he wasn't sure about continuing so I chose for him. I slowly pulled off my tank and threw it to the floor. All I had on now were my boy short underwear.

He was looking down at me but not touching. Too far away.

I took his hand, put them on my breast and looked him in the eyes.

He just stared at me. His eyes a little sad, but I was just imagining that. Why would Ranger be sad? He's always wanting to get me into bed.

I moved closer to him and kissed him again, my lips lightly brushing against his. "It's okay." I whispered into his ear.

His hand on my breast began working, messaging them softly. He pushed me back on the bed and positioned himself over me.

He began kissing my neck and began moving down to my breasts. His hands tugged at my underwear, I raised my hips and he slipped them off. I spread my legs and he moved back up.

His lips were working again on my neck; his hand was moving closer to my dudah. All of the sudden I realized where it was going. I grabbed his wrist right when he was getting ready to slip a finger in.

He looked up at me.

"No." I said. I didn't want foreplay; I just wanted him inside. Just the sex, none of the love. "Just sex." I whispered to him.

His eyes looked a little hurt, but he moved his hand away and positioned himself at my entrance.

"Are you sure?" He asked in a whisper as he was getting ready to enter me.

"Yes." I whispered back.

He gently pushed in and waited. I nodded for him to move on and he began moving again. Setting a slow and gentle pace. He came in and out of me. I think he was trying not to hurt me, but he wasn't ineffective either.

When I was done he pulled out and went into the bathroom. A couple of seconds and I herd the flush and the running of the water. I was a little sorry that he couldn't enjoy the moment since we didn't use a condom, but then I'm not sure if I'm all that sorry.

I heard the water turn off but Ranger didn't come back to bed. I turned over and got ready to pretend I'm a sleep. I don't want to talk about it. I'm not sure anymore if that was a good idea. There was relief sure but now I'm not sure if I can stay here. I heard the door open and I closed my eyes and regulated my breathing.

Ranger slipped in next to me, I think he knew I wasn't a sleep but he didn't say anything. He pulled the covers over my shoulder and slipped an arm around my waist moving himself closer to me. His boxers were back on.

The Slayer was on top of me, I saw Ranger in the distant. He just stared at me; he gave me a sad look and then turned and walked away.

"Ranger!" I screamed to him. "Don't leave me." but he continued to walk away.

I was dreaming again.

"Shh… Babe, I'm here." Ranger was stroking my hair. I don't think he realized I was awake. "I love you, I won't leave you." I stiffened a little and he realized I was awake. Oh god! Was that Ranger telling me that he loved me? Sure he didn't realize I was awake, so does that mean something? I think I was ready for that panic attack so I concentrated on the breathing. Ranger's arm moved around to my waist and pulled me in gently.

I was okay again. He took my right hand and wove his fingers through mine, his thumb stroking my hand. Other than that he didn't move.

A/N: I realize she's kinda using him, but that's how it's going to have to be….

Iwant to discuss EOT with someone... anyone out there.