Note: This chapter was really difficult to write. I don't know why, but It just wouldn't work for me. Feedback is love; so let me know how you think it went.
And don't spaz out; the next chapter will be up in the next couple of days.

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Chapter 10

Settling down on her couch, Cameron sighed as she rubbed her temples. The rest of the day had been uneventful. House had avoided her all afternoon, and had even taken up to the clinic again after lunch.

Their conversation hadn't reached a decision. Cameron had been contemplating his words since they had spoken. Why did he say 'You'll be happy together?' Was there a meaning behind it?

Cameron groaned out loud and tugged a pillow closer to her. This was all exceptionally confusing. She didn't know how she felt or what she wanted to do.
Cameron smirked, knowing full well that that was a lie. She did know how she felt, and she knew exactly how she wanted to deal with the situation. She was hesitant, however, about being hurt. Mostly by House.

He was the most difficult human being on the planet to figure out. He said one thing, but meant another. He avoided her instead of dealing with the situation. After these past couple of days Cameron realised that maybe he did think something else.

Cameron reached for the phone and held it in her hands. Her other hand had Joe's cell phone number on it. She knew she had to do it. She knew she wanted to do it. And it took all the strength she had to press the 'on' button and dial the numbers.

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20 minutes later Cameron stood in her kitchen, pouring herself a glass of wine. Her mind traced back to the conversation she had with Joe 20 minutes previously, as she took a sip of the red wine. She was attempting to settle herself, attempting to make herself do what she knew she was going to have to.

The mobile rang 3 times when Joe's voice echoed into Cameron's ear. She took in a deep breath, willing herself not to just switch off the phone.

'Joe? It's me.' Cameron said, fiddling with the hem of her top.

'Hey there.' Joe replied.

'Um, can you come over? We need to talk.' Cameron said softly.

Joe paused. 'Sure. I'll be there in half an hour.'

'Ok. Bye.' Cameron replied, quickly switching off the phone and placing it on the couch beside her.

She shook her head and smirked. This was ridiculous. She was a grown woman, yet she was not assertive enough to tell Joe exactly what she wanted.

Cameron got up and walked into her bathroom, deciding against sitting around for the next half an hour going over what she was going to say. She needed a shower. Then maybe a drink.

A knock softly echoed through her apartment and Cameron's head snapped up towards it. She softly put down her wine glass and walked over to the door, slipping the lock and opening the door. Joe stood there, with an oddly blank look on his face.

'Hey.' He said, as Cameron let him in and shut the door behind him.

'Hi.' Cameron replied, walking around him and over to the couch. She sat down and looked up at him, gesturing for him to sit down next to her.

Joe did so, leaning forward and placing his hands together. 'You wanted to talk.' He said, looking up at her.

'I did,' Cameron replied.

She sighed and looked down at her clasped hands. 'I have been thinking. A lot. Especially over the past few days. About everything, not just about the situation. I -' Cameron looked down at her hands.

Joe looked up at her. 'You…'

Cameron looked back up. 'You and I can't do this. I could never really do this. Especially before…'

'What we did…or didn't do…it wasn't our fault.' Joe replied, grabbing one of her hands.

'You don't think what we did was wrong?' Cameron asked, looking up at him, her eyebrows creasing.

'Of course it was wrong then. But you can't help these things. We couldn't help these things.' Joe said, staring at her.

'You can help what happens though,' Cameron said softly, looking at his hand on her's. 'I can't,' She said, looking up at him again. 'I couldn't. I'm sorry.'

Joe stared at her for a moment before letting go of her hand and clasping his own together. They were both silent. Cameron was staring at her knees when Joe looked back at her.

'Does this have anything to do with your boss?' He asked quietly.

Cameron paused, closing her eyes and sighing. He deserved the truth. 'I don't know. It's about me. I haven't figured it out yet.' She replied.

Joe smirked softly and looked at her. He nodded and leant forward to kiss her cheek. Cameron sighed and closed her eyes, her mind swimming with repressed thoughts.

Joe stood up and walked to her door. As he opened it, he turned back around to face Cameron. 'I hope your happy with him, Ally. You deserve that much.'

Cameron's eyes prickled with tears as Joe walked out her door and shut it behind him. Happy. Was this really what she was? Was this really what she deserved?

Sinking back into her couch, Cameron wiped away the tears on her eyes. She felt better. Like what she did was the right decision. That House was the right decision. Cameron shook her head and smiled. It was what she wanted. It had been all along.

Looking at the clock, Cameron jumped up and grabbed her coat and car keys. She needed to do something about it now.
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