And
I stopped. I know, I know, it was stupid of me but somehow when I
looked at him I felt this pang of guilt hit me. I couldnt do it. It
would just be too much for me to carry. To have to go home and look
at Draco in the eye would just kill me. Still I didnt want anything
to be awkward between us.
"Ill be back" I said pulling
away, grabbing my clothes and hurrying away as if I was being chased
by some violent animal.
While I got dressed I could only think of
what couldve happened if I wouldve given in.
"Ready?"
Oliver asked, he sounded casual, like he was okay with the moment we
had just had.
"Yeah" I replied and grabbed my purse. I
havent had so much fun in such a long time I said as we walked to my
car. He was actually walking me to my car.
"Listen Ally, Im
sorry about you know-" I raised my hand to silence him.
"It
had to happen sometime. Its normal, we were once lovers" I said
trying to sound mature but I wanted to get in my car and drive away
to hide in my room like a lonely child.
"oh, right"
Oliver said scratching his head, which was a sign of nervousness.
"Ill see you around" He said oddly.
"Yeah, Im
going to be busy this month" I said quietly.
"Your
wedding?" I nodded. "Congratulations" He said, and I
could tell he meant it but it was breaking his heart.
"Bye"
I said kissing his cheek and getting into my car.
"Bye"
He said and stood there as I drove away.
I had to just smack
myself and feel sorry for myself. I could no longer hide it. I
already felt like I wanted Oliver and not Draco. Or could I love them
both? Was it possible to love two people? I shook my head and looked
back. I could still see Oliver standing there watching me.
"This
is just too much, too confusing "I said loudly and drove faster.
I drove so fast that I didnt see the stop.
"Crap" I
said and looked behind but when I looked back all I saw was the car
from the side coming straight at me. It hit with such force I grabbed
on to the wheel while my body moved around painfully. The belt was
already suffocating me as I tried to push my head back. Ow the car
went around in a whole circle before hitting a tree, thats the last
thing I saw
"What
do you mean by that?"I opened my eyes to see a girl standing
there with the doctor. Her arms were crossed and she looked angry. I
groaned and tried sitting up.
"Oh thank god" The girl
exclaimed and hugged me. I looked at her like she was psycho. Who the
hell was she? And where was I? I looked at her as if trying to find
some feature something to see if I knew her. "Why are you
looking at me like that?" The girl asked, she smiled.
"I
think she needs to rest for now" The older doctor said grabbing
the girl by the shoulders and dragging her out.
"But-"
"She needs to rest, we need to wait 72 hours before you can
see her, or anyone for that matter" The doctor said.
72
hours? What Im going to stay here for 3 days? This nasty hospital? I
didnt want that I shook my head and tried to talk but I couldnt. My
throat felt so dry that my whole jaw started hurting when I tried. I
let my head fall back on the pillow and closed my eyes
"Good
Morning" A young nurse smiled at me and started pushing the cart
thing and pushing the food towards me.
"Thanks, Im starving"
I said and started eating. The nurse smiled.
"Go ahead and
eat if you need anything just press the button" I nodded and
continued eating. 30 minutes later the door opened I was just staring
up at the ceiling.
"Im glad youre finally awake, Im going to
go and talk to your family, I will be back" I nodded.
Family?
I have Family? "Ally,- "I looked up to see a very handsome
guy with blonde hair and beautiful blue eyes.
" I had to
sneak in, Im so sorry this happened to you but everythings going to
be alright, the wedding will go on because I know the doctors are
wrong and, you love me" I looked at him and shook my head, who
the hell was he and wedding? what?
"Who are you, and, what
the hell are you talking about?"
"Ally, dont do this, I
love you, were going-" He grabbed my hand.
"Get away
from me" I snatched my hand back and started moving back please,
"I really dont know you, please...oh god whats going on, who am
I, what happened? "I shook my head and started panicking, whats
my name? Ally?
I pressed the button and glared at the guy
standing in front of me. "Ms. Ally" The nurse said looking
at the guy. "You need to leave cant you see youre scaring her?"
She pushed the guy out. He looked truly hurt. Maybe I do know
him
"Who is he? Do I know him?" I asked the nurse who
was already pushing me down.
"Rest,
the doctor will be back to talk to you" I stayed still.
When
the door opened again I sat up instantly. "Alright, Im Doctor
Stevens, and Im going to sit down and trying to explain what
happened, please dont panic" I nodded and watched as the doctor
sat down right next to me.
" You had an accident, you
crashed. You were brought here four days ago with head injuries and
you had a few broken ribs, they gave you a potion for that. The head
injuries were very severe. Im sorry Alexia, the hit to the head
caused you to loose your memory" I blinked. Memory? Lost my
memory? Oh god
"am I never going to-"
"You
will, we believe this is temporary, there isnt a potion that can
change this. All I know is that this can be temporary or...
permanently." I sat up straighter.
"What if I never
remember anything? I demand to see my family, I need them to re-tell
me everything, I cannot live my life without remembering "I said
angrily.
"Calm down Alexia, I will tell your grandfather
Albus Dumbledore to come and talk to you but I need you to calm"
"I am calm" I replied crossing my arms.
"Grandpa?"
The man nodded and closed the door behind him.
"Im sorry"
He sad and touched my hand, his touch felt warm, I already trusted
him. My grandfather, it sounded weird to me, foreign almost.
"Tell
me everything, I need to know about my life" I said
quickly.
"Now, Alexia, calm down, I will tell your cousin
Stacie to come and talk to you, but I think you should rest, we all
need to rest. I know this is hard for you, its hard for us all but
youre going to be alright, just stay calm" He said
smiling.
"okay" I whispered. But I really couldnt see
how it was possible that he wanted me to calm down when I was truly
panicking.
"We'll all be back tomorrow, now you need your
rest, I would ask one of us to stay but I think its best that you
stay alone" I nodded, he leaned and kissed my forehead."
Youre going to be alright, dont worry"
I sure hope so.
I
dont know for how long I laid there trying to remember whatever it
was that I was supposed to remember, I wished I could at least
remember where the hell I was headed when I crashed or why in the
hell I even crashed.
The morning after that the same man who was
in fact my grandfather arrived but he only spoke a little saying that
the doctor had asked him to leave me alone for at least a week, which
meant I would stay in that damned hospital for a week. The doctor
even said he had hopes that my memory would come back because my case
was rare. So for 3 days I stayed in the nasty room reading some
romance novel that the nurse, Laura, had brought me from her house.
It wasnt until night that I received my first visitor in three days.
I looked at him as he entered. He was tall and handsome. Tall,
fit like hell and his brown eyes shined so beautifully I could only
stare at him. He was acting sneaky.
"I had to sneak in here"
He said and closed the door.
I couldnt understand why it was that
I wasnt panicking. I had totally flipped when the other guy had come
in but with this guy, who was clearly older than the other guy, I
felt okay with almost like I knew him but really didnt remember. The
guy came and sat next to me.
"I heard about your condition,
Im Oliver Wood, Im not sure I should tell you how we know each other"
He said looking at me. Something about the way he looked at me made
my stomach flip. I looked at him and looked at him and looked at him
some more.
"Do I have something on my face?" He asked, I
looked at him and all of a sudden a vision appeared in my head.
A
vision of this guy standing near as I drove grabbing on to the wheel,
I was still looking back when I felt the impact of the crash?
"Ally?"
I was breathing quickly.
"I know you, I mean, I dont really
but you, you were there before the accident...you were standing as I
drove away" His eyes widened.
"Yeah, wait, you were
looking at me?"
"I dont know, I looked at you then
turned around and then drove faster and then..." I stopped and
closed my eyes.
"This was my fault" Oliver, I think,
said shaking his head, I could tell he felt guilty.
"No, I
dont think so I said, I dont even know why" I said it. I was
even holding on to his hand. I looked at him and dropped his hand
while blushing.
"Please, I need to know about you, about how
we know each other "I said with a pleading look.
"Its
too hard confusing, I dont think I should tell you, but I can tell
you this, I love you, Ally "I blinked and swallowed. Oliver,
this hot guy with chocolate brown eyes was in love with me? I opened
my mouth to say something but I shut it again.
There was something
so entrancing about him, and the way he had said that he loved me
with such feeling was making me feel nervous shaky and flushed.
"I-"
The door opened and in stepped the nurse.
"What are you doing
in here, how in the world did you get in here?" Laura said
clearly angry.
"I had to see her" Oliver said standing
up.
"Please get out, no one can see her," I looked at
the guy as he got dragged out of the room.
"Wait-" He
said and looked at me.
"W-"But before I could say wait,
let him stay , the nurse had dragged him out closing the door behind
her and leaving me with a confused, warm feeling.
