The
next day around noon I opened the door to find Draco with Red roses
in hand. He hadnt called me the day before.
"Hi" He said
and leaned down to kiss me.
"We need to talk"
"About
what?" He said as he entered and handed me the flowers.
It
was then I couldnt help but smile. I mightve not remember much but I
knew for a fact that I had always kept all my anger out in fear of
being seen the wrong way. I had always been known as sweet Ally, and
I was sweet but even the sweetest person has an angry side. And with
Draco standing there and all the drama in my head I couldnt help but
break my anger free. I took the flowers and threw them on the floor.
"I dont want your flowers, I want you to tell me why it is
that you think the wedding should go on and I should go on planning
everything, you even sent your mother to help me, I dont need her
help, and another thing, the wedding is off until I remember
everything, you got that?" Dracos eyebrows shut up to his
forehead. He stood back and looked at me.
"You got that? He
was quiet. Or it could just be off forever" I said in anger.
"Alright, but Ally you need to calm down"
"Dont
tell me to calm down, Im sick and tired of every one telling me to
calm myself when I dont need to be calm"
"Ally, maybe
youre not feeling good-"
"Im feeling fine, why is it
that you think I dont feel good? Because for once Im actually saying
something to you? Because for once, Im speaking for myself? You know
I never wanted to marry you, not before, and I did a few days ago but
now, you acting like this, I dont think I want this to go on" I
said louder this time. My own voice sounded like a loud echo in my
ears.
"Are you calling the wedding off?"
"I
dont know, I just need to be alone, okay?" Draco nodded and
walked away. I had to sigh and feel proud of myself. I was literally
clapping in my head. For once I was free, I was finally letting the
anger out, I finally said what I wanted with out thinking about it. I
felt so free. I packed some things that afternoon and made my way to
a cheap hotel where I could stay and stayed there. I felt so peaceful
just being by myself. I was away from everything and everyone. Some
part of me felt like this is what I shouldve done way before. To run
away and think all by myself. What if I left? Just for a month? Would
things change? This was good. I would get my memories back and time
to think about them as well. Or at least I hoped so. There was a
little part of me that felt that once I remembered things could get
worse. Sometimes it was better not to remember things that didnt
really help.
Dear: Stacie Im going to be staying here, I cant tell you where, for as long as I need. Please dont tell anyone that Ive written. No one. Im not sure why Ive decided to just stay here but I think it will do me good to be alone for a while. I sure hope that Harry gets out soon so you two can be together, please tell my grandfather that Im fine, just tell him that. Draco doesnt need to know this either, hes one of the reasons I ran away. I sure hope he doesnt came looking for me. I hope to see you soon.
Love always, Ally.
1
month later
Stacie,
Im glad you and Harry are better. Ive
regained my memories. Now I need to sort my feelings out. Dont worry
Im not going to spend a long time thinking about it. In fact, Im
coming home, this time, to make the right decisions.
I
sat and leaned against the window, I was on my way back home on a
cab. Im not even sure why it was I was doing such muggle things.
Maybe it was because I was nervous as I sat there about going back to
see Draco. There was one thing that I was sure of, he would be really
mad. We wouldve been married by now if I hadnt had that accident. But
now that I remember things I just want to get my feelings straight.
Screw my father, and Im sorry but my mother died and I just know she
wished me to be happy. So thats what Im going to do. Search for my
happiness before it goes away.
Maybe I should stop and have
coffee or something, to calm my self down.
I paid the cab driver
and got down I was wearing a black coat and a scarf since it was kind
of cold. The sun was already setting down. I entered the small caf
and smelled the sweet smell of hot cocoa. I smiled ordered a hot
cocoa and drank as I looked out the glass windows and into the city.
I could see my reflection in the mirror. I turned finished drinking
and walked out. I walked until my legs couldnt take it anymore and
apparated home.
"Ally!" I
turned to see Stacie running over to me and hugging me.
"Alexia,
oh thank god" My grandfather came rushing to my side and hugging
me. I was glad they were the only ones that were home. I needed some
sleep before dealing with Draco. Not that I knew what it was that I
wanted to do with the situation.
"Im so glad you came back,
you dont know how much youve missed" I smiled and sat down on
the couch. My nose felt too cold so I had to cover it with my
nose.
"Im glad too, theres no place like home"
"I
was worried about you" My grandfather said sitting down next to
me and looking serious.
"I know, Im sorry, I just needed-"
"I know, Im glad you did because I can already tell that you
are ready to do what you want" I smiled, how did he know?
"Omg,
we have so much to talk about" Stacie said her cheeks were
flushed and I had a feeling she had good news.
"Im going to
leave you two to talk, Ill be back so we can have dinner in an hour
or two" I kissed his cheek and motioned for Stacie to sit. She
sat and started smiling like there was no tomorrow. It made me smile
too, it was a bit contagious. I mean havent you ever had a friend
laugh at something really stupid but you still laugh cause she seems
to be enjoying it? Thats how I felt.
"Okay tell me before you
die from smiling too much? "She giggled.
"Look"
She flashed her hand and waved her hand furiously, she had on a ring,
the prettiest ring ever.
"Im getting married!" I jumped
from the couch and had to giggle too. I mean, Stacie was getting
married, it was a big thing. I couldnt help but feel happy for
her.
"I cant believe it. My little Stacies all grown up! "I
smiled and hugged her.
"I know, Harry proposed and it was the
sweetest thing ever"
"I know, so when are we going to
go look for the dress?"
"After we find yours, or did
you forget?" I groaned.
"Why did you have to remind me?"
"Sorry but Dracos been really depressed lately. He comes
every day and asks if youre back"
"I know, Im sorry
because I just left I feel like crap, but I had to" Stacie
nodded and patted my shoulder.
"Dont worry, hell forgive you"
"I know that, its just that-"
"What?"
"Well I had time to think and Im not sure if-"
"I
get it, you dont love him, you never have, I just dont understand why
you even thought you had fallen in love with him. You werent fooling
anyone you know? I even think Draco knew this"
"I know,
I have to talk to him but not right now, tomorrow "She smiled
and headed for the kitchen.
"Im going to help set up, why
dont you go take a shower and well talk after dinner?"
"Do
I stink that bad?"
"What?"
"Well who said
I needed a shower?"
"Oh"
"So I do?"
"No, just go"
"Fine mother"
"Okay"
I laughed and walked up the steps. I didnt get too far because
standing at the top of the stairs was a man that had always scared me
from the first day I had seen him. And by the look on his face I just
knew it couldnt be good
