Author's Note: ... The Final chapter of The Cat Reaper... well yes there will be a part 2.. but... it feels strange to know that this is like the last chapter that I am going to put into THIS part of the story. After this chapter is updated. Part one will be complete.. Well let's get start! n.n
†he Ça† Reaper
The Final Chapter: The Aftermath: Kyou
Sometimes I wondered... Why was I a shinigami? Why was I different? Why did Ren choose me to be her errand boy? I could not answer these by myself, however. There were a lot of people I hated. Ren.. her bloody organization.. Yuki... but most of all... the person I hated the most... was.. Myself.
Because I killed people for a living.
Because I betrayed their trust.
Because I couldn't tell Yuki off when he told me to leave.
And because... I left her alone... without any explaination of why I was leaving.
I supposed you can say that perhaps there was a gap growing between us. Yet she still tried to reach out to me.. Even without the words I knew... Her soul pulled at me. Tohru. Why does that name make my blood boil? Why? Is it because that bastard forced me to leave? Is it because she haunts my memory? Her voice haunts my dreams. Her face haunts my very soul.
I walked through the streets, followed by Yumi. I didn't technically hate her. But I didn't technically like her either. She got into my way many times too. And she wouldn't shut up about the 3 assignments Ren gave us about Hiro, Rin, and Hanajima... why Hanajima? I wondered alot. Hiro was snotty and annoying, Rin disliked me so I naturally hated her back, Hanajima was creepy... But I would never want to kill them!
There was one person I missed more than anything in the world. Tohru.. My Tohru.. But I couldn't trust myself with her. I just couldn't. What I was afraid of was... What if she was going to be a target one day? Even so.. I would have rather it be another shinigami. Not me... I would never be able to do it, myself. But neither would I let someone else do it. I didn't want to kill anyone in my family. Now, after what I had wished for before this chaos began, I wouldn't even wish it apun Yuki. Or Akito fro that matter.
I stealthy snuck away from Yumi. Without her realising my dissapearance. I took another path. My eyes downcast. Thinking about what I had lost. I then heard some very familiar voices and looked up from the sidewalk. Yuki, Uotani, Hanajima, and.. Tohru.. were across the street talking to eachother. Tohru had stopped behind them, and I could see her eyes slowly moving to meet my own. Our gaze met briefly. Her eyes filled with sadness.
Til Yuki grabbed her hand and glared at me. I only glared back. I watched as they slowly went away, Tohru's gaze never leaving mine. And we lost sight of eachother vaguely in the crowd. As the group rounded a corner I began to follow. Just once more had I wanted to see her face.. Her smile.. Which I had thought I wouldn't see.
After what seemed like ages I arrived at a concert hall. I stopped looking at the stage. Tohru was singing.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
I saw her gaze then fall to me in half surprise. I stared right back longingly, listening to her words.. Her message.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yea.
They're swept away and nothing is what is seems,
the feeling of belonging to your dreams.
I listened intently. Her message was obvious, and it made me sad.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
I could my heart pulling itself apart. I wanted to cry out her name, but my voice wouldn't let me.
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
I closed my eyes momentarily then re-opened.. Memories of our past together playing. One at a time, and in the middle of them, was Tohru up there singing that song...
And there are voices
that want to be heard.
So much to mention
but you can't find the words.
There were so many voices telling me things. So many words that I wanted to say to her, but never could.
The scent of magic,
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind.
The memories of me remembering the day we met. When she learned our secret after transforming me into a cat.
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
There was something I never got to tell her...
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye.
Something I wanted to badly to tell her...
Listen to your heart
when he's calling for you.
Listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do.
Something I needed to tell her...
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why,
but listen to your heart
before...
At her pause (That I knew was suppose to be there). I thought about it. That thing that I wanted to tell her was.
you.. tell him goodbye...
As her song ended, she looked at the gazes of her friends, then looked at me sadly, and we both knew the answer.
I had always.. wanted to tell her... Since the day i left... I wanetd to say.. Goodbye..
But I had something else I needed to tell her. As she left the stage I went toward it and slowly climbed onto it. My eyes on Yuki for a momentary glare and then I grabbed the mic and felt the music start.
It was the song "Iris" that I heard by Goo Goo Dolls.
I opened my breifly closed eyes.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
My eyes watched her the whole time, i watched her eyes slowly widening in realization.
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
She was what made me complete. Without her...
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
She was the only person who knew me at all.. she helped me..
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
She had cried the day I left, and I tried to fight myself, trying not to cry as I did.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
During the long instrumental. I had memories.
Flashback
Shishou pulled off my bracelet and my eyes widened, I could see Tohru there, watching with worried eyes. I shouted as my eyes narrowed to slits. " DON'T LOOK AT ME!" Then I felt the changes begin, begging the transformation to stop, but it wouldn't. My bones crunched as they mutated and I could smell the rotting flesh taht was being burned to dark green.
After I finished transforming, I took off running as I heard Tohru whispering. "Kyou..". It was all over, I thought.. All over! My mother kept telling me lies. Shishou betrayed me.
Tohru came to me later, telling me she was frightened. But she wanted us to stay together... I froze... And I felt myself becoming normal again. I told her it was alright to be afraid... She didn't have to love that form of mine.. I wrapped my eyes around her form, she was crying. I held her in a warm and gentle embrace, and her tears fell, rippling the water.
End Flashback
I smiled at the memory. And looked at her smiling with sad eyes and starting singing again.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
There was something I was trying to tell her...
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Something I really needed to tell her...
I just want you to know who I am
Something that she should know..
I just want you to know who I am
Something she had taught me to do... That without her I would have never been able to do..
I just want you to know who I am
I could see tears starting to flow in her eyes as she looked back at me... She knew the message... That I.. really... truly... loved her..
I slowly smiled at her, and she smiled back. We came to a realization, then it wasn't truly the end..And even if we couldn't be together like we both wanted. The love we felt for eachother..? Is what would keep us in eachother's hearts... Forever..
Forever.. I thought.
The End
A/N: The end of The Cat Reaper part one... it's over... but dont worry.. I will make a part two...
To be... continued..?