Alone…
By: Sakura Kusabana
A Card Captor Sakura Fanfiction
Prologue
As a young girl stood outside on a balcony gazing out into the darkness, drowning in the view, watching it intensely. The little girl was about seven years old and yet she had the eyes of an adult. Her mind was filled with questions and thoughts that haunted her during the day and during the night.
She could still remember her loving parents holding her telling her that everything will be alright and that they'll always be there for you. She shook her head as small tears escaped her emerald green eyes, tugging at her long tresses of auburn hair in despair shaking her head angrily.
'Liars, Your liars.' sobbed the girl as she stood their crying softly. She knew it all too well. Yet she always wondered just slightly if there was a chance, if there was actually a small hint of hope that they would come and get her. As she walked back inside into her room collapsing into a plush chair clutching onto a pillow, hugging it.
'Why did they leave me, otou-san, oka-san?' This was one of the many questions that she asked herself over and over every single night of her life.
'We'll be back soon. We promise.' Was what her parents said to assure her, but it turned out to be ironic. Instead of helping her, it tore her apart slowly, echoing in her mind continuously like a broken record.
'You lied… You broke your promise…" sobbed the little girl. There were sometimes when she wondered, was it because of her they left?
'Was I not pretty enough? Is it because I'm not cute? Is it because I'm not as smart as the other kids? Or is it because I'm not athletic at all? Was it because I'm not perfect at all? Or is it just because I'm not good enough for you' These were the simple questions that tortured her throughout the light time and the dark time. She never could find out the answer, and that was the reason why she cried all the time.
The little girl was all alone, without a mother, nor a father. All she had was herself and she hated it. Being alone made her feel sad and depressed, it scared her. This feeling of being scared, being weak. Just being not strong.
She knew her parents had to go, and that where they were going they couldn't look after her. Her father was a famous archaeologists that loved their jobs a lot but it was too dangerous for a little girl to be there. Her mother was a famous modelthat was popular throughout the world, but she didn't have the time to look after her. So they just left her there, sending her money ever month, making her being independent. She was living every kids dream, she could do whatever she wanted and yet she didn't feel it. No she wasn't happy but instead depressed, feeling unloved.
What she really wanted was for her parents to be their. To hug her when she had a bad dream. To re-assure her that she will be okay. To tell her that they loved her. To push her on the swing and give her a kiss goodnight. Yet she never told them that, being afraid that they would tell her they didn't love her. She just sat their in the dark crying and thinking.
'Maybe they'll come back home if I was prettier. Maybe they'll come back if I was smarter. Maybe they'll come back if I was athletic. Maybe just maybe they'll come back if I was perfect.' thought the little girl.
'I need to be perfect. I need to be perfect. I need to be perfect…' was what the little girl though all the time. She thought that she needed to be perfect, she wanted to be perfect and maybe. Just maybe they'll come back and love her.
To be honest the one thing she only really wanted was to be loved and to be strong. The little girl was just plain lonely. She was just scared. She was just alone…
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Sakura Kusabana