"Thanks
for leaving me all alone!" Stacie said as I entered. She
immediately stopped and looked at me with curious eyes.
"What?"
I asked and sat back in my bed.
"That look on your face, you
did something, oh...I know" She came and sat next to me. "You
little-"
"What are you talking about?" I asked
pretending not to know but it was hard not to smile.
"How was
it?"
"He's getting married" I said trying to
change the subject.
"What?"
"Olivers going to
marry Tracy real soon" I said quietly.
"After what
happened between you, there is no way"
"I asked him to,
sort of"
"What do you mean by you asked him to, are you
crazy?"
"Shes sick, Stacie, there are a lot of things
you dont know, just dont worry about it, Im okay with it" I said
trying to convince myself that I was okay with it.
"You sound
like youre trying to convince yourself but sooner or later when you
realize you have actually lost him for real youre going to regret it"
This is why you should never let someone enter your life and
learn everything about you! Trust me it sucks, they know everything
you cant even lie to them.
"Shut up, Stacie" I said and
shook my head.
"Fine, but tell me how was it?" She
smiled mischeviously.
"Stacie!" I said and blushed, it
was embarrassing to talk about it.
"Oh come on, please!"
I smiled and laughed.
"Ok, but you cant tell anyone" I
smiled and told her everything, well not everything but I told her,
that it had been the most beautiful thing in the world. And sure it
was a sin, since were both supposed to marry other people but it was
the Sweetest Sin.
"Oh, wow, it truly sounds magical" She
said and sighed.
"Come on, Im hungry" I said and got up
from the bed.
"Fine, but now Ill never be able to look at
Oliver the same way" She said.
"Oh trust me, I wont
either"
As we entered the Great Hall I realized that Tracy
was sitting next to Oliver at the teacher table. She waved and
smiled. I waved back but I felt a pang of guiltness as I sat down.
I
was half way done eating when Tracy approached me.
"Ally, how
are you?" She said and smiled.
"Im good, how about
you?"
"Im good. I was wondering if you wanted to take a
walk with me after youre done eating of course" I nodded and
stood.
"Im done" I said and looked at Stacie, "Ill
see you back in the common room."
"Yeah, leave me alone
why dont you" She murmured.
"Im glad youre ok with it"
I replied sarcastically and followed Tracy.
"I wanted to
tell you that Im thankful for your support for understanding me"
She said as we sat down outside.
"Dont worry, Tracy, Im sure
Oliver-"
"Oliver loves you and dont you forget that"
She said quietly and I saw a small tear fall down her eyes. "I
remember when we first started dating, it was really the best day of
my life. I always pretended that Oliver loved me but I always knew he
didnt, not the way I love him anyway. He never loved me like that, he
was always a friend, and you know him, Oliver is the nicest most
wonderful person Ive ever met. He deserves to be happy, Im thinking I
shouldve never asked him to do such a thing"
"No, you
dont understand, he does-"
"He doesnt, Ally, I should
just-"
"Please dont, give him time, hell proof to you
that he does want to marry you. Youre a great person, I havent known
you for a long time but I know youre a great person and Oliver will
love you, hell try, I know it"
"You really think that
he can love me?" I nodded feeling that I wouldnt be able to take
it much longer, my heart was broken, for sure, but my throat was
aching even more, and yet I couldnt feel mad at Tracy or sorry for
her, I just felt like I was doing the right thing, but damn did the
right thing hurt!
"Im sure he will, Tracy, love grows more
and more once you learn more about that certain person"
"Tell
me, how did you and Oliver, you know"
"Im not sure if
thats such-"
"Please"
She rested her head on
her elbow and looked at me. In the dark of the night and everything
she looked young and full of life, I wished I couldve given her life
back.
"Tracy, I...ok...well, it was weird really. I had never
been in love until I saw Oliver. The first time I saw him I couldnt
take my mind off him. I never, not once, did I think that he even
knew I was alive. It wasnt until we became friends that I realized I
was falling for him. At the same time I found out that Im bethroed to
Draco Malfoy, but that really doesnt matter. I didnt know that Oliver
felt the same way until I got hurt during a quidditch game and he
confessed how he felt, he thought I was still uncouncious, but I
heard every word and from then on, our love kept growing. Weve had a
lot of hard times."
"Im sorry, that I had to come and
ruin everything" I wanted to say No you didnt but the truth was
she had.
"Stacie, shes my cousin, and I would always stay up
late and talk about things, like when we fell in love and stuff, and
one tight we were talking and we both came up with a rule, sort of
thing. Oliver is one rule, he truly is. We both said that if a love
didnt work out then it wasnt meant to be and thats what I think about
this, it just wasnt meant to be, but life goes on "I said and
laid back down.
"You are very mature for your age, you know
that?" I looked at her and nodded.
"Some times, not
always" I replied and chuckled she chuckled too and smiled.
"Now
I know why Oliver fell in love with you. Youre not only very pretty,
nice, and very smart, and Im sure youre very other things"
"I
think its time we head inside" I said and brushed off the grass
that was sticking to my pants.
"Thank you, for talking to me
without hesitating, Im glad you trusted me" She said and then
she hugged me, real tight.
"Some day your sacrifice will be
repaid, Ally "I sighed and nodded, sacrifice? She had the right
idea, I was making the biggest sacrifice in my life by giving up my
real love to someone else and marrying someone that I had no feelings
for. That night as I slept I kept feeling the touch of Olivers hands
on my body, the way he had made love to me, everything, It was hard
for me to get over it because it would probably be the last time that
I would feel his body so close to his.
