"Im going to the library "I said and pulled my hair up into a ponytail. Stacie shifted in her bed and groaned.
"Ok, Hermione"
I was wondering if she was teasing me or if she was too sleepy to even notice that I was definitely not Hermione. I frowned and made my way to the library. I wanted to find something interesting to read, something to keep my mind off Oliver, but god was making it hard, trust me, I know why I say this.
"Hello "The librarian, whos name I didnt even know said and smiled. I think she was just happy that there was someone besides Hermione who visited the library.
"Hi" I said and began searching through the aisles until I found the romance section. I know, I know, not exactly the best way to try and forget a love but who could blame me? I was way too deep in. Now that I thought about it I felt like an alien. Most people my age were supposed to worry about their hair and make up and stuff like, does my butt look big and have some fun relationship, not something so deep and sad like my story, but I didnt regret it. I never could. I never would.

This sounds good, I thought to myself as I picked up a copy of, can you guess, Romeo and Juliet. Everyone knows this story and if they dont then they really need to get out and go to the nearest library.
I think Ill read this, I said to myself and tucked the book under my arm. "Ally?" I turned to see, none other than, Oliver who was standing there looking handsome, like always. This was so unfair, here I was trying to forget Oliver and I have to run into him.
"Oliver, what are you doing here?"
"Tracy, asked me to come look for a book. She wants to read-...the one you have under your arm"
Huh, it looked like we both wanted the same thing, and I wasnt talking about the book. "Oh, heres another copy" I said and handed the book to him, Our fingers brushed which caused memories of that night pass through my head. I looked away immediately.
I can do this, I can do this. Okay I cant
"Ally I think we, meaning Tracy, you and I should talk-"
"No, Oliver, please, we talked yesterday"
"She told me, everything, you convinced her that I want to marry her" He walked toward me, leaving little space for me to think or breathe.
"You should see the look she gets when she talks about you, youre her everything" I said quietly and stood back,
"And youre my everything" He whispered.
I wanted to cry and tell him that he was my everything but I couldnt.
You're not making this easy for me, cant you see Im ready to cry?
"Oh, please, Oliver, I dont want to talk anymore, I know that what happened between us was very special, it will always be, but now its time to see the real world, youre getting married and Im getting married, I want to make sure that you know that once Tracy leaves and we get back to school and stuff I dont want to talk to you, ever again, I think you know why and I dont want any excuses, for your sake, for mine and for Tracys. We cant talk anymore" I said and swallowed my tears.
"Ally,-"
"Please" I said in a begging tone since my voice was squeaky.
"Ill never forget that night, Ally, do you understand?" I nodded and stepped back but there was nowhere else to go. Oliver took this chance to cup my face and kiss me. That was the last kiss he gave me.
"Ill always love you, Oliver, always, I might marry someone else and love them but youll always be my first love "I said quietly and touched my lips. I wanted to keep that feeling, to keep the feeling of his lips on mine.
"Bye" I whispered and kissed his cheek.
"Bye" I quickly wiped my tears before he could see them and gave him a weak smile.
"Im proud of you for doing the right thing" I began walking away with Romeo and Juliet in my hand. Maybe in heaven they re-united. Maybe Oliver and I would re-unite once we died. Stop thinking! I demanded myself and ran down the steps, I fell but this time there wasnt a hand waiting for me, there was only quietness and loneliness as I made my way up.

"It was great meeting you, Tracy" I said and sniffed.
Im not going to cry, not going to cry, must not cry. She smiled and hugged me. Oliver was standing not too far watching the whole thing, while Stacie was standing next to him watching too. I think she was just curious, or maybe she couldnt believe that I was actually doing this.
"Ill never be ever to thank you enough for what youve done" She whispered so that Oliver couldnt hear. I think he already knew what Tracy was saying. My heart was beating so fast because here I was. This was my last chance to take it back to tell her that as much as I felt sorry for her I couldnt let Oliver go because I loved him. Oliver looked at me, and for a second I thought I saw the same feeling as he winked.
"Tracy,-" I stopped, I cant.
"Im sure youll make him happy" I said and closed my eyes real tight so the tears wouldnt fall down. I will She replied and got inside the carriage. I stepped back and next to Stacie.
"What was that all about?" She asked as Oliver hugged her. He didnt kiss her, she didnt even attempt to. She respected me and that made me feel like I had done the right thing.
"Nothing, Tracy," nothing There are some things that are meant to stay secrets and this one was one of them. I trusted Tracy, dont get me wrong, but this, this was something I wanted to keep just as mine, no one elses just between the three of us. And that was the way I wanted it.