There were only 3 weeks left of school when I realized that there was a small chance that I could fall for Draco. I found out the day that we, meaning Harry, Stacie and Hermione, Ron, Draco and I decided to hang out and play quidditch. If youre wondering how I got through school and Oliver? Well Oliver and I didnt talk anymore, I didnt try to talk to him and he didnt either, he became distant, he acted strict and cold around me, and slowly I realized it was for the best.

"Okay so lets just play" Stacie said when she saw Harry and Ron glaring at Draco. Draco wasnt glaring though he just wanted to play with me.

"Ok," I replied and grabbed Draco by the arm. "Lets go play by our selves" I said and hurried away from them.

"Ok, miss-best-keeper, lets see what youve got" I smirked at him in a playful way, it was something I did often now, I knew him like the back of my hand, Draco I mean, I had gotten to know him for over 4 months now. Now I know what my aunt meant when she told me that some people can act like something and be something totally different. Dracos one of those people.

"Youre going to wish you never" said that I said and zoomed right next to him. He smiled and snatched the quaffle from under my arm.

"Hey! You cheated"

"I used my charming smile to get you to hand over the ball" He said and smiled. Charming smile made me think of something. Oliver. I looked away from him so that wouldnt see my expression change. He knew me now, he knew me so well it was hard to hide anything from him.

"Lets play fair and square" I said screaming loudly and pushed him from side to side. He swayed on his broom and laughed along with me.
I can get used to this, I have to look at it from a good side, I can fall for him, I can.
"Ouch" I said when Draco accidentally hit me with the quaffle and rubbed the side of my leg.

"Sorry, are you ok?" He said and came over to me. I was sitting on the grass rubbing my leg. It didnt hurt but I was tired.

"Yeah, Im fine" I replied and looked up to realize that it was really late now.

"You dont really seem so good, do you want me to take you to the hospital wing?" I shook my head quickly.

"No thank you" I said and started to stand up only to realize that my leg hurt a lot, I would probably have a huge bruise the next day.

"Im ok, do you know what time it is, I mean everyone left, I think its dinner time"

"Im hungry, are you?" I nodded and pushed my hair back.

"Lets go get dinner" He said and smiled.

"Ok but youre going to have to help me a little" I said a bit embarrassed. I didnt like looking like I was weak.

"My pleasure" He said smiling and picked me up. I was actually planning to lean against him. I never thought he would pick me up bridal style and take me to the Great Hall and all.

"Are you sure this is a good idea?" I said as I placed my arms around his neck. I could tell he wasnt struggling, which was a good sign.

"Who cares, Im hungry" I chuckled as we entered. Everyone stopped to look at us.

"Uh, Draco, everyone is staring at us" I said and tried not to look over to the teachers table. I didnt want to see if Oliver was here. So I didnt. I just looked at Draco the whole time as he led me to the table and sat next to me. Not the Slytherin table, the Gryffindor table. Everyone gasped.

"What?" Draco asked looking at me.

"I guess theyre shocked"

"We have a reason to dont you think? Who invited you anyway?" Ron said rudely.

"Ron!" Hermione said looking at me apologetically.

"I invited him, Ron, do you have a problem with that?" Hermione, Ron, Stacie and Harry, I think even Draco, raised their eyebrows at me. I couldnt believe it either. Here I was sticking up for Malfoy, and I could see Oliver listening and watching the whole thing from where he sat. They were quiet for a long time.

"what?" I asked when I couldnt stand it anymore.

"Did she-"

"I cant believe it" Stacie said looking at me like I was from outer space

"Well, I, uh-" Hermione and Ron both looked at me and shook their heads.

"Were not even going to say anything" Ron said. They were making me feel like I was a back stabber. I bit my lip and looked over at Draco.

"Do you want to go sit at my table, since I can clearly see Im not welcomed here"

"No, Im not very hungry anymore, I think Im just going to go to sleep" I said looking at Stacie. She was ignoring me. I looked at Hermione but she too was ignoring me. I couldnt believe it. I sighed loudly and took off with out even saying good bye to Draco.

"Ally!" I turned and ran again. Draco was following me. I could feel his steps getting closer and closer. I stopped and waited for him.

"What?" I said a bit rudely. I hadnt meant for it to come out so bad it was just that I was mad. I thought they would understand that I was desperately trying to forget Oliver and trying to fall for the guy that I would be marrying in the near future and yet they had just ignored me. It made me feel bad, now I no longer had friends, except for Draco.

"Im sorry, I think it was my fault that they were mad, next time Ill just sit in my table" I covered my face and pushed myself against him.
He sensed that I needed him and put his arms around me protectively.

"It wasnt your fault. Im sorry because-"

"Its okay" he whispered back. Why cant I love you? Why do I have to love a guy who is going to marry a wonderful girl that I think is a great human? When did my life get so out of control?
I couldnt even be around the guy I love and gave my virginity to. My life wasnt what I wanted it to be. In many ways I felt like it had been all my fathers fault. He had asked for me to come this way in the first place.

"You should get some sleep" He said and looked at me.

"Kiss me" I whispered loudly, if thats even possible. He smiled tenderly at me and kissed me. Once we broke away I breathed out in relief. I felt okay with Draco. He wasnt bad at all. He wasnt Oliver. But he was Draco and that was good enough for me. I looked away to see Oliver standing a few feet away nodding at me. he was nodding at me in approval and it only made me close my eyes to keep the tears from coming because behind his nod I could see his watery eyes.
Its hurting me too, Oliver, but its the way it has to be.
I swallowed and let out a small whimper.
"Ally," Draco broke the hug and looked at me. Whats wrong, he was obviously not looking at the same person I was

"Nothing" I whispered and dug my face in his chest. "I just want to sleep"
I want my life back, I want to be okay and stop crying. Theres really one thing I want and cant haveOliver.