Chapter 7:

I made my way through the halls and stairs to meet Dumbledore in a empty unused classroom with a table already set up with tea. I sighed as I fell into the chair across from him. "Settling in alright Phoebe?" his fatherly tone made my heart hurt, oh how I wished he was my father instead. "Old memories keep coming back more and more everyday now. It's frustrating." I explained and poured two scoops of sugar into my cup of tea. "Memories?"

I nodded and took a sip, then placed it back down. "I keep remembering all the stuff that happened here while I was just a first-year student." he chuckled, realizing what I might have been remembering. "Ah yes, you were quite a troublemaker." I snorted. "I tried to keep 'them' out of trouble." he nodded and looked at me down his glasses. "Not thinking what happened to Lily and James was your fault are you?" I blinked, what did I think?
"Maybe a part of me does, so what?" I tried to sound uninterested, but my eyes betrayed me as tears filled them. "Phoebe, that was a terrible thing that happened, but not in the least your fault." I bit back a growl, "If I had realized that Sirius Black wasn't James' real friend, he couldn't have betrayed them and gotten them killed!" I slammed my fist onto the table and my cup went flying across the room.

"Now no one could have possibly known what was going to happen." I wanted to smile at him trying to cheer me up, but it was useless. "I should have snapped his neck when I could have." I hissed and hoped he was suffering in Azakaban. "Headmaster, what can I do to make these memories just stop coming altogether?" "Why would you want to do that?" I sighed and started to pace the room. "Because these memories keep coming because of Harry Potter, I keep remembering his parents, my friends, then I think of Black and get mad, and blame myself for not doing anything sooner."

I finished with a deep breath and sank into the chair again. "I just want to forget it all." "Now do you really want that Phoebe?" I looked into his twinkling eyes and slowly shook my head. "I just wish I could've done something. I'm becoming depressed with each memory." he placed his hand over mine and smiled at me. "Memories are there to remind of us things we need to remember, you must find out what they truly mean to you." I smiled back at him, I've always had a soft spot for him, he was very caring and loving toward each and every one of his students.

He stood up and pulled me with him, then the table and everything disappeared. "Now, will you be joining the school in watching Harry Potter in his first game of the year tonight." "I'm not sure what you mean headmaster…" "He is the Gryffindor's new seeker!" I blinked, how had I not heard of this. "Just like his father." I mumbled and Dumbledore laughed, already heading for the door. "I do hope to see you there…James would have liked it, he loved when you would come watch him play." I sighed as the door gently closed behind him, leaving me alone.

I walked over to the window and leaned against the frame, opening it all the way. I looked down at the students going back and forth to their classes, laughing and talking and enjoying life. "Let's hope your generation is a happier one, not as much death." I breathed and felt a memory coming, not really wanting it to come, but decided against forcing it away. Maybe this time it would be better…

(Flashback)

It had been a month since James and I broke up, we never hung out together anymore and when we saw each other, we just acted as if the other wasn't there at all. "I can't believe Potter was acting like to you. He just hit you, you should tell a teacher." Lily scolded me as I rubbed my shoulder gently. "I'm fine, it's no big deal." We had passed each other in the hall and he rammed my shoulder with his pretty hard.

We sat down in our classes and I smiled at Remus, who was beside me. "What's wrong Phoebe?" "James hit my shoulder is all, no big deal, it was really just an accident." I explained, even though I knew it wasn't. Class began and I was taking notes when I felt a charm hit me, my legs started tapping, then moving uncontrollably under my desk. I kick the desk, knocking it over and sending mine and Remus's work flying.

"Miss Ice!" the professor called and I shook my head. "Someone put a spell on me!" I cried and fell into the floor as my legs continued to move. I heard laughing quietly behind me, but saw no one there. The professor had Lily and Remus take me to the nurse, they heaved me up and dragged me out. "Phoebe, what's happened to you?" I saw him and instantly knew he did it.

"James, you prick, take off this stupid charm!" I hissed, trying to figure out how he did it. He looked honestly shocked, which confused me. "I didn't…" he chuckled at my legs, kicking all around, blowing my skirt in all directions. "Nice panties." he commented and I tried to throw myself at him, but he moved and I smacked the ground hard, feeling blood fill my mouth. Lily moved to help me, but James got in front of her. "Potter move!" her tone was pure venom, she was going to stick up for me while I couldn't, a true friend! "Evans, stay outta this, she just tried to attack me!" he laughed at me.

I turned over, staring at Remus trying to calm James and Lily down, they were basically at each others throats, about to pull out wands. That's when we heard it, the most obnoxious laughing I ever heard. We all turned and saw Sirius Black bent over, holding his sides tight as he continued to gasp for air and laughs more and more. "It was you!" I cried and he nodded, not being able to talk. "Undo it!" Lily said, moving toward him instead of James, who was snickering at his friend.

Remus, now knowing who set the charm, quickly undid it and slowly my legs became still once again. I sat up, glared at James, then Lily helped me up and I faced the mutt. I walked up to him slowly, my legs feeling very wobbly. He stopped laughing, but still had a huge smile on his face. I pulled out my wand when I reached him. "What you gonna do Ice?" he taunted me and I narrowed my eyes, daring him to try something. "Come on Phoebe, let's just go." Lily's voice barely reached my red ears.

Sirius had just embarrassed me in front of a whole class, not to mention showed my panties to James and Remus and probably himself. I felt tears coming to my eyes, I felt like a complete fool for even trying to get to know anyone at this dumb school. My lip started to tremble and he smirked at me. "What's wrong, little Phoebe? Gonna cry?" his voice seemed to chill me to bone, he planned to ruin my life because I broke up with James, his true friend.

I felt the first of the tears spill over and I turned away from him and took off running, wanting to get away from everyone. I ran right into James, who quickly caught us both from falling. I shoved him away, looking at him, but regretting it because he saw me crying and his face looked so sad too. I ran away from them, trying to not trip over my own feet, blurred vision, tearing falling freely.

I collapsed on some random stairs, far from where we were, and I tried to breathe, but my crying and running was making it hard. I sniffed and pulled my knees up to my face, hoping that I was hidden from the world. I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't catch my breath, I felt like a sad little girl, I just wanted my mom to appear and take me away from this mean place.

"Hey…" I jumped at the voice and quickly moved into the corner of the stairway to try to get away from him, make him go away. "G-Go awa-away!" I hiccupped and refused to let him see me breaking down. I felt him sit beside me and his shoulder brushed mine. "Phoebe…" he started but I pulled my knees closer and tried to get him from touching me. "J-Just Leave m-me alo-alone!" I cried hard into my knees, hoping he would just leave.

His arm fell onto my shoulders and he pulled me closer to him, I was easily tucked under his arm, against his side. "It's…alright. I'm sorry" he was trying to apologize to me about the spell, but I was still embarrassed about what just happened. I tried to move away, but his grip tightening and he pressed his other hand on my head, trying to comfort me. "S-Sirius, Leave" I rubbed my face on my robes gathered around my knees and looked away from him, not wanting to see his smirking face, laughing at me some more.

His hand grabbed my chin and made me look at him, he wasn't smirking, he looked really serious…for Sirius. "I really am sorry. I didn't want to make you cry." his voice was soft, like he wasn't used to being like this. His eyes looked sad, like he really was sorry. It was probably just another part of a sick joke of his, my lip was still trembling and tears were still filling my eyes. He kept a hold of my chin, but his eyes glanced at my trembling lip, here it was, he was going to start laughing at me, picking at me, being Sirius, then running off to laugh about it with James…

"Your lip is trembling…" he started and I waited for it to come, him to start laughing. "…it's cute." I met his eyes in time to feel his lip descend onto mine. I blinked, confused as to what was going on. His lips pressed firmly onto mine, stopping the trembling completely. I closed my eyes and kissed back after a second, not really thinking about it at the moment. His tongue flicked my bottom lip and I gasped at it, he took that second to slip his tongue into my mouth, gently rubbing mine with his, as if he was unsure of what to do…

(To Be Continued…)