Chapter 10:

I was taking a stroll down to the lake on my day off and watching the squid jumping and swimming around. I leaned against a tree and sighed, no memories of the past, no strange dreams, no more odd voices in the still of the night, wanting to kill. I stayed up that whole night, walking through the entire castle, trying to find the voice again, but I came up with nothing. I needed to speak with Harry, he heard it as well, he must know something. However it's difficult, everyone is whispering and mumbling about him being the Heir of the chamber.

I sighed again, frustrated at my power for learning, yet having no clue what anyone was talking about. I pulled out my wand and created a small spark ball, sending it flying into the air and it crashed down into the grass, leaving the ground burned. "How can I figure it out?" "What do you need to figure out?" I flinched and turned to see Lockhart watching me closely. "None of your concern." he flashed a bright smile at me. "Oh but of course I'm more than willing to give you my expertise on any subject, after all, helping people is what I live for!"

I snorted, "You only live for yourself. I know you are a fool and liar, do not even think your silly books mean a damn thing to me." his smile faded and he took a step away from me. I continued, feeling anger rising from deep within me. "Your books are ridiculous and you are a complete idiot. I suggest you turn you dumbass self around and go back to tricking young witches into thinking you are some great wizard, when in reality, you are nothing. You are just a slug, slow and ugly, nothing about you is real, you need to leave before I kill you!"

My voice was ice cold and his eyes widen slightly, as if he was actually scared of me. I smiled, he needed to be. "That is your only warning Lockhart…" I hissed at him and he straightened up, puffed himself up for a speech, then met my eyes and pulled out his wand. I flicked mine so fast, he didn't even see it, he was sent flying in a ball of cape up the hill and into a pile of broomsticks.

He jumped up and stared down at me, seeing how far I sent him and how powerful I can be. He fixed his outfit, then strode inside, leaving me wondering why I was so mad. Anger, it had to come from somewhere, but I couldn't figure it out. I leaned against the tree again, not sure what to do now. "Such a fool…" I mumbled, unsure of whether I was speaking about Lockhart…or myself. I thought about the past, trying to see if anything similar happened while I was a student, however was changed into a more secret memory.

*Flashback*

"Phoebe! Get up!" I grumbled and tried to dig myself deeper into the covers and regain sleep, but my friend Lily was having none of it. "Get up now!" "It's Sunday, let me sleep…" I said and heard her sigh. "Fine, the guys are just outside asking for you…" I snapped up and fell out of the bed, signally uncontrollable laughter from Lily. I threw a pillow at her. "It's not funny."

"Seeing as you hopped up so quickly at mention of the guys, it's too funny not to laugh." I sighed, she knew I still held some feeling toward James, yet would not date him again. He was jealous and I couldn't stand it, following me around and everything. I thought about the spell that made my legs move uncontrolled and then the events that happened after, I never told anyone, I came back to the castle and went straight to bed, unable to sleep, thinking of the kiss I shared with Sirius. "Hey you okay? Your face is getting all red." I looked up at Lily, realizing that I was blushing just thinking about it and shook my head.

"I'm fine, just thinking about yesterday." her smile faded and she helped me up. "James is just a jerk, don't let him bother you anymore. I can't believe Sirius spelled you like that, you should tell a teacher, get him in detention or something." I froze at his name, Lily noticed, I tried to shake it off again. "I'm going to get back at him myself." she grabbed my arm and started pulling me toward the doors.

"Lily, I gotta get dressed!" I said as she continued pulling me out of the room, in the hallway, we tumbled into other girls and then all fell down the stairs, a bag of screaming girls crashing into the common room. I gasped at pain in my leg and saw a fourth-year laying on it, except it was bent the wrong way, broken. I felt tears coming to my eyes, it hurt so much, but my grunts and moans were lost in the pile of girls cursing each other, trying to get out.

"Phoebe?" I heard Lily trying to find in me in the pile and finally they all found their way out and I was the only one lying on the ground. "Look, first-year girl crying cause she fell down!" "Such a crybaby!" "She's still in a nightgown!" I looked away, unable to get the taunts out of my ears, crying softly, wanting to sink into the ground and just vanish. "OI! Get outta the way!" I heard someone say and suddenly I was in someone's arms, I was scared, what were they going to do now, throw me in the lake?

I couldn't stop crying, my leg hanging awkwardly next to the other, my hands hiding my face. "She's hurt your morons!" "Geez shut the hell up!" I listened hard at the voices, trying to figure out who they are. "What do you care?!" Lily said, her voice was annoyed and concerned. "Evans, either come on or shut up!" James, that was him, but the person holding me didn't rumble, he wasn't holding me. I was moving, people mumbling as I passed in the arms of someone.

I felt the staircase moving and peeked between my fingers, seeing who was holding me ever so gently in his arms. I gasped and stared at Sirius, he was staring down at me with caring eyes and his grip tightened on me slightly. "Hey, what's happened to her?" I knew Lucius's voice as he came closely, probably trying to see me. "Malfoy move!" Sirius growled and I felt more pain as he passed, slamming his shoulder into my leg. I cried harder and wriggled around, trying to stop the pain.

"Hey, just be still, I'm going to get you to the nurse." his tone was soft, he was whispering in my ear so no one would hear him being kind to me. I made myself stop moving and tried to control my crying, but it was pointless. We met no more students on the way to the nurse and she told Sirius to sit me on the bed, he was so easy, as if I was made of glass. "Alright, you can go." the nurse's voice made me realize that I was going to be alone and I grabbed at the first thing I could, Sirius.

"Can I stay? She must not want to be alone." his voice now seemed indifferent, like he didn't even care anymore. "I can stay." James said and I heard a snort. "Like she would want you to stay, you aren't her boyfriend anymore." Lily said and I sniffed, trying to stop crying. "You stay, the rest go now!" I didn't feel the grip on Sirius loosen and knew he was still with me when the door shut. "Just stay out of the way!" the nurse told Sirius and he sat in a chair beside me, my grip never loosening.

I finally released him when the nurse mumbled some words and my leg snapped back, pain surging through me. I felt Sirius's hand on my shoulder, as if he was trying to comfort me from his spot. She gave me something to drink, although it tasted like pure fire, burning my throat as I swallowed. "Alright, just lie still for a while, the medicine will take affect shortly." she turned to Sirius. "She may seem different once the medicine kicks in, it's strong…just make sure she doesn't move." he nodded and looked out the window, not bothering to speak to me, leaving me crying, feeling alone.

The nurse disappeared and I tried to rub my eyes, blurry my vision and wiping tears away. Hands gently found mine and I looked and saw him smiling at me. "Let me." he said simply, not hiding the sweet tone in his voice. He pulled a tissue out and softly wiped each tear away, catching them before they fell into my lap. "I'm sorry you have to deal with me." I mumbled and he chuckled, "It's no big deal. How's the pain?" I shrugged, it wasn't so bad anymore, the medicine must be working.

We stayed like that, him wiping my tears and me trying to stop crying until it all hit me at once, the medicine. The fire was back, burning my inside, making me feel like puking, yet my mind didn't want to think straight, thoughts were jumbled and fuzzy. I felt no more pain, but this new feeling makes me want the pain back, it's so weird. "H-hey…" I slurred at Sirius and he looked at me closely, as if he wasn't sure what was going on, but came closer regardless.

"Phoebe?" I smiled, he knew my name, it sounded so nice on his lips. His lips…they look so inviting, so close to my own. "Sirius…" I mumbled and leaned closer, but lost my balance and fell off the bed into his arms. "Oh shit!" he said, catching me quickly, holding me against his chest. "You okay?" I giggled at his question, I felt great, never better. "What the world did she give you?" he asked and tried to move me, but I grabbed him tight and shoved my lips onto his, rather harshly.