Chapter 48: End of Term

When I entered, there was no one to be seen, I made myself at home and went through some of the papers that he had laid out. After a while, I heard footsteps and saw him walking in as a dog. He turned and dressed, joining me at the make-shift table. "Phoebe, what are you doing here? Has something happened?" I blinked, guess he hadn't seen the paper yet. "Have you read the paper?" he shook his head, showing me a slightly wet rolled up paper. "Just got my hands on one. Was just about to. Is something wrong?" "Yes, but go ahead and read it, just please stay calm."

I watched him read it, his face slowly growing more furious as each word he read to himself. He balled it up and tossed it into a corner, scoffing and muttering under his breath. "Is this why you are here?" he asked and I shrugged. "Kind of. I got so upset that I nearly set the grand hall on fire…and then blew half of Dumbledore's office apart. He sent me away, saying I needed to relax and get some rest. He's going to keep me updated on the task and on Harry. I came to see you before I go home." Sirius sighed and shook his head, he knew about my temper so it wasn't news that me getting upset caused a fire.

"You can come back with me if you want." I said, settling beside him on a rock and giving him a wink. "All alone on an island, sunny and secluded…just us…" I breathed against his ear, making him shiver and let a small moan out. "What do you say? Want to take these words off my mind?" he turned and met me for a kiss, pulling our bodies flush to each other. "Phoebe…I would love to…but I need to be here for Harry, his letters have me worried." he said after we broke apart and I pouted. "Not even for a day or two. Surely that would be alright? A couple days in the sun would do you good, not having to hide. And it would keep me from being bored to death."

After a minute, he gave in, tired of eating scraps and rats, sleeping on hard grounds and having to turn to dog to man so much. We snuck out in the cover of dark and apparated to my home island, walking to the barrier where I lowered it. As soon as it was back up, Sirius captured my body with his, knocking my bags to the ground and pushing me to the sand. He kissed every part of me, slowly undressing and ravishing me. Once we were finished up with our passions, we went into the ocean for a swim, freeing our bodies of the sand covering us.

I made us a small dinner when we got to the house and then we fell asleep as soon as we hit the pillows. When morning came, Livy knocked on the door, asking if I wanted breakfast. "Yes, please. If you want to. I can fix it if you don't feel up to it." she spoke in a high voice, telling me that she would be happy and please allow her to. I sighed, she was going to still act like she wasn't free…but as long as she was able to do as she pleased, I was happy to have her in my life. She placed a breakfast enough for 4 people at the door and left to do some cleaning.

I put the food on the bedside table and poked Sirius, making him sit up. "Are you hungry?" I asked, gesturing to the food. He smirked and nodded, except he was staring at me, not the food. "Really?" I asked and he just grinned, pulling my robes open and back onto the bed. I was huffing and curled against his chest when I heard his stomach growl. "Now do you want some food?" he nodded and I leaned over, grabbing a piece of toast with jelly on it. I fed him bit by bit and he seemed to be enjoying himself. "Phoebe, how are you feeling?" I blinked, I was fine, why was he asking? "Huh?"

He sat up, making me follow suit and turned to face me. "After telling me about the baby…it has been on my mind…I was so upset, I didn't think to ask how you felt after telling me. I know you must have been so heartbroken back then…and you said it was eating at you until you told me. Are you feeling better now?" I went to nod, but stopped…I hadn't told him everything. There was something more important in my past than our child being lost…my father.

But I wouldn't bring myself to ruin our moment, it was so nice to be with each other, to not be fighting, nor bothered by outsiders. Just us. It was too much to talk about that now, it was going to ruin everything. I shrugged. "I'm always going to hurt about it. But I feel better with you knowing.. I feel horrible for hiding it all these years." he took that as the end of our talk and began to eat more of the food, I let him finish just about everything before he apologized and passed it to me. "I'm not super hungry anyways. You are so skinny, please eat."

I took a shower while he finished the food off and joined me, we bathed each other but again, got caught up in our love-making. The post came, a letter from Dumbledore, telling me about the upcoming task of the Maze. He seemed to be holding back writing something, but I couldn't tell. Sirius and I talked and spent the whole day just relaxing and being with each other. Then after dinner, he told me he needed to get back. "We just got here though…do you really need to go?" he nodded, telling me he wanted to go talk to Harry in person before the last task.

I sighed, at least we got a small amount of time together before he was forced back. "Leave in the morning?" I asked, rubbing his back on the beach under the stars. He agreed, pulling me into his lap and kissing me hard. "I'm going to miss you so much my love. I feel like our lives are never going to begin together… I feel we are always going to be in the shadows…and Phoebe…I don't want that. I want to be with you, out and open. Free and clear. Forever." I nodded, feeling the same way. We both wasted too much time denying and hiding our love. I was tired of it, who knew what was coming in the future. I just wanted to be with Sirius for the rest of my life.

When morning came, I took my time letting him leave, pulling him back for more kissing, trying to change his mind and make him stay. But he left…I sat on the beach for a while, watching the creatures jumping and swimming around, listening to the water crashing gently on the beach. This was going to get very boring without someone to talk to. I stayed for the rest of the term, doing as Dumbledore asked and relaxing and trying to not read the paper. Rita made another one about Harry and myself. Saying that I was so afraid of becoming his mother for real that I had a mental breakdown and tried to kill him with my elemental powers. Saying that Dumbledore had to banish me from the grounds. I scoffed, if that was even somewhat true, I would be having a trial instead of a drink on the beach.

Dumbledore had informed me about the upcoming task and that I could return anytime I wanted, and after reading the paper the morning of, about Harry's scar hurting and him not being to stay in class, I packed my bags and quickly left, returning to the school. I settled back into my room, seeing a letter attached to an owl outside my window. It was Sirius and he welcomed me back, hoping that I would come visit him after the task. I went to bed soon after, seeing as I had gotten back too late to talk to Harry or visit Sirius. Tomorrow was the final task and I had such a looming feeling that it was going to be a terrible thing to happen.