Death Of One Already Lost
Hi again thanks for the lovely reviews! Can't say much except...I have a serious writers block. Add to the fact I had to work over the holiday! T-T Thinking of writing another fan fiction so keep an eye out
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I glanced round. What was so different? Nothing. Everything! I smiled. For the first time in my life…I was free! Shrugging off the mask I had over me for so long I let a laugh escape my lips. Jumping onto the bed I lay there letting the bounce sink into my bones. After so much pain and trials, I could be the boy I was brought into the world to be!
I pulled myself off the bed and went to the window. What had been the darkest part of the day was now disappearing, the sun breaking through the thick layer of clouds. I could actually see the sun chasing the clouds away! I could never be happier. Can no one understand! The mask was off. My past destroyed. I was given new light.
I stood away from the window and listened. Boys arguing over food and video games. Female voices shrieking at the top of their lungs. Blades spinning. True enough I would never be able to play the sport that had hold over me for so many years but I could listen, enjoy. I would not have to fear anyone again.
Smiling I walked through the door and glided down the stairs. The first thing I noticed was the messy floor and walls. But, I reminded myself happily; it's none of my concern. Not anymore! I went through the front door without anyone noticing. If only my whole life could have been like this. Gliding through the streets in the town I understood for the first time how people describe this place as one of the most beautiful places on Earth! The sun was shining, the grass was green, the sky was blue. The water passed by gently and soothed my soul.
I eventually got to the park and sat on the swings. I closed my eyes and breathed out. The air was so much sweeter. The feel was lighter. It didn't make me tense every time it blew over me. Hearing children run behind me I got off the swings and watched as they took over the park. Innocent children, the best part of life!
I left to explore the neighbourhood in my new sight. Everything was so sharp, so detailed. If only I had seen, if only I had known. If only I hadn't been destroyed. But I can see it now. It's not too late. And I can now see it every day for the rest of my life. I know it will be boring after a while but isn't beauty always unrecognised?
What really made me happy? I had found myself. My peace. He couldn't get me here. He didn't exist. I would never have to plague my sight with him. I could close my eyes and nothing would be there except the reddish darkness. It was a haven! I let a single tear fall down my cheek. I put my finger up and wiped it off my face. Wet. The first time in a long time I had seen anything like this from my own fluid. I laughed louder than before.
I skipped, yes skipped, down the road and weaved my way in between the people. I just couldn't get enough of the lightness in my heart. If people could hear me I would scream with mirth! I accidentally stepped off the sidewalk onto the road just as a car went by. There was no screeching of brakes. No screams. No shouts. No one calling an ambulance. After all, why should they?
The car went right through me. Looking after it I sighed. That's probably the only bad thing about my new life. I'm incapable of physical touch. I looked at the tear to see it fading away just like my hope and happiness. My misery returning only this time I could do nothing.
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To baby sweet:
hi again. you're like my loyal reviewer! anyone and everyone (minus your friend) knows he is a complete hippy. he prefers to sleep in a tree for petes sake! he is into healthy natural foods if you se what he cooks on the series. he is from the earth as he says when he talks of his village. AND HE LIVES IN THE MOUNTAINS AND TRAINS IN FREEZING WATER! what other proof could you possibly need! also, i like your ideas...however nope. i love doing this. its like everyone is trying to guess and cant get very far! i take it those two are your fave and you couldnt bear it if it was them ! thanks again for your review and vote of confidence!
To amy:
thanks for your review! thanks for your review and comments! its great when people review for me! you sure thats the one? i love it how people have always said its a male and not a female. its almost like everyon believes girls arent suicidal! guess i might be giving a clue away now. oops! take no notice of me! i go on and on and on on and on and on on and on and on on and on and on 3 YEARS LATER on and on and on on and on and on and on!
THANKS EVERYBODY!