a/n: hello, this is my first ever fanfic to write but it came to me during a dream so we'll see how it goes.

had been a beautiful, but rollercoaster of a few years For Olivia Benson-Stabler , yes, Benson-stabler at the 16th precinct. Lives were lost, gained and every thing in between. May 20th, 2013. 6-45 PM. Benson, Amaro and the SVU squad are sifting through evidence to give to Barba to make sure they nail the guy, for good this time. His name is William Lewis. He's attacked wemon in the worst possible way, and worst of all he's gotten away with it every time. "We cannot let this man walk! We just can't! I mean i know that mistakes happen, that the lab techs are human but why couldn't it have been any other case... Any other case... Olivia vents to anyone and every one as her phone rings and she sighs... "Benson-Stabler", she answers in the most normal tone she can muster. "Honey is every thing ok?", Elliot asks concernd, "yeah i'm fine El i promise just a really tough case is every thing ok at home?" He sighs "yeah as ok as it can be right now... Izzabella threw up again, i'm doing every thing the doc says, i cut out letus entirely but it doesn't seem to matter." She nodds "I think we should take her to a knew doctor El, this 1 clearly has no idea what she's doing." "I was thinking the same thing honey, i did some research online and there's a really good pediatric gasttrologist that gets really good reviews a little over an hour away from the city that i'd like to make her appointment with, I'd really like it if you could come with us but if you can't I understand. Liv nodds "El i'll do my very best to be there... I promise, and I promise i'm coming home tonight, soon, as soon as we finish tagging all this evidence and paperwork. I would already be there now but I cannot let this guy walk... If you only knew half-". "Liv i get it, i promise you don't have to explain i workd that long enough to know... And when you get home we can talk about it, i'll give you a massage and we'll work through it like we always do". "Your so good to me El, i really needed to here that". He smiled and winked "I know you did, I love you honey, i'll talk to you later and dinner will be waiting" he said as he hung up. "Every thing ok?" Amaro asks and Liv nodds, "yeah, was just El, Izzabella's still sick. She's throwing up about every thing she eats, she has been for weeks. She's losing wait and the doctor seems to have no clue, she just told El to stop giving her letus, that her body couldn't dijest it, of course he stopped but then the question i have is why is she still throwing up?" "Yeah hmm... That's deffinently not normal Liv, and if she's losing wait... "Yeah i know Nick, he's gonna make her an appointment with another doctor". "hey Olivia, when are we ever gonna meat this mystery El?" Rollins asks, "I don't really know Rollins, I'm not gonna rush him, not after every thing he's been through." "You've said that for years Liv... Rollins sighed. Yes i have! But I'm not the one who shot a tenaged girl in the precinct okay!" Olivia said becoming defensive. easy guys easy. Back to work, all of you" Cragen said as they all nodded, Liv glared at Rollins then they went back to finishing their work. After about an hour more it was finished "hey liv can i walk you out? I really wanna talk to you Barba said. Olivia nodded sure she said as they stepped outside.

"You know there could be a very different reason why your daughter is sick, one that your not thinking of." "What's that Barba?" "Maybe your husband wants you home more... Makes this to where..." Olivia slapped him hard across the cheek "HOW DARE YOU!!" She shouted before shooting him a death glare and hailing a cab. The hole time she's seated in the cab she glares. "You wanna talk about it?" The cab driver asks, "no just drive! Olivia says and as soon as the cab pulls up at their house she pays and heads inside.

"You ok?" Elliot asks immediately noticing that something is wrong. Liv nodds "yeah... I'm fine... "honey you don't look fine..." Elliot says as she then bursts into tears and Elliot wraps her in his arms "shhhhh shhh, it's ok honey... It's ok..." She shook her head h-how... h-how... h-how ca-can..." "Shhh, shhh, shhh, take a breath... Take a breath..." He gently rubbs her back and shoulder as she manages to calm down and compose herself "i'm so sorry El... So sorry", "no it's ok, no need to be sorry but what had you so upset?" Olivia glares "it doesn't even deserve a response... trust me El." "Yes it does sweetheart anything that upsets badass Benson as much as that just did does." She sighs "I can't tell you El. Not this." why?" "Because it will hurt you, besides i know it's horseshit." "Honey i know you and you want be able to let it go until you tell me, so just tell me it's ok... I can handle it." She sighed "my ADA, he heard us on the phone, you know how detective rollins has been wanting to meat you?" He nodded "yeah, i promise i'll be ready to soon... You know i've tried to go in so many times..." "Honey i know you don't have to explain yourself to me but the squad, or a couple of the newcomers, hints my ADA and Rollins seem to have the wrong idea about you." He nodds "Oh?" She nodds "yeah, i slapped him before he could say to much but he basicly accused you of faking her illness because you want me home more..." Elliot sighs abit and shakes his head "wow... i... i would never..." "I know that El, that's why i didn't wanna tell you." "Honey i'm glad you did..." I'll meat them tomorrow ok?" "You don't have to". "No i want to, this has been going on long enough, i wont have people thinking i'm a monster besides, i have to at some point right?" He winks, smiles and kisses her on the lips. "Yes you do, she said kissing him back "hey can i ask 1 thing of you though Liv?" "Yes of course anything El, anything." "We walk in together, i want to meat them but i don't want to walk into the squadroom alone."

a/n: What will she say? Favorite, follow and review to find out, to the barba fans out there, don't worry, he'll come around. Also please know my grammer isn't the best and my formatting wont be either, i use a braille display to write as i am blind but i really hope you enjoyed this.