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Chapter 4: Beautifully Broken

3 Hours and Thirty Minutes Later

Dean stood outside Sam's apartment door taking a couple of deep breaths before knocking. After a few minutes of patient waiting the door opened to reveal a beautiful blonde haired girl who Dean knew was Sammy's girlfriend. He gave her a wide smile and said, " Hi I'm here to see Sam, I'm his brother Dean. Is he home? "

Jessica smiled back at him and said, " Hi Dean it's nice to finally meet you! I'm Jessica Sam's girlfriend but call me Jess. Sam has been talking about you all day today. He's worried about you, he said that today is always a hard day for you because it is the anniversary of your mothers death. I'm sorry about your mother Dean, I bet you miss her a lot. Sam also said that when he was little that your dad wouldn't tell him about your mother so you did even though it was hard for you. He misses you a lot.

Dean smiled at her brightly. It was a heartbreakingly beautiful smile and she was struck by both the sadness and happiness it radiated. She tried to think of something that would describe him and she figured he was what you would call beautifully broken. He was still smiling brightly and he said, " It's nice to meet you too Jess! Don't be sorry it's not your fault and yeah I miss my mom a lot. Dad didn't like to talk about her a lot, but Sammy deserved to know things about his mother so I told him. I've missed him a lot too. I didn't think he would want to see me.

Jess waved Dean into the apartment and said, " He definitely wants to see you Dean. " " Sam your brother is here to see you! ", Jess called as she watched Dean walk into the apartment with a big grin on her face.

There was a loud thump heard in the other room and then the squeak of sneakers on the hard wood floor before Sam was there staring at Dean with love and concern in his eyes. Sam and Dean just stared at each other for awhile before Sam realizing that Dean was to afraid to make the first move crossed the room in four long strides and hugged his big brother tightly. Dean hugged Sam back and he hugged him just as tight if not tighter. Dean pulled his younger brother's head down to rest on his shoulder all the while running his hands through the unruly brown hair. They hugged for quite a while before finally letting go of each other and grinning like idiots.

" It's really good to see you Sammy, I've missed you! ", Dean said sincerely.

" I've missed you too Dean! I'm sorry that I have been a complete ass every time you've called me or came to see me. So Dean why did you decide to come see me today? Is it because of mom? ", Sam asked.

" Yeah you were kind of an ass but it's okay. Mom is I guess part of the reason I came to see you. I also need to talk to you about something too. ", Dean said with his head hung low looking up at Sam through his eye lashes.

" Jess is it okay if we talk alone? ", Sam asked politely.

Jess smiled at Sam and said, " Of course it's okay, I have to go meet Becky anyway. I hope you guys have a good time catching up. " She grabbed her purse gave Sam a quick kiss goodbye on the cheek and then headed over to Becky's.

Sam smiled at Dean and said, " Come on man sit down and relax. "

They walked over and sat down on the couch. Dean fidgeted a little he really did not want to have this conversation.

Dean smiled at Sam and said, " Jess is nice, I'm glad you found someone to be with. "

Sam smiled back and said, " Yeah Jess is great, she's a really good person. So Dean what is it that you wanted to talk to me about? "

Dean fidgeted and said, " I wanted to talk to you about... how da... I wanted to talk to you... never mind I can't do this, I thought that I could but I can't. "

Dean got up from the couch and was about to head for the door when Sam grabbed his arm and pulled him back down.

" Dean do you think I'm going to let this go this is obviously something important. Now tell me what you were going to tell me. Does it have to do with dad? ", Sam asked calmly.

" Please let it go, I can't tell you. You would hate me and you would hate dad. ", Dean pleaded emotionally.

" No, Dean I'm not letting this go. I could never hate you Dean, you're my big brother and there hasn't been a time in my life when I can't remember you being there for me. Now let me be here for you. ", Sam said firmly.

" Sam you really will hate me! ", Dean pleaded his voice cracking on the word hate.

" No Dean I won't hate you, I could never hate you! Now you're going to tell me what is going on and you're not getting off this couch until you do! ", Sam said angrily.

" Sam you can't keep me on this couch! ", Dean screamed very pissed at his little brother.

" Yes I can Dean! ", Sam screamed back also pissed off. " Dean just please try to talk to me because I'm not going to stop pushing until you tell me. ", Sam said his voice calmer than it wasthe moment before.

Dean's breathing was shaky as he sucked in a deep breath. He exhaled and asked with his voice quivering, " Why are you doing this to me? "

Sam looked Deandirectly in the eyes and said, " Because I care about you Dean, that's why. It's obvious that whatever you came here to tell me is really hard for you to talk about which means it's painful. You need to talk to about it Dean, the pain will get better if you talk about it."

" Howthe fuckdo youknow thattalkingwillmakeitbetter Sammy! I don't see how me telling you that Dad used to beat me all the time is going to make thepain that he caused go away! ", Dean screamed his voice filled with pain. Dean stared at Sam his breathing ragged and his chest heaving.

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