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AN: I'm sorry that this took me so long. I've been in a lot of pain and it hasn't been easy for me to concentrate. Thanks for the reviews KatieMalfoy19, H.T. Marie, Ghostwriter, Latanya Kassidy, tvbatina, and girlofcherrys. Special thanks to KatieMalfoy19 and H.T. Marie you guys have both been a really big help to me with this story! KatieMalfoy19 this is dedicated to you! On with the story!

Chapter 6: Cry

Sam stared at Dean speechless for the second time that day.

Then Sam screamed, " You've been what? You do what?"

Dean flinched at his brother's raised voice before saying, " Shit! Sam I was raped and I hustle, um you know I let people use my body for cash."

Sam still gaped at Dean while asking, " When did you get raped?"

" Do you remember that time when you were eight and I was twelve and dad was hunting that werewolf in Texas?'', Dean asked his voice shaky.

Sam nodded and said, " Yeah Dean I remember."

" You know that crappy apartment complex we were staying at, well there were some messed up people living there. There was this guy and he was really nice to me. I used to help him wash his car and he would give me some money after. One time when I was in his apartment getting the money and he told me to take my clothes off because they were soaked and it was cold outside. He told me he would give me a sweatshirt and then I could go back to our apartment. I told him no, that I didn't want to take my clothes off so he took them off for me and he raped me. I'll never forget it, it hurt like hell and he wasn't exactly gentle with me.", Dean said his voice quivering and his eyes filled with unshed tears.

" He's a sick bastard Dean, what was his name? Does dad know?", Sam asked as calmly as he could.

" His name was Steve Davis and no I didn't tell dad. He would have killed the guy and then he could have gotten arrested. I didn't want that to happen Sam!", Dean yelled his voice quivering.

Sam gave Dean a small smile and spoke calmly.

" It's okay Dean. I understand that you didn't want dad taken away from us. But there is more to it isn't there Dean?", Sam asked.

Dean nodded his head jerkily before whispering brokenly, " He... he said he'd kill you and dad if I told and I was scared. I didn't know what to do, I didn't want him to hurt either of you. I... I didn't want to be alone, I still... I still don't want to be alone."

Dean sucked in a shaky breath while trying to keep the tears from falling. Sam's heart was breaking as he watched his brother fight against the tears. He had never seen Dean this emotional before.

" Dean it's okay that you were scared, anyone would be scared in a situation like that. Dean its okay for you to cry.", Sam said soothingly.

Dean quickly shook his head no and sucked in another shaky breath while still fighting against the tears.

" I can't Sammy.", Dean said his voice quivering.

" Yes you can Dean. It's okay to cry and if you do cry Dean it doesn't mean you're weak.", Sam said soothingly.

" It's not that Sammy.", Dean said shakily.

" Then what is it?", Sam asked gently

Dean bowed his head and whispered, " I'm afraid that if I cry I won't be able to stop. I can't lose control like that Sammy. I have to be tough and strong dad needs me, you need me."

Sam had to strain hear his brother's broken confession. What he heard broke his heart, he hated the fact that Dean felt that he couldn't cry because that would mean he was letting down Sam and their dad. Sam understood why Dean felt that way though. Dad didn't allow crying and Sam himself had always considered Dean to be pretty much invincible. So Dean felt that he couldn't cry because he would disappoint both Sam and John and that was the last thing he wanted to do.

" Dean you're always tough, strong, and brave for dad and me now it's time for us to be here for you. Dad is not here right now but I am, let me be here for you.", Sam said.

" I don't think I can Sammy.", Dean said sadly.

" Yes you can Dean.", Sam said seriously.

Sam leaned over and pulled Dean into a bone crushing hug. Now it was Sam's turn to pull Dean's head down to rest on his shoulder. When Dean's head was resting comfortably on Sam's shoulder Sam whispered into Dean's ear.

" Dean you don't have to be brave right now. Let yourself cry, let the pain out because if you don't it's going to eat you up inside. Just let go Dean.", Sam said whispering.

Dean was shuddering with every breath and he felt the tears in his eyes brimming over. He took a deep shuddering breath and when he exhaled his broke down into sobs.

AN: I hope you enjoyed this chapter. There should be at least two more chapters, this story is going to be longer than I thought it was going to be. Oh well. Please Review.