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AN: I'm sorry that this took me so long. I've been in a lot of pain and it hasn't been easy for me to concentrate. Thanks for the reviews KatieMalfoy19, H.T. Marie, snchills, and dustori! Special thanks to KatieMalfoy19 and H.T. Marie you guys have both been a really big help to me with this story! KatieMalfoy19 this is dedicated to you! On with the story!

Chapter 7: I'm Broken

Dean sobbed into Sam's shoulder while Sam rocked him back and forth. Sam couldn't help but let a few of his own tears fall, it really hurt him to see his super hero big brother like this. When Dean's cries quieted he slowly pulled back from Sam and wiped away his tears.

Dean smiled at Sam but it didn't have its usual brightness or charm. " I'm sorry that I lost it like that Sammy. That was one of the biggest chick flick moments ever. ", Dean said his smile becoming more real.

Sam smiled back and said, " Don't worry about it Dean. Yeah it was a big chick flick moment. The chick flick stuff isn't over yet though Dean. We need to talk about the... the hustling and why you don't want to be alone.

Dean's smile faded from his face when Sam mentioned talking about the hustling and his issues with being alone. Dean bowed his head and looked at Sam through his eye lashes and said quietly, " Okay Sammy when can talk about it. There is no use arguing with you anyway."

Sam smiled and said, " You're right there is no point in arguing with me. I'm not letting you leave until you tell me."

" I told you I was going to tell you didn't I! ", Dean huffed.

Sam nodded and said, " Yes you did, now please tell me about the hustling."

" I was fifteen when I started hustling. I started because Dad was hunting more and working less and we needed money. You needed to eat Sammy, you needed clothes, and things for school. "

" Dean I would rather of starved than have you hustling. You could have been hurt! Why hustling and not a job at a fast food place or something?", Sam asked exasperated.

" Sammy you were hungry you needed to eat, hell I was hungry too. I did get hurt hustling, I still do! When I was fourteen I would work at grocery stores when we were going to be staying some where for a while. But it was minimum wage you know and dad wasn't working really so it wasn't enough. Hustling pays better especially if you do the kinky stuff. I've been with a lot of men and it's not like I enjoy it but it pays for things. I don't regret starting to hustle Sam it was my job to take care of you.", Dean said serious.

" Dean I want you to stop hustling, I don't want you getting hurt! ", Sam said firmly.

Dean shook his head sadly and said, " I wish I could stop Sammy but I can't I have expenses. I hunt a new thing every week unless its a harder gig and it costs a lot of money for gas and motel rooms to stay in. Then I need to eat so I need money for that. Then I need money to wash my clothes. I need to buy new weapons sometimes too. I also need money for the cell phone bills because dad and I check up on each other every day. You probably don't believe this but I don't like pulling credit card scams, I'd rather hustle. Other people don't get hurt from me hustling. Sammy I can deal with pain if I get hurt, it's not so bad."

Sam sighed defeated and said, " I can see there is no way I'm going to change your mind. So I'm just saying please be careful Dean. "

Dean nodded and said softly, " I'll be careful Sammy. "

" Thank you. Dean what do you mean you've been with a lot of men? ", Sam asked tentatively.

" You're more naive than I thought you were Sammy. Women don't want to pay for sex but men are pigs. ", Dean said seriously.

" I get it Dean women want sex to be more and a lot of men just don't care. I'm sorry that you had to start hustling to keep food on the table when we were kids Dean. Dad should have been working instead of hunting he's the one who should have been keeping the food on the table and the clothes on are backs.", Sam said frustrated.

" It's not your fault Sammy and you're right it should have been dad's reasonability. But I was used to him dumping some of his responsibilities on me anyway. You've been my reasonability since dad placed you in my arms and told me take you outside twenty years ago tonight. I did what I had to do Sammy and I don't regret it."

" I'm sorry you didn't really get to be a kid Dean.", Sam said sincerely.

" It's okay Sam it was worth it, you got some what of a childhood right? I did the best I could I'm sorry if it wasn't good enough. ", Dean said quietly.

" Yeah I didhave a childhood Dean. Not like most kids do but I had one and I had one because of you. Don't worry Dean you did a great job. Look at me now I'm in college and I have a great girlfriend I'd say you did a good job with me. ", Sam said smiling.

Dean grinned back at Sam and said, " Yeah you're right you turned out great and some of that is because of me."

" Yes it is. Now tell me about why you don't want to be alone. ", Sam said gently.

" I have issues with being alone... well really with people leaving me since mom died. Abandonment issues are what I have. That is why I never try to have relationships. If I get close to people they'll just leave so why bother getting close to them. Everybody leaves me. Mom did, then mom's family, then you, and then dad. I don't see dad much anymore he is usually hunting on his own. Then after dad left I met this girl Cassie and I fell in love with her and she left me, just like everybody else. Then dad came back and left again and I met Lara. I'm always afraid that Lara is going to leave too, but I don't think she will. ", Dean said looking down at his boots.

" I'm sorry I left Dean, I'm sorry I left and that I didn't say goodbye. Things are going to change from now on okay Dean. We're going to talk more and you're going to visit whenever you're in California. We can fix this Dean if you keep talking to me about your issues and if we work through them they can go away.", Sam said completely serious.

Dean smiled a sad smile and said, " I'm broken Sam and you can't fix me and neither can I."

AN: There is going to be at least one more chapter maybe two. Please Review.