Chapter 10
What am I going to do...

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam SEED or Gundam SEED Destiny in anyway!

I'm really sorry for the late update. Lately I haven't been able to get a grasp on a idea, but when your staying up 3:30 am on Friday night, you get bored. But I should have no excuses. I'd be no better than the people in my class. I also switched from using Athrun to Asuran. Well I hope you enjoy this chapter.

The song that gave me inspiration for this chapter was 'Shoot'.

Emerald eyes scanned the Japanese styled house, as the person who had the those emerald eyes was sitting down. Waiting for his friend, Kira, Asuran continued to look at the room that he waited in. By the looks of it, the room hadn't been cleaned in days. Since men lacked the ability to clean, girls had to do it for them. He began to wonder why this room hadn't been cleaned. Asuran knew Ichiru... she liked things clean. Ichiru even said it herself that she liked to clean. Asuran began to think that 'incident' when she said she had saw Nicol had an affect on her. He began to wonder in his thoughts.

A male entered the room to see what looked to be Asuran swarmed in thoughts. "Hey Asuran," Kira spoke up to get Asuran out of his thoughts. "Thanks for coming," he told him, seating himself down across from Asuran.

"This room hasn't been cleaned in a while has it?" questioned Asuran.

"No.. it hasn't. That is why I have asked you to come here... Ichiru isn't herself lately. Since that day that someone broke into our house, she has barely talked to me or anyone. She never cleans, never crys it is like she is a doll. Ever since two days ago she has been acting like this. Like a doll almost..." Kira said, looking to wooden floor.

Asuran wasn't to sure of what to say. Ichiru probably hasn't told Kira about Nicol. He was the one that probably broke into their house... He causing Ichiru to become like this. Like a doll.

"Asuran, I have been having this feeling that you know what is wrong with Ichiru... Please.. I really wanna know what's wrong with her..." Kira asked, looking out of a window of the room. He saw Ichiru and Cagalli outside sitting on the porch. It looked quite funny because Cagalli was trying to get Ichiru to say what was wrong, but it wasn't working. All it was doing was Cagalli mad. He looked back to his friend.

"I may know what is wrong with her... You remember her old boyfriend Nicol right?"

"Yea I do.. He was killed in that battle when Ichiru tried to escape.."

Asuran looked away not wanting to really say what he had to say. "Well.. That night that your house was broken into... Ichiru called me.. She left a message on my answering machine, she told me that he wasn't dead... And from what happened recently.. I also think he is alive..."

Kira looked in shock. He had remember that battle well. How could anyone survive that kind of hit. "But.. I thought..." Kira couldn't speak.. If he was back he would try to get Ichiru back.. And so far he was winning. And there was less than a month to their wedding.

"Kira I want you stay close to Ichiru," Asuran said, getting up and leaving the room.

Asuran walked past a picture of Kira and Ichiru. "Nicol.. What the hell are you doing... I know you love her, but she had to move on.. You can't live in the past..."

- Up on PLANTS -

A silvered headed male sat waiting at his desk. After the first ten minutes he had been waiting he started to get impatience. His blue eyes waited for that door to open. "Dammit he'd better be here soon," the male said, tapping his fingers on the desk. The man with the attitude was, Yzak Joule. He was back with ZAFT and now a Captain/Commander. His scar that was once on his face, was gone now. Yzak was quite disturbed with the message he had received from Zala. The only person that didn't know was Dearka, but he was soon gonna find out.

Soon a tanned male with blonde hair came through those doors. "What did you want Yzak?" he asked lazily. It was still morning and he had called him here. And not to mention a Sunday at that to. So this tanned male named Dearka would be sleeping in right now instead of being in Yzak's office. "You do know it is a Sunday?" he asked Yzak, who just glared at him.

"Yes I know it is Sunday, but that isn't the point your here. I received a message from Zala not to long ago. He told me I stood tell you since he knows you would be interested. That and we got to go to Earth to help him with this problem. Since I am also interested with it."

"What do you mean 'we'!" he growled, tightening his grip on the water bottle he held in his one hand.

Yzak just smirked. "Yes 'we'. Zala has told me that our old friend Nicol Amalfi is alive."

Dearka was drinking his water bottle when he had heard that. Almost choking on the water, Yzak was almost laughing at Dearka in the state of shock. "Wha.. How can that be? He was killed in action! Nobody ever survives from that."

"Well apparently he did. So we are leaving tomorrow morning. You'd better be packed and ready," Yzak paused. "You're dismissed."

Dearka left the room still shocked that Nicol was alive. This trip to Earth was going to be fun. Dearka then stopped walking and turned around and head back into Yzak's office. "Hey how does Asuran know?" asked Dearka.

"You remember that girl.. Ichiru right? Well she told Asuran that she saw him... I don't know the details, so ask Zala for the both us when we get to Earth," Yzak said, turning to face the tanned male.

"Alright thanks, see you tomorrow," Dearka said, leaving the room once again.

Yzak looked out the window in the office. "Dearka is right.. Nobody can survive a blow to a mobile suit like that..." Yzak murmured, before also walking out of the room. Nicol had been on Yzak's mind since Asuran had given the news. Yzak had remembered that one time where they had raided the Archangel for that silly girl Ichiru back then. "Once we find Nicol he got some explaining to do."

- Back on Earth -

The sun was setting now. The stars could be soon seen, as the sun disappeared slowly behind the horizon. A pair of eyes looked at the sun disappearing. "Ichiru, come inside. I made us some supper," called Kira, walking outside finding Ichiru watching the sunset. "Ichiru..." he said softly, sitting down beside her. There was no response from Ichiru nor did she even look at Kira. Her eyes just looked at the sunset. She was like in a trance or something.

Anger began to boil up inside Kira. Something just came over him and he couldn't handle Ichiru acting like this anymore. Kira stood up now, looking down at Ichiru. "Ichiru look at yourself! You look like a child's doll! I know you can't just forget about him, but we are getting married in less than a month."

Ichiru looked at Kira, unsure of what to say... She opened her mouth to say something, but nothing came out. Inside she felt scared. She didn't know why, she just felt scared... "Kira..." she said softly, as she stood up. She took one step forward before she embraced him. "I'm sorry... I was lost.. I was lost in my thoughts about what happened.. About you... About Nicol... I was lost..."

Kira looked down at her with calm eyes now. His arms wrapped around her also. He knew he could never stay mad at her for long. "It's alright... I understand... You were just lost in a sea of thoughts..." he said softly to her.

Not a sound was heard from the both them. They just stood embracing each other. The sun had disappeared now and the stars could been seen. Kira opened his eyes now and looked down at her wondering if she had fallen asleep. Like she did that one time. He laughed mentally. "Ichiru... Are you awake?" he asked softly, just in case she was sleeping.

"Yes... I am.." she murmured to him.

"Let's go eat supper, before it gets any colder.."

"Did you really cook it?" Ichiru questioned.

"Yea I did."

"Well I can't wait to taste it."

"Well let us go and eat it," Kira said, breaking the embrace. Kira then escorted her inside the house to where they were to share a dinner. And to Ichiru's surprised Kira's cooking wasn't all bad. She never knew he could cook. Then again.. She always cooked for him, so he never got the chance. Well now she knew he could cook, he would do the cooking from now on, and she would do the cleaning.

- Somewhere on an island close to ORB -

"Nicol-kun, you should go to your quarters and get some rest. It is 1 am," said a voice of a women.

Kaguya Nyamaki. She was also a part of this organization that Nicol was in. Her job wasn't much different than Nicol's, but she had to stay on missions longer and she had a much higher rank than Nicol's. She was the who actually found Nicol, when everyone thought he was dead. She had found him on this island, while walking it's beaches when she had found him. He was lucky to be found, because he was injured badly.

"I'll be going soon. I just want to finished up with some work that I started," Nicol replied as he looked back at her. "What are you doing up so late?" he asked.

"I'm just not tired. Your still looking up that girl.. Ichiru right?" she said, peering over at what Nicol was working at.

"Yea..."

Kaguya just let out a sigh. "You know you should just let her be.. I know that would be hard, but when she thought you were dead she had fallen in love once again," Kaguya paused to sit down on a chair. "From the way I see it. The person that she is marrying must have known her from the past, before she meet you. Then she disappears from that person and meets you, but when taken captive by the ship called the Archangel she meets that person from the past. Things then change when you are thought to be dead, and she gets closer to the person, till he asks her to marry him," she explained.

"I don't know what to do anymore," Nicol said, sighing as he rested his head on the desk.

"Well why don't you just confront her and just move on. And I don't mean breaking into her house either. Your living on the past Nicol and this Ichiru girl has moved on already."

"Yea... Maybe I should... Do you think you could help me think of something to say to her... You being a girl and all," he said, slightly looking at Kaguya.

"I'm not sure Nicol."

"Your the one who suggested it!"

"Fine here is what I will do. I will read over what you have to say to her and tell you what I think? Deal?"

"Thanks Kaguya.." he said, smiling at her. Kaguya was right about him living on the past, so he had to just walk away from it now.

"Your welcome. If it makes you feel better I'll watch from the sidelines when you tell her?" Kaguya said, standing up and making her way to the door and turning to look at him.

"Alright then," he said, watching her leave the room.

Nicol buried his head in his arms. Ever since he had meet Kaguya... He had felt different. He wanted to see Ichiru more, and stay away from Kaguya.. Maybe he was afraid that he might fall in love with Kaguya. "I dunno what to do anymore... I should just let Ichiru be with who she wants to be..." he muttered. Nicol saved his work and logged off the computer he was on. Standing up, he walked to the door of the room that led into the hallway.

He walked down the halls. Nobody seem to be in sight. Probably all sleeping, well expect for the few that worked during the night. A question was soon brought to his mind. Now he placed his hands behind his head and began to wondered how Asuran, Dearka, and Yzak were doing... Knowing each of them they were alive. He hadn't talked to them in a while. Nicol sort of missed the fighting between them. It was quite funny. He missed being with them, but things have changed now, he was no longer with ZAFT. And never will be again.

Lost in thoughts Nicol ignored the calls of little girl. "Nicol-kun! Nicol-kun!" yelled out the little girl that walked along side him.

Snapping back to reality, Nicol jumped a little. "Iris-chan.. You really shouldn't be yelling people are trying to sleep. And what are you doing up so late? I heard you got a mission early in the morning. You should be in bed," he said, stopping.

"Well first off, you were ignoring me so I had to yell. Second, I'm just not tired... Hey! How did you know I had one tomorrow!" She paused to think before she opened her mouth again. "One-san told you, didn't she?" Iris pouted.

"Uh yea she did," Nicol said, rubbing the back of his head with his one hand.

Iris Nyamaki younger sister of Kaguya Nyamaki. Iris is more child like. Even though she is 13 years old, she has great skills of spying. She is mostly away on missions with other people in the organization. She had her older sister always compete with. Sibling rivalry.

"Well I gotta go Nicol-kun," Iris said, winking at Nicol before taking off down the hall.

"Iris can be... odd sometimes..." Nicol commented to himself. He knew Iris liked him. Whenever she was around him, she liked to cling to his arm, like a fly to sticky trap. And to Nicol it seem liked whenever Kaguya saw Iris doing that she would get jealous. Iris was the type to be annoying, since her childish personality.

Nicol continued his walk to his dorm room. It was now 2 am in the morning. He still didn't know if he should just give up on Ichiru just yet.. Maybe she would come back... Nicol started to doubt that... She was getting married in less than a month. His thoughts were scrambled his mind. Each needing an answer. Nicol need to talk to Ichiru, he need to talk tell her. She would know what to do. Even though.. he was trying to get her back.. Maybe a talk was all it took...

Entering his room now, he walked over to his bed and let gravity do the rest of the work. He didn't bother changing into his nightwear. "What am I going to do... I'm so... confused..." Nicol murmured as he fell into a deep slumber.

Okay! Like I said in the beginning I'm really sorry for the late update. Okay! I got one note about a quote in this chapter. 'She has moved on.. your just living in the past.' I know some of you may get this, but I sure didn't when I wrote it so I am going to explain just in case. Well what it means is Ichiru has moved on to loving someone else, but Nicol hasn't, he is still in love with her. Oh yes, Kaguya and Iris Nyamaki will are going to be in later chapters. Just to let everyone know.There is goingto be a lot more Nicol now to. So look forwardto it! Well R&R!