-1Reflection

Disclaimer: not mine Jo owns everything you recognize. Everything you don't is mine. I also don't own the song Reflection.

Summary: After Harry leaves to go to war against Voldemort, Ginny falls into a depression. Will anyone notice? Will the one person who can make her happy again come home? Let's read her diary and find out. Song fic to Reflection from Mulan.

Dear Diary,

Harry left for war three months ago and no one has noticed my depression yet. I wonder if Harry will ever come back. He's only written me one letter and all it said was that he was still alive. I pretend to be fine with Harry, Ron, and Hermione off fighting the war without me but, I'm really not.

Look at me, I will never pass for a perfect bride or a perfect daughter

Can it be I'm not meant to play to this part. Now I see that if I were to be myself, I would break my family's heart.

I don't want to be caught up in a war I want them home. I want Harry and me to get married but, that's a fat chance. The rest of the family tries not to upset me but, I know they all talk about the war behind my back. I over heard mum and dad talking yesterday, and dad thinks that there is a slim chance that Harry will come back from the war at all. They all try to be happy to keep me from being too depressed. They think that if they don't talk about it then, I won't think about it but, they're wrong.

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me? Why is my reflection someone I don't know?

I can't say that I haven't tried to run away and find Harry because I have. I've tried to commit suicide many times. But, mum always seems to catch me and stop me. That's when they stopped talking about the war but, they're the only people in the wizarding world who aren't talking. I go to visit Fred and George at Diagon Alley and can hear all the other people around the alley discussing theories about what has been happening between Harry and Voldemort. Some say that Voldemort killed Harry along with half of the Order of the Phoenix. I hope that they are wrong. I no longer have school to take my mind off things. McGonagall closed the school after it was attacked by Death Eaters looking for members of the DA. Luckily the Order worked all summer on Death Eater proofing the castle so, we would be able to go to school. Unfortunately McGonagall closed the school anyway. I didn't start feeling depressed until the school closed. For awhile after school closed mum tried to home school me but, that didn't really work. She didn't remember enough of the curriculum to teach me what I would've learned at school. A lot of kids that were in my year in school have gotten permission from the minister to get their apparating lessons early. But, I didn't want mine. That would've made it too real.

Somehow I cannot hide who I am, though I've tried. When will my reflection show who I am inside?

Mum just came in and told me the news. There was a giant battle between the order and Voldemort. Ron and Hermione were killed in the crossfire between Harry and Voldemort. Finally Voldemort killed Harry but, when Harry died so did Voldemort so, the whole wizarding world is rejoicing except for me.

When will my reflection show who I am inside?