Authors note: I do not own the manga mars or any of its characters.
Kira opens her eyes and looks around the bare room. The light from the sun burns her eyes and she looks away. Sitting up in the bed she looks under the covers, seeing a shirt covering her. The faint hint of red shows through the shirt, wincing as she touches the wound. A pile of red bandages lies next to the bed and Kira blinks. Those were all hers, who did this for her. Was it Rei, he was the one that set her in the bed. The pain throbbed in her side and she lay back down. Pulling the covers over her head. She closes her eyes and thinks about everything that happened to her. The image of Masao above her naked haunted her mind. She thought about the knife digging in her side and the mouth against her breasts.
Why…why did he…do that to me? Was he trying to get back at Rei and thought that he could get some nooky. How could he…if it weren't for Rei…I would be…dead. She blinks back tears of pain and confusion. Thinking about Rei, what if she died and left him. How would he live, would he miss her? What if she let Masao have sex with her, how would Rei react? He would hate her and dump her. Then she would be all-alone, but that would be all her fault. She was always that way, she would never change. Pressing her hand to her heart she listens. The silent throb in her chest proved that she was alive and not dead. She remembered the hand on her throat choking her as he dug his knife into her. The never-ending pain filled her and she fell into the darkness again. The sounds of her childhood clashing in her ears, the heavy feeling of the blanket making her suffocate. The sudden feelings jolt her up, her eyes wide as she breathes heavily. She slowly calms down and watches as the sunsets and turns back around. Looking at the wall again.
The sound of footsteps at the door gets her attention. The door opens and closes, Rei enters the sweat pouring from his pores. He take off his shirt and tosses it over to the corner of the room. Wiping his forehead and digging in the fridge, pulling out a bottle of water. He sits down next to the window and looks out. Kira lays with her eyes open staring at the wall, listening to the sound of Rei's breathing.
His shadow stretching against the wall and into her view. She watches as he shifts and looks at the bed, setting down the bottle of water he gets up. Walking over to the bed he lies down and closes his eyes. He begins to talk to her, thinking she was unconscious. "Kira! If only you would wake up". He lay silent after that, his back to her. Getting up he sits back on the windowsill and looks at a photo that she had in her wallet. His hand twists the picture in the wallet and tosses it down. Finishing off the bottle of water he tosses it down. She listens and gulps. He was worried and all she could do was lie there and listen to his pain. His head goes down as he thinks. She whispers his name and she looks at her hand. He turns his head and looks at her.
"Hmmm, Kira?" He gets up and walks over to the bed. Bending down and touching her cheek, she smiles and holds his hand. "Kira. Hey you're awake! I was starting to worry". He gets a goofy grin on his face and hugs her to him. "Rei. Thank you, I was so afraid". He smiles at her and Lies down next to her. "Harumi has been worried sick and so has Tatsuya. You missed the last couple days of school. I called your mom to tell her you were sick and staying at my house".
Kira twisted around and looked into his eyes. The sudden warmth of his eyes, filled her with joy. Rei kissed her forehead and she looked up at him. Shuddering when he pulled away, lifting the covers and climbing under. Wrapping his arms around her again, cradling her. She felt so safe; he was the only man she felt safe with since her father's death. "Kira. What is it?"
She smiles and snuggles closer to him, "You're the first man who has made me feel safe, since my fathers death". He looked at her and frowned, there was nothing left for him to do. He couldn't help her any more then this. "Is this all I can do to help you Kira? I feel so helpless". "Rei. You have helped me, I would be dead if it weren't for you". The pain flashes in his eyes and he looks away. "Rei you are better then any other man I know. And I have seen many.
You're the one I trust, I won't die on you". Rei blinks and looks at her, his eyes close as he kisses her. She kisses him back.
The soft sound of breathing next to him was satisfying. He had to get to work but was afraid to leave her alone. She snuggles closer to him, "Kira…I have to go to work now". She looks at him, making him grin. "I hate to have to leave you by your self. You need to rest and not move too much. I will come home right away". She watches as he gets ready for work, her eyes already drifting close again. "Bye Rei. I will make you dinner when you get back". She drifts to sleep again, the blanket half pushed down. Rei walks over and smiles, kissing her as he pulls up the blanket.
Walking out he has a terrible feeling; he shouldn't be leaving her. Locking the door he walks down the stairs. Harumi walks up quickly, "Rei…is Kira all right?" Rei smiles deeply and nods. "I will stop by after school to visit her". She races away toward school as Rei gets on his bike. Speeding away he thinks about Kira alone by herself.
Kira looks at the ceiling, rolling on her side she looks around. There was nothing to do here. And she promised she would rest, sitting on the bed she sighs. What was she going to do all day? She looks at the room. Climbing out of bed, she sits down on the floor. Lifting her shirt up she looks at the wound. And lets it drop down again. Leaning against the bed she thinks, she wished that she could go outside.
Watching the clouds float across the sky from inside the window. Getting up on unsteady legs, she slowly walks up the stairs. Holding her side as she balances on the rail. She gasps as she walks up there. Barely making it before she falls on her knees on the top. The blood drenching her bandages as she gets back up and leans against a wall. Slipping down the wall and stretching her legs. The sun felt good against her body, the sudden ache in her side makes her wince.
Rei looks at his watch and then wipes sweat from his forehead. He had been working hard again. He could see her looking at him from the bed, the pain reflecting back at him. He hated to leave her but he had to. The soft touch of her arms around his body. He picked his phone and called the apartment, she should be able to get the phone with out any trouble. The phone rang loudly in his ear and then his answering machine picked up. He listens to message and then sighs. Turning off the phone, she was probably sound asleep. Well he could call later; he looks at his watch and then picks up his phone again. He was worried sick still, he needed to talk to her. The phone rings and then the answering machine picks up again. Where was she? She should have picked up, maybe he was right. She was just asleep, that's all. His mind seemed to drift back to her when he stopped to think.
His shift was over with. Maybe he should go directly home; she was lonely and bored by then. Sighing out he goes to his bike. Riding home with a sense of deep worry. Something might be wrong, was he attacking her again. The images flash in his face again. He nearly drives right through a red light. Kira was sitting in bed waiting for him to return. He could still see her taking care of him when he was sick. Parking his bike, he quickly walks up to the apartment.
Opening the door and peering in, his eyes searching for Kira. She wasn't in the apartment. Knocking on the bathroom door, he peers in it was empty. The fridge was still full too. Where was she? Panic filled him and he raced to the roof. She was leaning against a wall, sound asleep. Her hand against a bloody bandage. She had wanted to do something, so she beat her self up to come here.
"Kira. Wake up!" He hugs her to him and helps her down the stairs. She smiles widely at him, "Hey Kira. I thought I told you to rest. You should have stayed in bed. I worried about you when you didn't pick up the phone". Kira pulls closer against Rei. "I had nothing to do. So I decided to go out side". She sits on the bed and watches him take out more bandages. He cleans and dresses her wounds. Suddenly realizing that he was giving her the same lecture that he got so many times. He laughs and grabs her. "You said you'd make dinner". She looks at him with a look like finally I get to do something.
Getting up and wincing as she held her wound. His hands came around to support her as she falls down. His eyes lingering on her side and the pain. He was now giving her that you need to rest before you hurt your self-look. "I want to make dinner Rei, I feel lonely all by myself all day." She pleads with him; he taps his finger on her leg and then nods. "We could do it together." She balances and cooks what Rei gives her. He seems worried still, his hand comes around her wrist and he kisses her cheek. She sets the food on the plate and leans against him. He takes his plate and sits down on the bed with his eyes lingering on the food.
He smiles and starts to consume it all. She walks slowly over and sits down, watching him. Rei stops eating and then realizes she wasn't eating. Offering her some, "You need to eat. Or else you won't heal quickly." She takes a bite; she couldn't refuse him this. He forces her to eat the rest and grins. Setting the plate down, taking her into his arms.
"Kira. I want to you to tell me something. What did Masao do to you?" She blinks and starts to cry. He strokes her hair and tenderly holds her. "What happened?" She sobs and shakes; "He tried to rape me. He was naked above and made…me touch his manhood. I…I told him I didn't want to. He refused to stop and kissed…my breast. He bit hard; I tried to tell him. I wanted you to be the one to touch me that way. His…his…his body was naked in front of. I…I kicked him in the balls. He screamed and took out his knife and stabbed me…stabbed me. My blood was on his hands. He wiped his hands on my torn shirt. Then held my wrists down and told me about your past. I don't care…I said I wanted you any way. He choked me and I started to pass out. I tried to reach you. I tried to live for you. Then I blacked out and…and…!" She stops when his eyes linger on hers. He has tears dripping down his cheeks.
The stream of them pooling in the crinkles or his shirt. "Then I heard your voice calling me. And woke up." He leans his head against her chest and cries harder. "Don't scare me like that ever again. Wait till I get home to do something dangerous. You could have bled to death on the roof today." She was sobbing again into his chest and trying not to let him see. He whispers in her ear, "Even if he had raped you. I would still want you. It hurts to be helpless; I wanted to leave to protect you but then I realized as I watched I couldn't. "He looks away, the soft sound escaping his lips. "I know what your step father did to you. Don't return to them. Stay with me in this place. I just want you to stay. To protect you."
She felt his hands wiping tears away from her cheek and drying his own. "Why? I am already used." He blinks with wide eyes. "NO! You aren't, you still have your uses. You're not an item; you're a human. You make me want to live. And I want that so much. "She blinks with tears in her eyes and sobs into his chest. She kept crying. Rei frowns, "You make me want to live. You want to live. Come on. Give me a smile. Kira…!" He kisses her gently. Pulling her close to him to him. His hand goes to her breast and rubs. Kira gasps and closes her eyes. His hand steadily removing the shirt, gently pulling her against him as he pulls off her underwear. Gently finding her passage with his finger. He unzips his pants and slips them off. Taking off his underwear...
She winces and holds her side. Rei soothes her and kisses her breast. She moans loudly again and then falls back against him. Holding tightly to him, she winces. Rei closes his eyes and rocks her. Lying down on the bed and cradling her. He began to drift to sleep. Kira was still in pain. Pressing on her wound he falls asleep. Kira groans and falls unconscious against him. Her body lies limply in his arms, sleep came easy.
The warmth spread through her as she dreamt about Rei. The rough scar on his back makes her open her eyes. As she wearily watches him sleep. She couldn't sleep with this much pain. Her vision blurs and Rei jolts up. Looking at her. "Kira. You're bleeding." Rei gets up and grabs more bandages. Coming back and slowly wrapping her wound. She touches his cheek, gently caressing him. His eyes closed, leaning against her chest.
She grins, stroking his cheek and holding him against her. Tears fill her eyes. She kisses his head. Tears dripping down her face to his cheek. Rei kisses her breast and she gasps. He looks up at her, Taking her hand and placing it on his cheek. "You're so beautiful. I hate to leave you alone here but I have a race tomorrow. I want you stay. I will call you after every race. I promise." Kira looks at him and frowns. "No I don't want to be a burden. You just come home and I will be here. I promise. Just do what you love."