Love

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Disclaimer: I do not own the teen titans, if I did would I be here right now.

Author's Notes: Jeez I'm popping out fics faster than you could say olly, olly ox and spree. Well, according to my brother. I guess this is another drabble. The idea popped into my head, but I've seen it before. And no, this isn't another feel bad for the villain thing. Although, if you guys want I could make a series about that. Well I've said enough.

On With The Show:

Raven's P.O.V.

I look up from my book, to see Robin and Starfire walk in. I hear her giggle, I can only assume Robin must have said something funny. I avert my gaze back to my book.

The book isn't that interesting. It's some cheesy romance novel. It's not mine. It's Starfire's. I didn't have any other book to read, on the count of; one Beast Boy hid the latest book I've been reading and second I would go get another copy of it but I had bought the last one. I would just look for it, but if Beast Boy had it I don't want it back. Gawd knows what he's done with it.

I just keep staring at the book. I'll occasionally read a paragraph or two. Although, it's the same paragraph. The book is more of a distraction. I don't want to look up.

I don't want to look up because I would see them. It hurts too much to know, that they are truly in love. It does. It hurts even more to know that he'll never see me in the same light. He has only eyes for Starfire. What he sees in her he wont see in me. I wish he could though. It'll just be make believe when that happens.

I hear Starfire laugh at something else. It wasn't that funny, but hey what do I know. I'm just Raven, the unfeeling, girl, who wouldn't know humor, even if it slapped her in the face. That's my attitude towards myself.

Again I hear Starfire laugh. I can't take this anymore. I get up and start to walk towards the door. Before I go through the door, Cyborg calls my name.

"Hey, Raven you okay," said Viktor with worry in his voice.

I don't know why he's so worried; he knows why I'm leaving. The only reason he knows is because he's my older brother. Not really, I see him as one. He's always protecting me, and watching out for me.

"Yeah, I'm okay I'm just going to my room" I said in my monotone voice.

I was lying. Cyborg gave me a look. He knew I was lying. I'm never okay. I never was and never will be. Cyborg turns back to the game he, and Beast Boy were playing. Seeing that our conversation was over, I walked to my room.

As I entered I felt a wave of comfort hit me. This was the only place where I could truly let my guard down. It's the place where I could do what I wanted and not be judged.

People would judge; just by the way I looked. I hated it. If I walked down the street, they would point and snicker. I've learned not to let it get to me.

I know that in an instant if I wanted I could destroy the world. That's why they snicker, because they're afraid. They think if they put me down I won't be able to do anything. They should get their heads checked. The only reason why I don't unleash the evil that I have is because then I wouldn't be able to control myself. I would turn evil and never see the light again.

All this goes back to my father. He, Trigon the Terrible, the devil, practically Lucifer, was dumb enough to get with a human. Though it worked out for him later.

My mother, Arella was then brought to Azarath. My mother had me. I was the spawn of evil. I was then enclosed in the darkness. I was never showed love or compassion. They taught me how to control my powers. One day I was just fed up with it all. I fled. I didn't know where I was going. I just didn't want to be in Azarath, with those monks.

No one ever showed me compassion that was until I met him. I had escaped to Earth. I was wandering the streets until I met Robin. He had seen me trip and fall. I could have easily gotten up. Then, Robin came over and held a hand out for me. I grabbed it, although the motion was so foreign to me.

I later got to know him as he did me. At first I was afraid to tell him of my past and of my powers. I was afraid because I though he would scorn me, just like Azarath did. He then told me about how he wants to start a team of heroes. That's when I told him. For I knew he would not hate me but accept me for whom I was, not for what I have.

Together we recruited heroes. He recruited Beast Boy and Cyborg and I found Starfire. She was a lost alien looking somewhere to stay. When I walked by her, she stopped me and asked me where was she. I simply answered Earth. Thinking that was the only thing she wanted to ask me I walked on by. She just trailed after me. I didn't notice till I stopped and she bumped into me. She had squealed and shot a star bolt. Seeing as she didn't have anywhere to go I took her home.

I sometimes wonder if it was a mistake. Robin had fallen in love with her. When I think about it like this I hate myself even more. Starfire has always been kind to me. She treats me like a sister. And when I'm hurt she's there to help me cope.

When I was afraid, that I'd be the universe's destruction, Starfire was there to tell me that I'd be the universe's savior. When I was afraid that I'd hurt my friends, she'd tell me I was what held them together. And when I was afraid that I'd be alone, she would tell me that she'd always be there for me.

Starfire has always been there for me, just like Robin. When my father wanted to use me so he could rule the universe, Robin was there. When I was thrown off a building Robin was there, and when I was insecure about my self he was there. I knew from the moment I first met him I would fall in love with him.

I wasn't so sure at first. I had never known what love was. I had asked him one time and all he did was smile. I later asked him why he smiled. He told me that I was in love, if I was asking the question.

That's when I had a feeling that I did love him. When I really knew that I loved him with all my heart was when he went to hell for me. That's why when I defeated my father I hugged him. He hugged me back but I knew it was awkward for him.

After that moment I knew I was in love with him, but I wasn't so sure if he loved me. For days he ignored me. He spent more time with Starfire. The bond we had, started to disappear. Only remnants are left. I can only sense when he's in danger.

I've come to believe that he doesn't love me. In fact he's in love with Starfire. It doesn't bother me as much as it did before. They belong together, because I'm no good for Robin. He's far better off with Starfire.

My thoughts are then cut short when I hear a knocking on my door. I get up to see who it is. I only open the door, just enough so you could see one of my eyes. It was Robin.

"Hey Rae" He tells me while rubbing the back of his neck.

"Hello Robin"

"I just wanted to see if you were okay, you left the living room sort of fast"

"Yeah I'm okay, no need to worry"

"You know I worry because I care Raven, I care for you, and I couldn't live with my self if you were hurt"

"Thanks, Robin but I'm okay" I then smile. Apparently he saw it because he smiled, too.

"Okay Raven, by way smile more often"

He then walks down the hallway. I just discovered something. He does love me. It may not be the way I love him, but it's a start. Hopefully our bond will repair and I can learn to love him the way he loves me.

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Yeah it sucked. I just wanted to write it, or else my brother would have beaten me up because I would have bothered him with it. So please tell me what you guys think, and the next chapter of 'anything I want, right?' should be out soon.

Oh and I suggest that if you like code Lyoko, then you should head over to their section and read some of the fics, there, they're really awesome. I highly recommend the authors, LiStEn To YoUr HeArT, Notcreativeenoughtomakeone, StArRy.AnImE, Yayfulness, Trillinka, Blueyedblonde, tinkerbellbt, and aZn dReAmEr xD. And Star Split. I know it's a long list but they have really good fics.

Melissa out